I was locked in the black room, no windows or breaks in light anywhere and tied to a chair in what i guessed to be the middle of the room, i felt an overwhelming sense of panic rush through me and started to thrash about, knocking the chair i was tied to over i tried calling out as best i could with tape stuck to my mouth. the door flung open and i sucked in a deep breath.

"Be quiet you stupid little bitch or I will make you stay in here longer"

my Mother walked towards me and raised her hand hitting me hard across the cheek, she then proceeded to kick me in the stomach in her left hand clinging to a bottle of vodka.

"none of this would have happened if it wasn't for you, Daniel would still be here and everything would be great!"

she smashed the bottle on the wall and dragged a shard of broken glass across the top of my thigh, i screamed out in pain but it was muffled by the tape, letting tears roll down my cheek.

"oh shut up you little baby, i will send your father up to fix you"

at the mention of his name i started trembling and crying harder, my heart beat got faster, my palms were so sweaty and i couldn't breathe properly at all.

i heard the sound of footsteps coming up the stairs and the door opened, he walked towards me and dropped the bag he was holding bending down he grasped my leg in his hand and pulled it towards him

"well that's going to need a few stitches."

i shook my head tears pouring down my face

"no, no, no please no" i tried to get out

"shh stop being a baby, you better sit still i would give you pain relief but you deserve the pain"

he opened his bag and started leaning towards me with the needle

i shuffled away as hard as i could until it hit the wall

"Stay still!"

i shot awake trying to breathe clutching my chest with my hands and Cal's arms still wrapped round me I breathed a sigh of relief at seeing Ethan sitting opposite me he put his hand on my leg

"Maddie it's ok you are alright it was just a nightmare it's not real"

Ethan tried to reassure me, I grabbed Cal's hand and pulled it under the blanket he started stroking circles on the back of my hand I knew I was shaking but I didn't care he made me feel safe.

"Ethan maybe get Maddie some water bud?"

"yes of course, i will grab my kit on the way back to give you a quick check up too"

Ethan went to the kitchen Cal sat up and wrapped his free arm under my arms to pull me up to a sitting position as well then started to rub circles on my back

"Hey, hey calm down little one, you are fine I've got you, you are safe with me, just try and breathe"

Cal spoke in such a gentle and hushed tone, it made me relax slightly but I was still freaked out from that dream, I was still shaking and struggling to get my breath properly.

"Maddie turn around put your head on my chest"

I looked at him weirdly but did as I was told, as I was leaning towards his chest he guided my head and placed it so my ear was directly on his heart listening to every beat

"you said you felt relaxed when you heard it last time just listen and try and copy my breathing alright?"

I squeezed his hand so he knew I acknowledged what he was saying, he laid his free arm across my shoulder and started playing with my hair. It calmed me down very quickly and my breathing had almost returned back to normal. Ethan walked back through the door and held out his arm holding a glass of water I took it from him smiling and mumbling a quick thank you and taking some small sips before placing it down

Ethan sat on the table opposite the sofa Cal & I were on and started getting things out of his bag to check over Cal, seeing everything he had just brought back the flashback to the fore front of my mind

"excuse me i really need to make a call in my room"

i leapt up and ran to my bedroom locking the door behind me and sliding down onto the floor with my head in my hands and my knees up to my chest I just sobbed.

around ten minutes later there was a knock at my door

"err no go away please"

trying to steady my voice as much as possible

"Maddie come on open the door let me in"

Cal pleaded with me but i couldn't

"no Cal seriously i'm fine don't worry"

sniffing as quietly as i could i jumped up and went to the bathroom deciding I was going to go out tonight and try and forget about everything.

"Maddie we both know that isn't true come on let me in"

i heard Cal but i ignored him, as i was getting changed i heard footsteps outside my room, hoping it was Cal leaving

"Maddie its Ethan, can you open the door i just want to know you are ok"

letting out a sigh

"i am fine now will you both please leave me alone"

i heard shuffling outside my door and assumed they had both gone downstairs.

Applying the last of my make up, i opened my window and climbed down the ladder that was against the wall outside my room.

I walked the short ten minutes to the nightclub and went straight to the bar ordering shot after shot.

I was on the dance floor not giving a care in the world as to what I looked like I was too drunk to even think straight. needing the toilet i headed towards the ladies.

stumbling through the toilet door i knocked my head on the way down. groaning and raising my hand to my head I felt it was wet, i brought my hand back down and saw blood

"brilliant, nice one Maddie"

suddenly feeling sick i sat up and emptied my stomach into the toilet bowl

"ugh so gross"

I searched in my bag for some chewing gum, and ripped off toilet paper wiping my head of as much of the blood off that I could, i flushed the toilet and unlocked the door going to the mirror to see what damage i had done.

"ooh ouch, how did you manage that?"

a lady stood opposite me asked while looking at the cut on my head

"trying to blank out the world never works well huh?"

she smiled and laughed in agreement,

"i think you should go to the hospital and get that checked out?"

i shook my head and started searching for my phone before i knocked it out of my pocket

the lady bent down and picked it up for me before passing it back, i scrolled through my contacts trying to find Cal's name

"thanks but i will be fine nice to meet you..."

"zoe my name is zoe "

"im Maddie and i am going"

i pushed my way through the intoxicated crowds and out the front of the night club breathing in the fresh air, I dragged myself over to a little wall and climbed up sitting on it, lifting my phone back up i pressed dial...