Wednesday 22nd May
WWEBigE: First time in Iowa since I signed with "The Company" nearly 4 years ago. You can find me reminiscing at your local Kum & Go. #HawkeyeState
RealSierra: The Kum and Go... The ejaculate and evacuate.
WWEBigE: Jizz and jet.
RealSierra: Shoot and scoot.
WWEBigE: Blow your load and hit the road.
RealSierra: Bust ya nut and off ya strut.
WWEBigE: ...You win...
Alexa closed down the Twitter app and opened up her messages, finding a new one from Saraya, telling her how much she missed her and that she had somehow managed to break the washing machine. Rolling her eyes, she tapped out her reply before scrolling down to the one of the last messages she had received from Jon before everything had gone to shit.
I love you.
She gnawed on her lip briefly before doing something she promised herself she wouldn't, she typed out a message, her finger hovering over 'send' for a few seconds before she changed her mind and quickly deleted the text.
''What's up buttercup?''
Shooting her on-screen husband a tight smile, she shook her head. ''Nothing, just thinking.''
He just nodded, dropping down to perch on the bench beside her, watching as the screw set up for the next scene. ''So, we're almost done... what did you think about the whole thing?''
''I'm actually surprised at how much I loved it.'' She smiled at him. ''It's a completely different environment from everything I'm used to and it's so much fun... and working with you guys has been awesome.''
''Ditto. It's been great, you've done so well.'' Seth grinned back. ''You know, the other producers were pretty dubious when I put your name forward for this but I'm so glad they took a chance on you.''
''Me too.''
''And it's nice to see you smiling... the first few days here you-''
''You were a miserable biatch.'' Zac supplied as he took the seat next to her, shooting her a shit-eating grin.
''Leave her alone, man, you're just jealous that she can lift more than you.''
Alexa snorted as the younger man scowled, mumbling something unintelligible under his breath. During her time away she wanted to make sure she kept up with her work-out routine, so she wouldn't be in bad shape when she returned. Zac, being somewhat of a fitness fanatic himself, had helped her join a local gym and had been rather put out when she managed to beat him in a lifting contest.
''That was a fluke.''
She gave him a gentle pat on the back. ''Whatever you need to tell yourself...''
''You going to make an appearance at the wrap party next week?'' Seth asked. ''Or do you have to fly straight back to work.''
''I'll be there. I'm not due back until June sixteenth, so I'm pretty much free until then.''
''Cool... hey, you should see if your boyfriend can make it.'' The Canadian suggested. ''Unless he's too busy.''
''Uh, we're not... we, uh, kind of broke up.'' Alexa told him awkwardly.
''Weren't you guys looking to move into a new place together?'' Seth asked, remembering her comments from the talk show.
''Yeah.''
''Oh, man, that sucks.'' Zac muttered sympathetically, slinging an arm over her shoulder.
Seth did the same on the other side of her. ''Well, it's his loss.''
''Totally, he's an idiot. Look at you, you're fucking gorgeous!''
''Yeah, you can find someone new, like that.'' He clicked his fingers in front of her.
''Yeah, I'll even take one for the team, if it'll cheer you up.''
Seth reached over and slapped the younger man upside the head. ''I don't think she'll ever be that desperate.''
''Yeah, no offence, Zac, but you couldn't handle this.'' Alexa teased lightly. ''I need a real man, you know?''
''She's right, dude, I think she'd eat you alive.''
Jon hadn't really put much thought into what he was going to when he got to LA, deciding that he was just going to wing it. After much persuasion, Chris had reluctantly given him the room number and hotel she was staying in, with a warning that if he ever hurt her again he was getting his ass kicked, Jericho style.
Colby had helped him book a cheap flight from Nebraska to Los Angeles, the only one they had available had been the red eye on Tuesday evening; meaning he had to dash straight to the airport as soon as the Smackdown taping had finished.
What he hadn't anticipated, was her not being in her room.
After knocking for several minutes and receiving no response, he resigned himself to waiting and dropped to the floor, leaning back against the door with a sigh as he closed his eyes.
''Hey, Lex... there's some dude asleep outside your room...''
Alexa looked up from her purse, she had been in the process of digging her hotel key card from it, glancing down the hall to find that Seth was right. But it wasn't just some dude, it was Jon.
Once they had finished shooting for the day, the pair had decided to head to a local bar for a few drinks, along with Zac and a couple of other members of the cast and crew before Seth had given her a ride back to her hotel. She started to feel guilty when she realized that he must have been there a long time, especially if he had fallen asleep.
''Want me to get security or something?''
''It's okay, I know him.''
''Ahhh.'' He nodded, realization dawning on him. ''That the ex?''
''Yeah.'' She said, her heart hammering in her chest. ''Thanks for walking me up.''
''You going to be alright?'' He questioned, starting to head back the way he came at her nod. ''Okay, I'll see you tomorrow.''
Alexa called out a goodbye before turning to the man slumped against her door and speaking softly. ''Jon?''
Receiving no response, she sighed and gave him a hard jab in the thigh with her foot, the man jumping from his spot on the floor. His sleepy eyes landed on her and he scrambled to his feet, hand coming up to rub at his neck.
''Any particular reason you're sleeping outside my room like some kind of tramp?''
''I came to see you...'' Jon gave a little shrug, eyeing her nervously. ''So... can I come in?''
She opened her mouth, half-tempted to say no before snapping it shut and nodding as she stepped over to open the door. He had made the effort and flown all the way to Los Angeles just to see her, she figured the least she could do was hear what he had to say.
Without looking at him, she walked inside and took a step back, widening the door and holding it open for him. Burning holes in her with his gaze, Jon side-stepped into the room and she closed the door behind him, before moving over to the small living area and taking a seat.
He gingerly say down beside her before blurting out. ''I miss you.''
''You came all the way here just to tell me that?''
''And to tell you that I love you.'' He said softly. ''I know I fucked up and I wouldn't blame you if you never wanted to speak to me again, but I had to try.''
''You told me that you couldn't stand the thought of losing me, that you'd always be there for me... but then you broke up with me... I told you that I don't need anybody in my life that doesn't want to be there, remember? That goes for you, too.''
''I remember... I also remember telling you that I can be the world's biggest dick.'' He replied, reaching out to take her hand in his. ''I let what Phil said get to me and I'm sorry, it's just... you're this wonderful, perfect person and I can't help but feel like I'm kind of... unworthy of being with you. You deserve the best, you deserve someone perfect and-''
''I don't want someone perfect!'' Alexa snapped, effectively cutting him off. ''I want you, okay?''
''Want?'' He asked, his tone hopeful at the present tense. ''Does that mean...''
''What it means is that I love you.'' She told him honestly, her eyes starting to well up. ''You know, I used to cringe whenever I heard someone say that everything happens for a reason. I thought it was bullshit, something people would say just to make themselves feel better. But, then I met you... and I realized that every thing I've done, every decision I've made, every single thing that has happened to me has led me straight to you. If any one thing in my life was different, I wouldn't have found myself here, I wouldn't have found you. It sounds really corny, but maybe it's true, maybe some things really are meant to be... I want you. I want us. I want it all. With you and onlyyou... but I can't do that if you're just going to walk away from me every time you feel insecure about us.''
''I'll never leave you again.'' Jon shifted closer to her, his thumbs wiping away the stray droplets. ''I promise.''
''I've missed you too... you asshole.''
He leant in for a soft kiss, his hand caressing her cheek. ''I love you.''