Sunday 13th April

''You can't stay here forever, you know.''

''I'll be out of your hair tomorrow.''

''It's not that, you're welcome to stay here as long as you want. But you're going to have to talk to him eventually, you know that, right?''

Alexa nodded, sending a small smile Jason's way as he poured her a cup of coffee. ''I know.''

After Jon's visit, she had decided that she wanted to put off seeing him as long as possible to give her time to get her head together. She knew if she stayed at home she would just spend all her time off moping around the house, especially with Saraya so busy at NXT, so she had decided to pay a visit to her second-favourite Canadian. He was still on a leave of absence due to his shoulder injury, so she thought it would be nice to see him for a few days.

''Besides, if you stay here much longer, people are going to start talking.'' He teased lightly, handing her the cup.

''Who cares? I'm already the bike of the company according to TMZ. Everybody's had a ride.''

Jason snorted, sliding into a seat at the breakfast bar opposite her. ''Don't worry about what the dirt sheets say. Anyone who knows the real you, knows that it's all a bunch of bull.''

She shrugged, staring down into her mug. ''I thought Jon knew the real me.''

''Yeah, well, he's an idiot.''

''What do you think I should do?''

''You're seriously asking me for advice?'' He raised an eyebrow in surprise. ''The old Lex would never have dreamed of asking someone else for help.''

''Yeah, well I figured since you're all old and shit now, you can share some of that wisdom with me.''

''Cheeky bitch, I'm not old!''

''Dure, you're almost fourty, you're like a geriatric.'' She joked, chuckling at his unimpressed expression. ''Want me to get you a walker for your birthday?''

''God, I don't remember you being this annoying.'' He muttered, taking a sip of his drink.

''That'll be the old age.''

''You want me help, or not?''

''Sorry.'' She mimed zipping up her lips, her eyes shining with mirth.

''Do you love him?''

''Yes.''

''Why?''

''What?'' Her eyebrows furrowed in confusion.

He let out an exasperated sigh. ''Just humour me.''

''I don't know, he's just... he's amazing. After everything with Randy, I honestly thought I'd never be able to let anyone in again and I'd die a lonely old cat lady. Which would suck, because I hate cats... but then I met Jon and he kind of crept up on me. It's kind of awesome that there's someone out there who knows everything about me, someone who isn't genetically or legally required to love me, but does so anyway.''

''Then that's all you need, there's your answer.'' Jason reasoned. ''Look, the worst thing you can do is let your head second guess your heart. Nobody's perfect, Lex. It's obvious you love him and that he makes you happy, don't let one mistake ruin everything you two have.''

''You're right. I mean, I'm still pissed that he said all that stuff, but I don't want to lose him.'' She nodded, chewing her lip as she mulled over his words. ''But, I'm still going to make him sweat for a while longer.''

''Attagirl.'' He chuckled, raising his arm for a high-five.

She rolled her eyes, slapping her palm against his before shooting him an expectant look. ''So, what's this big thing you and Denise are keeping quiet?''

''What?''

''Please, you two have been acting weird.'' She raised an eyebrow. ''Whispering and then as soon as I walk into the room you both go quiet... come on, spill.''

He stared at her for a few seconds before sighing. ''Okay, fine, but you have to promise not to tell anyone.''

''I promise.'' She swore. ''I still haven't told Adam that you were the one who shrunk all his tights that one time, or that it was you who cut all the crotches out of Randy's trunks after we broke up.''

''That's true.'' He nodded, smirking at the memory. ''Denise is pregnant.''

Alexa just stared at him for a moment as what he had just said registered in her mind before a huge grin appeared on her face. ''Oh my God! That's amazing!''

''I know, right?'' He smiled happily. ''We've been trying for a while now, so... yeah, it finally happened.''

''I'm so happy for you guys!'' She squealed. ''When's she due?''

''Beginning of November.''

''This is awesome! I can't believe this, you're going to be the best parents anyone could ever hope for.''

''Thanks, Lex.''

''You know, this is going to sound weird, but you and Adam were always so close, I used to imagine you two, like, co-ordinating and having kids at the same time. Then they would grow up and be best friends like...'' Her mouth dropped open as the man's eyes shifted away from her and he fidgeted in his seat. ''No fucking way! Adam and Beth? Seriously.''

''We didn't plan it or anything, but yeah, I found out a few days ago. He called me from New York to tell me and I was like, 'hey, we're pregnant too,' it's crazy.''

''Are they due around the same time?''

''Yeah.''

''Man, that's nuts... I can just see it now; Wrestlemania fifty-five, Christian and Edge walking out with their children as they go to battle.''

Jason laughed. ''That would be so cool.''

''It would totally 'reek of awesomeness'.''

Monday 15th April

I love you - Jon.

Jon's been round twice today, he brought flowers and chocolate. I may have eaten the chocolate... - Saraya.

We need to talk - Jon.

When's your flight to South Carolina? - Colby.

Can we talk? - Phil.

You here yet? We need to go over our match? - Colby.

Let me know if you need a ride home after the show - Chris.

Where the hell are you? - Colby.

Alexa quickly typed out replies to Colby and Saraya before shoving her phone back into her pocket, quickly making her way through the backstage area of the Bi Lo Center. She had been stupid enough to decide to fly out early this morning rather than catch a flight last night, big mistake. There had been delays all day, meaning she had arrived at the arena just two hours before the show was due to start.

Celeste barely looked up from her phone as Alexa burst into the women's locker room. ''You're late.''

''Yeah, my flight was delayed and then they couldn't find my bags.'' She huffed, lifting her bag up onto the bench before un-zipping it, yanking out her gear for the night.

''Here's your script.'' The Texan grabbed the wad of paper that was beside her and threw it in the other woman's direction. ''You haven't got any promos or anything, but me and Daniel are facing you and Colby later.''

Alexa arched an eyebrow. ''Really?''

''Yep. The figured since The Shield will be feuding with Team Hell no over the next few weeks, they'd tease it a bit now. So, You better get ready quick so we can go and meet the guys and go over the match.''

''On it.'' She replied, starting to strip off her clothes as she looked around, taking notice of the empty room. ''Where is everyone?''

''Oh, I think they're filming stuff for Total Divas.''

She nodded, vaguely remembering seeing a bunch of unfamiliar cameras on her way in. ''April?''

''She's with Nick and E.'' Celeste replied, looking at her curiously. ''So... have you and Jon sorted things out?''

''Not yet.'' She pulled on her shorts and dropped down to take a seat beside her bag before slipping on her kneepads. ''I'm going to talk to him later.''

''Phil stopped by earlier looking for you. He, uh, seemed pretty upset.''

''Yeah?'' Alexa asked disinterestedly, grunting as she pulled on her boots.

''He's taking a sabbatical after tonight.''

''What? Why?''

''Apparantly he's got some nagging injuries that need to heal.''

She frowned, feeling immediate concern for her friend. ''Nothing serious though, right?''

''Not as far as I know.''

''High-flying hotties are in business!''

Alexa laughed, high-fiving Colby as they made their way backstage. They had picked up the win and the match had been well received by the crowd, the pairs high-flying styles meshing well together.

''We do make a pretty good team.''

Colby nodded, grinning at her as he jerked his hand behind him. ''We should ditch these two and just form our own tag team.''

Her smile faltered when she remembered who was trailing behind them, glancing back to find Jon's intense gaze firmly on her. Shifting her eyes slightly to the left, she found Joe also staring at her guiltily.

''You need a ride back to the hotel after the show?''

''No, I'm heading straight home.'' Alexa turned back to Colby, shaking her head. ''They've taken me off the taping tomorrow so I can help run a training session at the Performance Center with Sara.''

They continued their journey in silence, made awkward by the fact that she could feel the two men behind staring at her the entire time. So, she let out a relieved sigh when they finally came to the women's locker room, reaching for the door handle just as Colby spoke.

''I'm going to head back to the locker room.'' He said, shooting pointed looks at the two men before smiling at her. ''Give me a call later, yeah?''

''Sure.'' Alexa nodded as he wandered off, watching him for a second before her eyes came to rest on the men in front of her.

''Lex, I...'' Joe was the first to speak, his voice soft and his eyes conveying just how bad he felt. ''I'm really sorry for the way I treated you, I just... I was lookng out for my bro, you know. But I should've known better. I know you and, despite how it looked, I know you would never do something like that. So, I'm sorry.'' He finished with a sigh, lifting his eyes to meet hers before turning to Jon. ''I'll leave you guys to talk.''

Jon nodded and waited until he had left before opening his mouth to speak, but Alexa quickly beat him to it.

''Look, I'm supposed to be leaving with Chris, like, now, but I have a feeling this conversation's going to take a while. Let me go text Chris and ask him if he minds waiting, then after I get changed we can go talk somewhere, sound good?''

''Sure.'' He replied, reaching out to place a gentle hand on her arm as she reached for the door. ''You know I love you, right?''

''I know.'' Pausing briefly, she nodded and turned to him with a tight smile. ''I love you, too.''

Alexa had just slipped back into the clothes she had been wearing when she arrived at the arena, when a loud knock sounded. She rolled her eyes, heaving out a sigh as she stomped over to the door and swung it open.

''I told you, I... oh, it's you.''

''Can we talk?'' Phil asked softly.

''I honestly don't have much to say right now. I have to go and sort things with my boyfr-'' She cut herself off, her voice snarky. ''Sorry, ex-boyfriend and I think that's more important.''

''I won't keep you long.''

Her mouth dropped open in indignation as he pushed his way past her and walked into the room. ''I said-''

''Just, listen, alright?''

''Fine.'' Alexa crossed her arms over her chest, looking at him expectantly. ''Make it quick.''

''I'm not going to be around for a couple of months, I wanted to make things right between us before I leave.'' He ran a hand over his head, lifting his eyes to meet her gaze. ''I'm sorry, okay? I never meant for all this to happen.''

''What did you think was going to happen?'' She shot back. ''That you'd kiss me and we'd ride off into the sunset together, and live happily ever after?''

''Honestly? I don't know what I was thinking.'' He admitted. ''That kiss was weeks of pent-up frustration. I've been having these... feelings for you and I didn't know how to handle them.''

''Then why didn't you just talk to me? We've been friends a long time, you know you could've just talked to me about it.''

''I wanted to but Scott convinced me not too, he said that maybe if I didn't see you for a while then it would go away.''

''You seriously took advice from Scotty?'' She couldn't help but snort. ''The same man who told me to stick a fork in my outlet to straighten it up, when I said my plugs kept bending?''

A heavy sigh rolled out of Phil's mouth, knowing that she was right; Scott was the last person he should be accepting advice from.

''Look, I'm sorry, alright, but I can't help how I feel.''

''In all the years we've known each other, not once have you ever given me the hint that you felt like this. It was probably just the storyline, making you think-''

''No.'' He forcefully cut her off. ''Don't tell me how I feel, you have no idea. The whole angle we did just dragged up things I thought I'd buried and it's got to the point where I have to say something or I'll regret it.''

''Phil...'' She swallowed heavily. ''What-''

''You don't see it do you, I think I've always felt this way but it's never been the right time-''

''There's never going to be a right time, I don't feel the same an-''

''How can you know that for sure?'' Phil took a step towards her, a look of slight desperation on his face.

''Because I love Jon, okay!'' She threw her hands in the air. ''And even if Jon wasn't in the picture, there would still be no chance of me and you happening. You're my friend, Phil, that's it.''

''I had to sit and watch you waste four years of your life with Randy. And who was there for you when it all turned into one, massive clusterfuck? I was. There was a part of me that hoped when you got over everything that happened with him, it would've finally been my chance, you know? That all my past relationships never worked out because I was waiting for you... Then you had to go and meet Jon. Are you really going to make me watch you waste more time on someone who doesn't deserve you?''

''How fucking dare you! Who are you to tell me who does, or doesn't deserve me?'' She glared across at him. ''I love Jon and he makes me happy.''

''You're too good for him.''

''You need to go.'' She told him softly, not wanting to hear any more. ''This conversation's over.''

''Lex-''

''No, Phil!'' Alexa cried, feeling herself buzzing with anger. ''Look, I'm sorry I don't feel the same but that gives you no right to come in here and shit all over my relationship with Jon. I love you like a brother, and I'll always be here for you as a friend, that'll never change. There's a woman out there who's perfect for you, she's the reason it never worked out with anyone else. But it's not me. If you really care about me as much as you say you do, you'll respect my wishes and just leave.''

Phil looked like he was about to argue for a moment before he nodded, giving a resigned shrug before stepping out of the room. As soon as she heard the soft click of the door closing, the last remnants of her resolve broke down and her eyes filled with tears as she wondered if that was the end of their friendship.

She didn't have much time to contemplate though, when she suddenly heard a loud commotion from outside the door. Moving across the room, she swung it open and peered out, her eyes widening when she saw Phil and Jon facing off down the hall.

Alexa dashed over and quickly stepped in between the pair, planting a hand on each of their chests. ''Come on guys, leave it.''

Ignoring her, Jon glared at the man opposite him. ''What the fuck do you think you're doing?''

''I'm just trying to make her see what a colossal mistake she's making with you.''

''Oh, I know, I was right outside the door, I heard everything.'' Jon pushed against her hand as she moved forward.

''Look, you're a good guy, Jon.'' Phil tried to placate him. ''But you don't deserve her.''

''And you do?'' He scoffed. ''Please.''

''Jon!'' Alexa tried shoving them back.

''Where were you the other night, huh? When she was getting harassed by fans, I had to step in because you were nowhere to be seen!''

''Like I knew that was going to happen?!'' He retorted angrily. ''She's a big girl, she can take care of herself just fine, she doesn't need me around to hold her hand.''

''Phil, just go.'' She pleaded.

''See, Phil, she doesn't want you around.'' Jon snarled. ''If I were you, I'd savour the memory of that kiss, because that's the closest you're ever going to get to this little fantasy of yours.''

There was no holding Phil back after that, something inside him snapped and he launched himself at the other man.

''Phil!'' Alexa screamed, watching in horror as the Chicagoan landed punch after punch. ''Stop it!''

Her cries drew several people running from the locker room to see what was going on; Colby, Joe and Daniel all running over to try to tear them off each other as they brawled.

Colby spared her a concerned glance. ''What the fuck is going on?''

''Get off me!'' Jon sneered, lashing out at Daniel and Joe, sending the two men stumbling back before swinging at Phil.

Alexa pushed past the pair, grabbing one of Jon's arms and tugging hard. ''Jon, please!''

He yanked it away and she stumbled at the force of it before she went back and tried to pry him away from Phil. He squirmed his way out of her grasp but she latched back onto his shoulder and gave it a hard tug, only for him to reel back and send his elbow flying into her face.

Everything froze

She felt the impact on her mouth and instantly knew it had split her lip open, tears in her eyes as she lifted her hand to cover her face in a desperate attempt to ease the throbbing pain.

The two men shuffled to their feet, their attention immediately shifting to her.

''Lex-'' Jon started, his blue eyes holding nothing but remorse.

''See, I told you he-''

''Shut your fucking mouth.''

Everyone stared at her, eyes wide at the calm whisper that came out of her mouth.

''Now, you two listen to me and you listen fucking good, alright? This is the end of it, okay? If I ever hear of you two fighting again, then we're going to have serious fucking problems. Phil, I suggest you get your shit together and leave, I think you've done enough.''

''He starte-''

''You heard her, man.'' Daniel said softly. ''Just go.''

''Let me see.''

Alexa let her hands drop from her face, revealing the bloody and swollen lip she was now sporting and wincing as Colby dabbed at it gently with a paper towel. She found herself getting Déjà vu; remembering back to when she tried to intervene when Phil and Randy were fighting, that hadn't ended well for her either.

After Phil had stormed off, Colby had led her back to the locker room to get her cleaned up, while Joe and Daniel stayed behind to calm Jon down.

''Is it bad?''

He smiled. ''I've seen worse.''

They both looked over as the door slowly creaked open, Jon's head peeping through the gap briefly before he made his way inside. He held his hand up as she tried to speak, shaking his head as his sorrowful eyes met hers.

''Don't say anything, just listen, alright?''

She nodded reluctantly, a bad feeling settling into the pit of her stomach as his eyes dropped to the floor and he spoke again.

''Look, I know this past weeks been fucked up and that's on me, I shouldn't have reacted the way I did when I saw that photo and I'm sorry. But I've had the last few days to think and hearing everything Phil said to you... I'm sorry you got hurt, I didn't know it was you behind me... I think he's right, you deserve better than me and this just proves it.''

''You...'' Her chest tightened painfully when the meaning behind his words became clear. ''You want to break up, for real?''

Jon shifted uncomfortably on the spot and avoided her gaze entirely. ''Yes.''

''Jon-''

''I'm sorry.''

He left just as quickly as he came, leaving the pair sitting in silence; Alexa trying to hold the tears in and Colby inwardly cursing the man's stupidity.

''Lex?''

She just shook her head, a whimper escaping her lips as she tried to hold it together. The man beside her wordlessly draped an arm around her, pulling gently until she collapsed against his chest, her arms wrapping around his waist.

He ducked his head over hers, his arms tightening around her as she sobbed. ''It's going to be okay.''

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