Hey bros! LONG TIME NO SEE?! I KNOW RIGHT?! I am so sorry, my life has been seriously hectic! I've just been having arguments with my parents, my mum is ill, school sucks, but I needed to get back on the computer and, like Chiyaki in this chapter realises, I needed to face what I started! and HELL YEAH AM GON FINISH THIS! (but dont worry, not anytime soon, this story has been planned out for like at least another 12 chapters lol ENJOY!
How did it end up like this?
Here I am, watching the boys pick out suits, discussing tie colors as if they were taxes, trying on numerous patterned blazers and picking out different types of Italian shoes that all look the goddamn same to me. God, I feel like a boyfriend waiting for his girlfriend to put down the goddamn credit card.
"Are you alright?"
God this is so boring, why do people find this fun?
"Chi?"
ugh ugh ugh ugggggghhhhhhhh
oh shit.
I glanced up at Haruhi, his large brown eyes were shadowed by sleep, we had all been up at six, funny, I thought Haruhi would be the type to wake up really early. "Hey Haruhi, not diggin clothes shopping?" I asked with a chuckle, he grimaced in return.
"It's not that, I just couldn't be less in the mood for the club right now, I could be doing a ton of laundry right now..." he muttered, looking down at his black mary janes.
Why is he wearing Mary Janes?
"Are you a shopping person Chiyaki?"
"I guess so, I mean I can be quite girly if I want, but usually my mum just gets a bunch of freebies off of designers." I said, glancing over at the boys, the twins have taken charge of the outfits as per usual, flinging bow ties and waistcoats everywhere, and Hunni sempai has fallen asleep! cute!
"I keep forgetting that you're rich, I don't mean that in a bad way, but it's just all the other rich people I know are..." he trailed off, watching Tamaki fling a very expensive blazer onto the floor absent mindedly
"I get it, I tend to keep a low profile, my status has gotten me into trouble before." I told him, my hair was flipping over onto my face, and bits kept going in my mouth, so I swiftly tied it in a low ponytail.
"Why? did something happen?" he asked curiously, I looked at him, Haruhi isn't the type to gossip, he seems very genuine. But I wonder if I could tell him? I don't know...
Just tell him goddammit it ain't like you're telling Hikaru or Kaoru!
"Well, before I went to Lobelia, I went to a normal middle school, and I started dating someone there" I started, checking Haruhi's face, but it registered no emotion, so I continued.
"I really liked him, he was a foreigner, he came from England, his name was Ian. He and I got on really well, it was like something out of a manga until-"
"until he realised you were a high status?" he asked
"yeah. He was worried that he wasn't gonna be good enough"
"oh"
"yeah. Then I moved to Lobelia, then that didn't work out, and here I am" I whispered sadly, my heart felt funny, I hadn't spoken about Ian, I had kept him out my mind, if I focused on him, I would have burst from sadness. I made a promise to myself, that I would never see him again, he hurt me, the fact that he didn't even try, it hurt me.
I felt Haruhi's hand patting my shoulder sympathetically, "I understand, but I think you need to face him, ask him why"
wait what?
"I think if you are going to move on with your life, you need to address your first love, end it." he continued, gazing into space. His words made sense to me, I knew he was right, I knew I had to face my fears, I had to face him.
But I'm scared
Small chapter, i'm sorry for that, but I just needed to tell y'all im alive by givin you this! NEW CHARACTER ALERT?! WHAT DOES THIS MEAN?! OOOOOOOOOOH STUFF IS GONNA GO DOWN! AW YES
bY THE WAY, I was thinking about drawing Chiyaki? I dunno, do ya want her?