3:16AM- Your eyes flutter open and you adjust to the darkness in your bedroom. You're tired but your brain remains awake; Slowly getting up from your bed you look out the window and notice the downpour, falling heavily onto your window. If you had to make a list about things you loved about winter, then it'd never end. But, your number one favorite thing about winter is the exhilarating feeling of icy cold drops falling onto your face. Retreating from the window you fish through your suitcase, digging out a tattered notebook from the very bottom, no one knows but you've always had a joy in writing.
Clutching the notebook in your hand you grab your wallet from the dresser and make your way down the hallway, but first you check on your mom, and you're glad to see that she's still sleeping soundly. As you close the front door, you start walking to that little coffee shop a block away from your house. Getting your coffee, you take a seat by the large window near the back and stare outside. Feeling creative, you decide to write a poem
Every so often when rain comes
People grimace and try to avoid it
Though, not many people realize rain is such a lovely thing
Just the sound of it can bring back cherished memories
Setting your pen down, you continue to stare off in space, subconsciously playing with the necklace around your neck. It's a small golden locket engraved with a cursive B. A smile plays at your lips as your remember how you received it.
Flashback- December 19th - 7:19PM - She shot you a text asking if you could help her find something, and you decided to answer back after you've finished your mixes, but two minutes later she shot you another one, a little more urgent this time, and a minute after that practically begging you to come over and help her. Walking out of your dorm, it's pretty chilly and the sky is a dark gray.
That's when the first drop hits you and you quicken your pace to her dorm, by the time you get there, you see her on the grass, oh her hands and knees frantically searching. Kneeling down she looks up at you, and you can tell she's been crying from all the stress this little lost thing has given her. You two are both drenched and you convince her to come inside before she gets sick, a look of defeat flashes across her face, and she accepts.
Once at her dorm, you both dry off and sit across each other on her couch. A moment of silence passes as she starts "It was a locket I bought for someone who's so special to me..".."And it's gone forever, I wanted to give it to them before they left for break." You can't help but feel kind of sad, not only that the gift is gone...but it was for someone much more important that you.
You comfort her for two hours saying that the person would understand and they shouldn't be so mad. She nods and you tell her you have to get back to your dorm to finish packing for New York tomorrow. As she follows behind, you turn around to give her a hug and she's crying again. You smile softly and wrap her in a hug, and it's really strange this time, because she's crying into your neck, and clinging onto your clothes like she'll never see you again. Usually it's a 5 second "K, see ya" hug but now it's more like a "I'm being deployed for 9 months type of hug." But you try not to think about the difference cause Chloe is Chloe and she's always so touchy feely. Maybe this time is different because she's sad and needs a shoulder to cry on. You assure again that they'll be fine and slip out the door.
Walking back to your dorm, you pass by a street lamp and notice a small shiny object reflecting in the grass, It's a golden locket and has a small cursive "B" on it. You observe it and find a small note written inside the locket.
"Stay sweet, always"
Setting it down on your dresser, you hop into bed praying that it's Chloe's and that it was meant to be given to you...But then you remember her boyfriend and your hopes come crashing down...Wait, what was his name? Brad? Ben? Braxton?
The next morning you walk up to her dorm, and you're greeted by her boyfriend (Oh God, of all people.) He rolls his eyes at the sight of you and goes to sit down, watching football. When they first started dating two months ago you were sad, but not as much as you are now.
Isn't funny how the main source of your happiness could also be the main source of your pain?
Before going into the kitchen you discretely slide a small black box under the tree and walk in. When she sees you, she give a bright smile and you can feel your heart hammering. You two talk for a few minutes or so before her boyfriend calls for her. Annoyed she answers "Tom, what do you want?" And he answers with someone completely incoherent or whatever, cause you're so confused as to who the gift is for...since his name obviously does not start with a B.
As she's talking to him in the living room, you decide to leave as well, but you leave a note on the counter along with the necklace.
"Couldn't stay much longer, I have to leave in couple of minutes, Let's not try to lose this next time, right? Happy Hols xx, P.S. I can't think of anyone close to you with a B? "
She was about to ask what made you decide to come visit before leaving and her eyes are immediately downcast as she finds you nowhere in sight. Her mood jumps when she sees the necklace and a note from you.
As you're strolling down your luggage to your car you hear shrieking and turn around to see a very happy Chloe hollering your name. It's pleasant but a definite surprise to say the least.
Finally catching up to you, she tackles you in a hug and goes on and on saying you're the absolute best. But then she says how painful it is to explain how oblivious you are to absolutely everything. Without another word she gives you the locket and hugs you. "It's for you, dummy!" Even though she just insulted you, you find it very endearing and smile even wider.
You are pulled out of your thoughts when you notice a very attentive Jessie sitting across from you, a look of awe in his face. At first you're surprised, and find it very creepy but remember that he came a week earlier for his mom's knee surgery.
That little coffee shop was a place you and him went to often as teenagers, and you two always sat at the same table close to the back of the shop where the large window was.
He spoke up, a smile still on his face "Still thinking of her, huh?"
You look down at your coffee "What else is new?".."Same ol' shit, flirting with me, then going off with someone else who could give less than a shit about her."
"Maybe she has a reason?"
"Yeah I doubt it, I mean I don't think she's exactly aware of my feelings..so yah."
"Well...maybe you aren't exactly aware of hers, yah?" He replies mocking a little
You two talked for a few more hours and decided to break it off, walking into the house you head for your room and collapse on your bed.
You haven't felt this drained (Emotionally and Physically) since your father left...