There have been times where you've felt pretty down, but nothing compares to what you're feeling now. No words can mend your broken heart, and what she just texted you proves, that indeed, you can't trust anyone; cause eventually everyone will hurt you, intended or not. So if you lay yourself too thin, people will walk all over you and not give a shit.

You don't hate Chloe, cause you find it physically and mentally impossible to do so. But you can't be mad at her, but you don't want to chew her out, cause if you did, then she'd probably cry for days and days on end. No one knows that when you're mad, you become the worst person ever, and nothing will stop you once you get going. It's simple, once someone makes it onto your blacklist, they stay there permanently.

10:23PM - Wednesday - December 12th

Those thoughts invade your mind and your eyes are downcast while doing so. Your suitcase is being slowly dragged behind you as you make your way to the elevator. What you don't notice is Chloe is walking into the complex with Tom and when she sees you, and as she's literally 30 feet away and when she sees you, her eyes narrow into little slits, her eyebrows are furrowed and her fists are balled up. She's too pissed to notice your slumped stature and downcast gaze.

As you enter the elevator you bump into a very shocked Aubrey. You look at her with a sad smile, and she immediately starts explaining everything to you. And you're glad she's telling you this, cause you're finally catching up. She asks if you're mad and you shake your head no, cause she had to do... what she had to do, because you requested it. You know this whole mess is your fault but you didn't want any of the Bellas seeing you hurt in any way. So you did what you do best and escaped when things were hard.

As an impulse Aubrey hugs you and you're a little shocked, this is so unlike her. As Chloe sees this exchange she's about to squeeze Tom's hand off cause she's so mad. So she jets off to her dorm.

After you two hug (or more like her hug you out of the guilt she feels.) You both depart, and when you make it to your floor, you're kind of pissed cause you have to pass Chloe's dorm. You slowly trudge, your mind wandering to how you've said absolutely nothing while coming back and that's when you snap out of your thoughts because you happen to hear a whole shit load of ruckus. The door of Chloe's dorm is open and as you walk by you see the two against the wall in a rough tongue battle. From your peripheral vision you see Chloe, and when she sees you, she stares not even for a second and slams the door her absolute hardest.

You're sad. No, not even sad. You're falling into a state of deep depression, and there's nothing that can help you. You figure it's time to end your life right now, right? You want to do that cause you have nothing to live for. You just want to grab those pills on your dresser, or take a razor and cut away the pain.

But you don't

You look at your tattoo and shake away from all the negative thoughts. You do have something to live for or rather someone, and that's your mom.

You can't do this, and you refuse to sink. You need to be strong.

3:16AM - Even though you gave yourself a pep talk, the feeling of heart break will...most likely stay for God knows how long. As you're lying in your bed curled up into a little ball, the tears slip out. Because even though you decided not to end your life, you're still really hurting.

3:37AM- There's a loud banging on your door, and when you open it up, you see the existence of your heart break standing in front of you. She's obviously drunk and you can tell she's been crying. And when you look her in the eyes, you see something you've never seen before...maybe it's hate, or rage..you don't really know, but what you do know is that it isn't a good thing. And that's when she starts yelling...

"I CAN'T EVEN FUCKING BELIEVE YOU!, OF ALL PEOPLE, YOU ANSWER AUBREY! YOU'RE THE WORST BEST FRIEND EVER! GOD, SERIOUSLY, CAN'T YOU TELL SHE DOESN'T EVEN LIKE YOU? NO ONE LIKES YOU! ESPECIALLY ME! YOU'RE A BACK STABBING BITCH, I TRIED TO CARE FOR YOU BUT NO, ALL YOU EVER DO IS PUSH PEOPLE AWAY CAUSE YOU'RE SELFISH!"

At first you take her words to heart..but then you start to get pissed cause she has NO FUCKING CLUE what the hell she's talking about. The sadness in your heart gets replaced with anger as she talks down to you, and she's been yelling for like 20 minutes. Like shit, you done yet? You check your watch and it's already 4AM. And surprisingly, you haven't said not one word to her, figuring this won't end soon, you step out the dorm and she's still yelling. As you check the hallway you walk back in and yawn, and that makes her even angrier, she getting angry cause you have a poker face and she honestly expected you to argue back, but in this situation you're being the bigger person, so you're letting her have her little tantrum. You're pretending those words don't hurt you, but they do. And they're cutting in deep. As of now you're done with her shit so out of nowhere you slam the door the hardest you can and at last silence.