A/N: hey guys.
Sorry for the long wait. It's just that I was hoping to post the next chapter along with all my other stories but his legacy is writer's blocking me so I figured going this long without posting really won't do. It's super frustrating cause I'm like ten thousand words down on that one but the plot is giving me issues. But I don't wanna half-ass it so that story will have to wait a bit longer.
Next chapter.
Edward's side of the story
I can be a very cynical writer so bare with me; none of the comments expressed in this story were meant to do any harm, they were written strictly for the sake of humour or insanity... You know what either way, I think it's an interesting read.
P.S: I channelled a bit of My Chemical Romance in this one. Desolation row to be more specific. I know Bob Dylan originally wrote the song but I like the MCR remix a little better.
Apologies spelling, grammar and OOCness
Disclaimer see first chapter.
Romeo and Juliet.
This story bores me.
The tragic tale of the two star crossed lovers destined to be together, but couldn't because of the many danger's that their love held for them. It's a bit of a cliché but, that isn't what pisses me off though, what pisses me off is little miss Mary-Sue.
So beautiful, so angelic, so sweet that it didn't take long for Paris and Romeo to fall hopelessly in love with her.
Naïve, immature, obviously lacking in intelligence, completely suicidal and as emo as they come and yet all these delusional men somehow found that endearing.
And Romeo, oh sweet Romeo.
The hot headed, simple little fool goes from pining after Rosaline to pining after her underage cousin in t-minus 0.5 seconds. Never mind that he knew this girl for all of two days before trying to kill himself over his one true love, but the man shows such little restraint during the mess with Mercutio and Tybalt that he ended up getting himself kicked out of Verona.
Granted it wasn't his fault, he just sort of got pulled into that mess and he acted in a blind rage, but let us not forget that he's the idiot that tried to get between them and tried to stop Mercutio, leading to Tybalt driving a sword through Mercutio's heart while Romeo distracted him.
Then of course there's the fact that Juliet was twelve while Romeo was almost twenty-one when they hooked up, meaning that Juliet honestly couldn't have had enough experience to be able to make the right decisions like not killing herself over a guy she met two days before. Of course, also meaning that Romeo was technically paedophile. Now you could argue that they were born in a different time when children's rights didn't exist and doing an eleven to twelve year old wasn't a big deal, but consider this;
If you had a twelve year old daughter and they were dating a twenty year old, would you be O.K with it? And if so, how long do you think they'll last until they end up on Jerry Springer?
Doesn't sound so romantic anymore now does it?
Me, I prefer the story of Cinderella.
The girl had character, she had class. She was loyal to all her little animal friends, respected her step mother and siblings regardless of how they treated her, worked her ass off every single day and had dreams for her future. She dreamt of someday leaving her home and being as free as a bird.
Enter prince charming, dazzled by Cinderella's beauty and infinite charm. All the other girls were looking for was a hot new hubby with a wallet full of cash, but Cinderella wanted more than just that. See prince charming's got an eye for these things, he knows a good catch when he sees one and hey, she wasn't a bad dancer either.
Now of course they were a little reckless as well, I mean meeting a girl once and then deciding that she was the one you absolutely had to marry and Cinderella just agreeing to marry him, yeah they were pretty stupid in that respect. But then again, at least she didn't try to kill herself when step momma evil incarnate locked her away and tried to keep her from seeing prince charming.
Cinderella was beautiful, kind, loyal, strong willed, determined. She had a little bit of rebel defiance when she snuck out against her step mother's wishes and went to the hot guy's party.
Cinderella had personality while Juliet just... Didn't.
Plus according to the internet Cinderella was anywhere between the ages of sixteen to nineteen when she got married, so score one for prince charming and his non-paedophillic ways.
Cinderella was a great gal wasn't she?
Now here's the question, what would have happened if Romeo met Cinderella instead of Juliet?
If Romeo met a hard working, non-suicidal, less emo version of his darling Juliet. What do you think he'd do?
If Cinderella met a slightly more intense, self sacrificing, ambitious, more emo version of her prince Charming. What do you think she'd do?
Would they balance each other out?
The dreamer and the realist.
The prince and the pauper.
Would they find strength in each other and live happily ever after or would they crash and burn hard?
What does any of this have to do with the story?
It has to do with Edward and Bella.
They were like Romeo and Juliet.
Two star crossed lovers fated for tragedy because of the danger that their love held for both of them.
He is a vampire and she is a human.
Just like Romeo was a Montague and Juliet was a Capulet. Their families didn't get along and therefore they would be enemies for as long as they both lived.
Edward couldn't be with Bella because the danger of harming her beyond repair was too great for him to ignore. He was a constant danger to her well being but for some reason Bella didn't care, she loves him regardless of what he is and is willing to forsake all others in order to keep him.
Just like Juliet stayed faithful to Romeo after he was forced to leave Verona and refused to betray him even going as far as death itself to stay true to her one and only love.
Edward watched as Bella moved about the kitchen, grabbing glasses and pulling out a large plate to place on the table he stood in front of. The girl looked up at him and her cheeks flushed at his stare, Bella gave him a small smile before turning back to the cupboards on the other side of the room.
Rosy cheeks and full pink lips, Edward wanted nothing more than to reach out and touch that porcelain skin, but held back for a moment choosing instead to just watch as his love moved and breathed.
Long dark hair that carried the faint scent of strawberry shampoo swayed around her shoulders in soft waves while her heart thumped steadily in her chest. Tempting Edward as it did every minute of the day that he was around her as it pumped that overly sweet smelling blood.
In the bright lighting of the afternoon light, Bella was a beautiful sight to be hold. So innocent and pure, so naïve and trusting in her love for Edward that she fell apart when he left her before. She loves him more than all else, she's willing to give up everything, including her life, just to be with Edward.
Just like Juliet giving her life when she found the lifeless corpse of her lover laying beside her in the crypt.
She's ready to follow Edward anywhere, even into the after life.
Anything to be with her Romeo.
And Edward was prepared to do the same.
Leaving Bella the first time, it felt like he was slowly dying away inside like when Romeo was forced to leave for Montua after the murder of Tybalt and he found out of her death.
When Edward had thought that Bella was dead the only thing he could think of doing next was to kill himself. He couldn't imagine living in a world where Bella didn't exist, so he went to the Volturi for his execution.
But Bella saved him.
Now, they could have the life that Romeo and Juliet never had. They could be together forever and never be apart. As soon as they're married and Edward changes her, they can start an eternity of happiness, just the two of them.
As guilty as he felt about Bella's imminent death, Edward was more than happy to live the rest of his life with the love of his life, really he was.
Edward watched Bella, for once settled deeply in his own thoughts as the human girl went about her way.
With Bella it was always that way.
He couldn't read her mind, couldn't tell what she was thinking or even how she felt so for the most part Edward would try to watch her facial expressions and keep track of her scent in an effort to at least guess what she was thinking and if there was anything she needed. Unfortunately the only definitive source he had was scent since her facial expressions were mostly blank unless she wanted you to know her feelings.
Edward's always thought that made her mysterious, and enticing. All those hours he used to spend trying to guess Bella's thoughts, it was like finding a rubiks cube for the very first time. Trying to figure out how it works and which way to get the colours all lined up together without ruining another side of the cube. That's what Bella made Edward feel.
It was almost fun, in a way fascinating and he still feels that way it's just that now he was starting to wonder.
Other than her silent mind and besides her scent what was it that drew Edward towards her?
If she didn't have either of those things would he still be as eager to stay with her? Would he have even noticed her.
Over the passed few decades since he was turned and in that time Edward had never really given much thought to any of the people he's met, at least not in a romantic way.
Vampire or human it never really mattered.
He was lonely of course, terribly lonely. He'd look at Carlisle and Esme and saw the one thing he wanted but didn't have. A mate.
Someone he could call his own.
But as the years passed Edward never met anyone he could see himself being with that way.
Even when Carlisle turned Rosalie with the purpose of being his mate, Edward didn't feel anything for the blonde despite her intense beauty.
He went on for years, forever alone even with his family getting bigger and closer with every year that passed by.
But then came Bella.
Her silent mind is the first thing he noticed.
He couldn't read her the way she could read everyone else's and that fact frustrated him more than anything else in this world. He's always been able to read minds, it was a curse that he's been forced to live with for years and now he couldn't use it on this one girl.
Then he noticed her scent and that's when the game was flipped over on it's head.
It was sweet.
Intoxicatingly sweet. Her blood called out to him in a way that blood has never done before and Edward was terrified at the thought that he might loose control and kill her. She made things dangerous for him and his family
So that's what he felt when he first met her.
Frustration and fear.
That's not really that big of a deal is it?
First impressions can be tough after all and Edward's gotten to know Bella over the passed few months.
Bella is sweet and caring and so compassionate. Yes he probably wouldn't have noticed her without her gift of silence and sweet scent but, maybe...
Maybe fate intended it to be that way.
Maybe he's meant to be with Bella and her scent and mind were just ways for destiny to bring them together, after all. Bella is a great girl, beautiful and loving. If it wasn't for her scent he might have passed her by and not even once seen the true potential that this one human had.
It wasn't that way for Carlisle and Esme, Alice and Jasper or Rosalie and Emmett. Their meetings were instantaneous and in each instance they knew what they meant to each other the moment their eyes met.
But we each have our own way don't we.
Fate is unpredictable after all, Edward's path might just be meant to be different than theirs so he doesn't really mind.
As long as this void in his chest is filled and his solitude is eased, then none of it does.
Unfortunately for Edward the void wasn't filling.
The telepath gave a soft sigh as Bella walked passed and her scent slowly drifted passed him, making the vampire grit his teeth briefly as he fought back against his urges like he has since they met.
He loves Bella, Edward is sure of that and yet somehow the telepath can't help but feel empty, the same way he felt when he woke three days after he was first bitten.
That place were his soul was meant to be didn't feel any less empty than it has since they met and in the back of his mind, Edward secretly wondered why.
He's managed to chalk it up to the fact that they haven't mated yet. Convinced himself that once they are the feeling would go away and he'd never feel empty again. Of course he felt a bit guilty at that since he didn't want to damn Bella to the same fate as his and hoped that she'd reconsider wanting to be turned, but then again at the same time he was glad that she wanted to be with him forever and would do anything to accomplish that even if it meant dying and losing her own soul.
But then there's that voice in the back of his head, the one he refused to acknowledge that kept calling him a fool.
It told him that Bella wasn't meant to be his mate, that he was just trying to force a bond in a desperate escape from loneliness and Bella was just gullible enough to believe in their supposed love too. Human's are fragile, easy to convince of almost anything as long as they believed that some kind of higher power some calling of destiny was behind it.
The voice said that if Edward really loved her he never would have left in the first place, would have turned her when he had the chance. If he really believed that she was his mate then what was holding him back?
Guilt?
Perhaps, he wanted his hand to be forced. To have no other choice but to change her and make he like he was.
But that already happened when James attacked her but he still chose to keep her human.
Why?
What difference does it make whether or not she's turned when she's sixteen or eighteen? He's seventeen, well physically at least. So if she's meant to be his then why wait?
Edward knew why.
The reason was right there in the back of his head but he refused to acknowledge it. He went so far in trying to ignore it that he went to the Volturi to commit suicide in an effort to deny that he didn't belong with her.
Because she killed herself to be with him, sacrificed everything so they could be together. She's his Juliet.
It might not have been instant love at first sight, but she's his mate.
She has to be.
Bella walked back around the table to check the glasses that she placed there and let out a deep breath as she spoke.
"I can't wait for you to meet him, Edward. Jacob is such a great guy, I hope this goes well."
The vampire forced a smile onto his face, "So do I."
No, no he doesn't.
Edward could really care less about the stupid mutt and quite frankly he doesn't want Jacob anywhere near Bella, but he can't tell Bella that. She wouldn't understand the hatred that flows between their kind.
But then again she shouldn't have to after all, Jacob was there for her when Edward royally fucked up.
Stood by her side and took care of her. He's the one that saved Bella when she jumped off the cliff. If it hadn't been for the stupid mutt, Bella would be dead.
So whether Edward likes it or not, he has no choice but to at least try and be civil with the dog. Plus young wolves are dangerous and from what Bella told him, Jacob went through his first phase a few weeks ago. He couldn't have gotten much control of it by now, he needs to make sure things go as calmly as possible.
Charlie already hates him, he doesn't want his future father in law to get any more reasons to despise his existence by getting his house demolished.
Of course he's not just going to roll over and play dead either (no pun intended). Also from what Bella told him, Jacob may have developed a crush on her and that won't do at all.
The mutt needs to learn his place and if Edward has to be the one to teach it to him, well...
"Edward." Bella paused as she turned towards him with a look of concern, biting her lip briefly as she stepped forward, "I know things between you and Jacob might get difficult because of what you both are, but I really want you two to get along. Jacob is my best friend and I care about him, but I'm in love with you so, please try to be civil."
Edward looked at the human girl and smiled as he locked that doubtful voice away. He loves Bella, they're meant to be together, no matter what happens. This is how it's meant to be.
"I promise, to try." The telepath stepped forward and gently reached out to cup the girl's face in one hand to tilt her head up a bit and press a kiss against her lips, careful to stop his breathing for a moment as he moved his lips against hers.
There was always a risk of hurting Bella whenever they were this close, so Edward tried his best to control his strength and urges.
But this is only temporary soon, it won't be necessary.
Bella lifted her hands up to the vampires shoulders so she could steady herself as she moaned into the kiss, before Edward pulled back to stare at the human who's eyes fluttered open to stare back slightly dazed with a wry smile.
"But I can't make any promises for the wolf."
Bella gave a sigh, "Jacob will be fine, I hope."
Just then Edward heard the motor of a car pull in in front of the house. It sounded old, but well kept.
Didn't Bella say that Jacob liked to fix cars?
"He's here."
Bella's eyes widened for a moment before she quickly pulled away to find something in the fridge and Edward took a deep breath expecting to find his senses filled with the unwelcome scent of wet dog only it didn't.
The vampire frowned as he took a deep breath only to realise that the scent was actually quite pleasant. Really pleasant.
It smelled good.
So maybe it isn't Jacob.
As the scent grew stronger and Edward heard footsteps get louder the vampire kept taking deep breaths of his scent, trying to think of anyone that scent might belong to. But the vampire was sure that no one in Forks smelled like that, he would have known if they did. It must be someone new.
But Bella didn't mention having any new friends. Maybe one of Charlie's friends a relative maybe?
Edward was about to tell Bella that it wasn't Jacob after all when he suddenly heard the unknown persons thoughts loud and clear.
'Stupid fucking leech'
Leech?
Edward has met with some of the wolves before, on their first trip to Forks and when they returned. Leech is one of the top ten on the list of insults that the wolves usually had to offer them so he knew whoever was coming had to be a dog.
But why does he smell so good?
Edward's eyebrows furrowed in confusion.
'Why can't she just choose someone norma-... What's that smell?... Smells kinda good'
Footsteps got closer.
'Does Bella have a friend over or something?'
Edward continued to listen in on the shifter's puzzled thoughts when there were three knocks on the door and Bella quickly turned back to leave the room.
"I'll be right back."
The girl left and Edward tried to steel his nerves to prepare for what was coming. The fact that a shifter smelled good was something that he could examine closer at another time.
Right now he has to focus on Bella and Jacob and getting along with Jacob because he's important to Bella and what's important to his mate is important to him as well.
Edward took a deep breath and shoved his hands in his pockets just as Bella opened the door.
The scent hit him full force as the last barrier of the door was removed and Edward's eyes snapped shut, fighting back against the urge for them to roll into the back of his head.
God, that smells good.
Why does it smell so good?
"Jacob, it's so good to see you."
"It's good to see you too Bells."
"I swear you get bigger every time I see you."
"Or maybe you're just getting smaller."
Bella clicked her tongue and Edward heard a soft thud just before the door closed and two pairs of feet made their way to the kitchen.
It all almost seemed to go in slow motion. Bella appeared first with a bright smile on her face as she pulled on a larger arm along with her until a boy appeared behind her.
The moment Edward laid eyes on him, he almost felt his mind grind to a halt as he took the shifter in.
"Edward this is Jacob Black."
The vampire pushed off the counter and stepped forward but frowned in confusion when all the shifter did in return was gape and stare.
Jacob looked shocked half to death, Edward wasn't sure why the shifter seemed so shocked but Edward was surprise for reasons he really couldn't force his mind to understand at all.
The moment he locked eyes with Jacob, Edward knew that the shifter meant something to him something important. But for some reason his mind refused to function in such a way that he could understand what.
And he's... beautiful.
Edward almost frowned at that. He's never found another man to be beautiful, before he barely even acknowledged that women were beautiful. It just never seemed like there was any point. He didn't really feel anything for those people so why bother harbouring superficial thoughts like that.
But right at that moment Edward couldn't help but think that Jacob made a striking picture.
Dark russet skin stretched over a muscled frame and high cheek bones. He had pitch black hair, cut oddly at some angles like he had done it himself although Edward couldn't say that the cut didn't suit him. But the crowning jewel had to be those eyes.
Deep brown eyes that somehow burned with fire and innocence all at once, despite the wolf's obvious shock.
Edward may not be superficial but even he can't deny that Jacob is beautiful.
That's when Jacob's thoughts came through.
'His-his hair and and and eyes... He-wha-"
"Jacob this is-"
"Tony?"
Bella blinked in surprise and gave an odd little laugh as she stared at her friend in confusion, while Edward just continued to stare back.
There's something about this boy, Edward can't figure out what it is.
"No, no Jacob this is Edward, remember. My boyfriend, he's..." Bella paused for a moment before she spoke, "Different."
Bella might as well have been speaking french, none of it got through to Jacob. As far as Edward could hear the shifter was having a mental break down.
'What the fuck! What the fuck! What the fuck! Tony I swear to God if your screwing with me right now-'
Edward took another step forward and couldn't help but tilt his head as he asked, "Who's Tony?"
Jacob blinked and had to force himself to look away, 'No, no it can't be. Tony's eyes are green and his hair is different, it's just some weird coincidence. Breathe Jacob.'
"Uhgm, no one." The shifter took a deep breath when he tensed up all over again and his head snapped up to stare at the vampire.
'Wait a minute... He's the one that smells good? Why?!'
Edward would have asked the shifter the same thing about himself, but he wasn't sure exactly how much Bella has told Jacob so he kept that to himself.
Instead Edward pulled his hand out of his pocket and reached out towards the shifter. "It's a pleasure to meet you Jacob."
Jacob was still very much dazed and confused, so he didn't just glare down at Edward's hand like Sam had the day they met three years ago.
"Uh yeah."
The shifter put his hand in Edward's without even thinking about it and Edward felt his brain malfunction for the second time that day as heat suddenly surged right up from where he made contact with the shifter.
Jacob gasped at the touch and Edward could see him shiver visibly and his eyes flutter for a moment before the shifter suddenly snatched his hand back and glared.
'What the-'
"What the fuck are you doing?!"
Bella looked startled at the sudden outburst but Edward could do nothing more than stare at the shifter when everything suddenly fell into place.
'Mine'
"Jacob, what's wrong?"
"You-... You're-"
But Jacob just stepped back a glaring at the vampire, even through the confusion that shone clearly in his eyes.
'Bella said he's a mind reader. What if he-'
Jacob's eyes went wide along with Edward's when the vampire realised the conclusion that Jacob came up with.
"You're doing this."
"No, Jacob I-"
"STAY OUT OF MY HEAD!" Jacob roared and Bella's eyes went wide when the shifter suddenly turned on his heel and ran from the house. Edward felt a sharp tug in his chest when the shifter left and barely paid any attention to the human girl beside him as he followed Jacob out the door.
Edward got there just in time to see Jacob phase, ripping through his clothes mid leap before he ran for the forest. Tearing through the forest as he disappeared in the brush.
Edward just stood there and watched the shifter go, feeling that void in his chest throb in pain.
Jacob was upset and confused, going after a wolf in this state would be a very bad idea. Edward has to wait, let him cool off.
Even if the ache in his chest throbbed in protest.
Somehow at that exact moment Edward felt calm, relaxed even. Like for the first time in years everything made sense and he had absolutely nothing to worry about.
But then-
"Edward." The vampire looked down when he felt something tugging at his arm and he looked in to Bella's eyes.
The girl was concerned, hurt and confused.
"What just happened, why did Jacob leave like that?"
And with that question Edward's calm peaceful world dropped in to chaos as he realised the full gravity of his current situation.
His mate is a shifter...
It was instantaneous, he could smell Jacob before he even saw him and when they're eyes locked. He knew the boy was important to him.
Like Carlisle with Esme, Rosalie with Emmett and Alice with Jasper.
Love at first sight.
Romeo meet Cinderella.
A/N: strange I know, but it'll make sense.
Probably
Anyway next chapter is all Jacob and Tony and I'll go a little bit into how Tony came to be.
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