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A/N:I'm not english native speaker, so you might find some typos or grammar mistakes, I do apologize for that.
Chris's POV
After being rescued by the helicopter, I ordered them to take me back to Bohma before going home. If they didn't cooperate with me, I would do it anyways. I knew that wasn't something to be spoken, but I needed to see Evana again. I needed to apologize and to say goodbye. That was the moment I most feared if I got my memory back. I couldn't continue lying to myself and running away from my past. From my reality.
I finished my shower when a soldier entered in the bathroom; "Sir, it's from the North America HQ." the man spoke delivering him a cellphone.
"Alright." I nodded and took the device and saw him leaving the room, "This is Chris Redfield."
"Hellooo my loooove. I can't believe I'm listening to your voice after so loooong. Are you coming home already?" a female voice spoke with a too caring way that was nearly childish
"Who is it?" I spoke with a puzzled tone
"Don't you recognize my voice?" the female spoke feeling hurt
"No."
"Oh…They say you lost your memory… It's me, Laureen."
I frowned making effort to remember that person, but nothing came to my mind.
"Did you remember?"
"Not really. Are we related?"
"Of course we are… I'm your wife!"
"What?" I spoke in astonishment. Those words hurt more than the hell itself. I could feel my body heavy as if in pain due to the shock. I couldn't believe that. I had no memories of being married. I had no memories of Laureen.
"Did you remember now?"
I sighed in frustration, "No… I'm sorry."
"It's alright. I will make you remember when you get back home to me. I'm waiting for you with all the accumulated love of the last 6 months and even more because my love for you just increases every day. I am really, really missing you. My lovely husband. Don't take too long, I'm about to explode in missing you…"
I didn't know what to say to that woman. I was speechless and broken. I was realizing all my plans of a future with Evana were vanishing and being wiped away. That realization was hurting. It wasn't already enough the pain for losing my best friend and I was about to lose the woman I most loved in my life. It was painful to be losing my saviors. It was painful the thought that I would just have them in my memory.
I couldn't hear anything Laureen was saying anymore and all I knew was that it was time for us to disconnect. I walked to the locker and the first thing my eyes spotted was the coin necklace Evana gave me to symbolize our spiritual union. I took it and all the memories of my story with Evana filled my mind and I couldn't help some tears coring down on my face. Being that emotional wasn't my typical, but there was too much of emotions going on and there was no need to hide from it at that moment. I wasn't in a mission. At that moment, I could be raw with my sentiments.
"Eva…" I whispered
I put on my clothes and kept the necklace in my coat's pocket and left to say goodbye to the love of my life.
The lavender house, my shelter, my home for the last 6 months. The best months of my entire life…
Yet, I don't belong here anymore... My heart is twisted. I was ready to turning in my gun and continue living here, start a family in three years and enjoy the simple life that made me so happy despite all the odds of the alcohol abuse. This is the nest that me and my love lived the greatest moments and made the best memories. That was the place where all began right at that corner… I sigh… Who would say that was a Forbidden Love…
Say goodbye to all of this won't be any easy for me, well, it's not been easy since my emotional started to get affected by the most guilty feelings. Maybe I got in a mid-age crisis. I know I'm not getting any younger, but I also have my personal codes and commitment with those souls that lost their lives for our cause. I promised that I would continue fighting for those people that believed in me, they deserve that… I lost one of my best friends and it's still painful. Piers was the one who brought the fighter Chris back to life. The fighter Chris is not a shadow anymore, however, the Chris Novak is about to die… I can't believe I will be the one to shatter my Sweet Eva's dreams… dreams she didn't believe anymore. I feel terrible for had leading her on. Now it's my time to be responsible for the consequences.
I know Eva will see my raw emotions and will suffer as much as I will, but I have to stand for my duties. I made promises and I might fulfill to them no mattering how dilacerated my heart will be. I'll have to move on and live with the memory of the memories crusted in my soul.
I'll have to be strong… we will need to be strong. That will be the only option for us.
I took a very deep breath and unlocked the door. I spotted Yana sitting on the couch looking at me with a surprised expression, "Eva. It's the Stray dog!" she yelled to call Eva
I laughed a bit, more in distress than in finding it funny.
I saw Evana coming from her bedroom as much as surprised as Yana.
"I'm going to leave you two alone." Yana spoke leaving the house
I nodded in agreement, "By the way, I'm sorry for anything and thank you for everything!" I spoke to Yana as she passed by me
"Anytime… Take care, Chris." She spoke with a miraculous light smile and then closed the door
"Eva…" I spoke almost in a whisper when I turned my face to see the blonde woman taking her seat on the chair of the dining table
"I didn't think you'd come back." She spoke not looking at me
"We left in a hurry for the mission and I had no choice but to come along with them… It's usually like that when I'm assigned to missions." I told her instinctively giving an explanation and taking the seat in front of her
"I see…" she spoke looking down as she played with her hands
"Are you still mad at me?" I asked noticing her behavior
"No, I'm not mad at you."
"You avoid looking at me when you are upset."
"I'm not upset, but I know I don't have reason to celebrate you're here, right?"
I shook my head slightly taken aback by her affirmation,
"Where's Piers? Is he outside waiting for Yana and say goodbye to her as well?"
I sighed heavily looking down as I shook my head, "Piers is dead…" I finally started opening up the big empty hole that is lying in my chest before going to the hardest part
"What?" she finally looked at me, "I'm very sorry to hear that."
"I'm just here because of his sacrifice… it should've been me buried in the deep ocean…" I said in sadness
"I didn't know him, but I could feel he was a good guy just like you. Yana will get sad when I tell her that."
I nodded, "He was one of my best friends."
"His memory will always be with you and I'm sure he will watch out for you wherever he is." She spoke placing her hands on my hands in support causing me shivers for her warm and delicate touch
"I will continue fighting for his memory and for all of our comrades that have lost their lives too."
"It's a good way to keep them alive…" she said releasing my grip
I just nodded in agreement, we remained in silence for a while, "Wait a minute, did something happen between him and Yana?" I asked to give me more time to finally tell her the hardest words
"Yeah, I guess they were having a thing…"
"She liked him but didn't like me? I sense some conspiracy."
Eva let out a slight laugh, "No conspiracy. She knew Piers wouldn't hurt me or break my heart, but I can see he fulfilled his promise to me. I didn't think I'd see you again." She spoke looking down biting her lips
I united forces to sacrifice myself and abdicate of my happiness and apparently Evana was aware of it. She knew me too well not to know my raw side, "I wish I could stay…" I whispered with a saddened tone
She sighed, "I always knew you didn't belong here… to me…" she spoke lowering her head squeezing her hands, "But it was good as long as it lasted." She was clearly fighting her tears
I felt a strong urge to throw everything up in the air and take her into a tight embrace and take away her pain by telling her I will stay with her forever… But I knew I couldn't.
"Eva… I didn't want things to be this way. I never lied to you and I really meant about those plans we made.
"But you didn't come to take me with you to the US right?"
With a terrible pain in my chest all I could do was to shake my head, confirming her words, "I'm sorry…"
"Don't be. I never really believe in that." she said crossing her arms over her stomach
"Eva… I really wish I could fulfill any of my promises to you."
She remained in silence
"But I owed you some final words. I wanted to thank you for everything, for the best moments, for all your efforts, for the best memories, for being my angel and I will take it with me for the rest of my life, but I also wanted to apologize for all the crap… I regret wasting away these past two weeks and all those days I wasted drunk when I could have been with you… and now I cannot even give you a kiss of goodbye because I am a forbidden man and this is killing me!" I said searching for her hands, but that was in vain
"Forbidden?" she asked with a whisperer still with her arms crossed in defense
I nodded, "Yeah… I really wish I could take you with me now… I still cannot believe when I was told…" I paused, "I have more duties than I thought… I'm a soldier and… I'm married…" I said surrendering to some tears that fell down on my face for the shame of being unfair to all the parties and for the regret for hurting so many people with my mistakes without any bad intentions.
Evanas's POV
The man I love searched for my hands, but I couldn't allow myself to feel his soft and warm hands that I felt so many times and now this was going to be the last time we would feel each other. My heart was so accelerated, a terrible pain in my chest, my voice refused to come out; there's a block in my vocal cords after hearing those words.
"It's not like it never crossed my mind before. I always knew this moment would happen, I always knew you didn't belong to me, but I wanted to believe my fairytale wouldn't have an end, but I knew I shouldn't lead me on that much because people like me don't deserve happy endings."
"Don't say that!" he said leaving the chair to knee next to me and took my grip
"But it's true! People like me don't end with the people they love and they have to deal with all the consequences alone… in silence… You may be a forbidden man and I am forbidden to happiness."
"I love you Eva and I never wanted this to end and its killing me how we've come to an end. I hate being this dutiful man and that's why I didn't want to remember my responsibilities… But this goes beyond myself and I cannot drown you with me… my life is nothing close to what we lived... it's a mess and I don't know how I will be when I return home completely broken inside and to a woman I don't even remember!"
"You will be fine… I know you have many people that love and care about you and they will help you… they will be your angels. You will go back to your wife and she will take care of you every day in the day and at night…" I said it almost losing my voice for saying his wife, it hurt like hell that word on me. I didn't want to break another lovely home for sleeping with another's woman man.
"I owe you so much Eva…"
"You don't owe me anything. I am the one who should thank you for the good changes you made in my life."
"I do and I hope with this I can repay your debts with me and help you to move somewhere else just like we had planned." He said taking two papers from his pocket, "This check is from the reward the BSAA was given to whoever found me… you did find me and the other is from my own account to help you open your flower shop and fulfill your dream in name after you mother."
"I don't want it. I told Piers I didn't want the reward."
"I know, he told me you refused it, but it's me giving you this as my part for the hard work, that was our agreement wasn't it?"
"Forget the deals."
"Eva, please. Take it."
"I don't want or need your money Chris… Give it to Yana or Dora, they will make better use of it. I lived without it before and I will live without it from now on."
"Eva, what about your mother's wish? Didn't she told you to move on with your life and start brand new in another place, wasn't that the dream we had as well? Wasn't that the dream she had for you? Didn't you owe your mother to fulfill the promise you would leave that life at the nightclub and have a flower shop? I told you I'd help you to achieve this… so please, accept it." he spoke putting the checks in my hand
I keep staring at it, I really didn't want that money. I never wanted him for possessions, my love for him never had a price, but then I remembered the lectures Yana gave me and I should keep in mind that my life didn't belong just to me from now on. Someone else was growing inside of me and depended on me; and my baby deserved to have a better life than I could ever give without the father's help unless I broke the promise not to be a hooker anymore.
"I will give a part of it to Yana and Dora. They deserve for all the patience they had with you."
"It's alright. It's fair enough, but don't worry about Dora. I will talk to her personally." he said with a faint smile
"You know I'm not doing this for me right? I'm doing this for us…" I said standing up from the chair and unconsciously my hands covered my belly
"Yes, I know." He answered not noticing my subtle body language sign and the implicit code in my word
"And because you insisted." I said turning to him
"Yeah and I'm aware you are not a material girl. You and I are simple, even though I have good compensation for my work, still, that is not really that important to me."
I nodded, "So Mr. Redfield, it was a pleasure meeting you. I wish you a safe fly back and all the best in your life." I said giving him my hand, just like he did in the first time we made a deal.
Chris looked at my hand and then we shook hands. The was the last time our hands would touch.
"I guess I should give it back to you." He said taking something from his pocket. I didn't take too long to recognize the necklace I gave him to seal our fantasy marriage
"No, you can keep it, please. It's a lucky coin… well that's what they said. Your wife won't need to know I gave you because I know I just turned into your biggest secret."
Chris laughed nodding, "I will take good care of it. I will never forget its real meaning!" he said and out of sudden, he took me into a long and tight embrace. I hugged him back.
We stayed like that for a few minutes; I could feel his accelerated heartbeat. I fought the tears of my affected emotional due to my hormones, but that was too much. That was the our last touch.
"Goodbye Eva…" He spoke with a low tone when our eyes finally met and some drops of his tears fell on my face, mixing with mine own
"Goodbye Adam…" I said in a joke and we both laughed a little, "Goodbye Handsome!" I forced a smile
We smiled and cried at the same time, he kissed me on my forehead, but then we both struggled not to turn me into his official lover when we kissed each other's cheeks when in fact we both wanted to feel our lips touching one last time. To feel each other one last time. To be one, one last time. However, we knew we shouldn't cross that line and turn our relationship into a wrong one. Our relationship didn't deserve that stain.
I knew both of were broken inside, I knew our story was real. Nevertheless, everything had an end. Every cycle ends and ours just did. Slowly we separated. A painful separation and the cold from the distance of our bodies hit us. Our eyes met once more, "I love you, my Eva… I will never forget you."
"I love you too, my Chris."
"I will divorce her…" he spoke with a desperate tone
I shook my head, "Try to be happy with her. I don't want to be the reason for another woman's tears."
"But you won't. I don't love her… I love you." He said holding me by the shoulders
"It's because you don't remember. People don't marry to get separated. You will remember you used to be happy as a couple." I replied stepping away from him
"Eva…" he whispered
"Chris… Please. Just do the right thing. You are a correct and fair man. The three of us don't need to be a shame. No one is happy over someone else's misfortune."
Chris was reluctant, but all there was left for him to do was to sigh in acceptance, "Take care." He spoke with a faint smile and then turned around
"You too…" I whispered as I watched the love of my life leaving my life like dust in the wind. I watched him from the door. I embraced my own belly dealing with my own silent pain, my new secret. From afar, I saw him looking back once again and I used all my strength to hold myself and not scream for him to stay, but I couldn't beg to have someone that was never mine. He waved. I did the same and continued watching him until he disappeared in the street that led to Dora's bar.
After that, I closed the door and finally busted into tears holding myself and the seed he left with me. That was a part of him that would always be mine and just mine. Of course, I wanted to scream to him I was pregnant, but the words didn't really come out. I didn't want to get him even more troubled than he was already and seeing him like that hurt me. Or maybe Yana was always right, I had a huge ego in the wrong times. But at that moment I didn't really care about my ego. My heart was melting in pain, all I could do was to hold on in my memories, and his belongings he left that would always be the memory that we were real. I would still have the pictures and the most important thing, I was keeping the Redfield lineage with me. Maybe the future would unite them just like it did the two times he was put in my way.
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Thank you everyone for reading the story.
Thank you Xaori, SUPASTAR89 and HerpDerp for the reviews. I'm glad you liked our journey so far.
Oh my god...this is so sad. I hate deaths and separations. I wish everyone would be just happy and have no problems, but life is not like that especially when the matter is relationships. They seem to hurt more than really be a good thing sometimes.
Now we will see how Chris will handle his already complicated life between his heart and his reason, not to mention his career. Okay, we know about his career xD
I promise to have many more things to come and even plot twists, yet I can already antecipate to you that romance won't be really the focus in the second season of Forbidden Love xD At least for some time.
Now let's face Laureen and I invite you to take a look in the canon complement of this story, which is called Tech Love.
I created that separate story that is not so ordered like this one, but it was to show important things for Forbidden's development and future. I didn't want to mess Forbidden that much. We already have almost 40 chapters! If I developed Tech Love's contents here, the story would never end haha
Let's see who Laureen is and question in the air: Could Chris really be happy in his marriage like Evana thinks? Tech Love might answer a part of it, yet, there's a gap between the stories and you'll see from now here.
Stay Tuned!