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A/N:I'm not english native speaker, so you might find some typos or grammar mistakes, I do apologize for that.
Chris' POV
Winter Memories
It's been two months since I said goodbye to you and my life returned to be the constant roller coaster. These have been two difficult months and since I don't know where to find you, I'm sticking myself to some promises as much as I can.
My love, you are not here, so I'll tell you in my imagination everything that is happening to me since we separated. I'm in my cabin at work. I haven't been on field since I returned home. The first month kind of kept me busy and distant enough from Laureen since we found out Piers had survived the explosion. Don't tell that to Yana. I found out he and my sister were starting to have a thing before all that, behind my back! I didn't feel in position to judge them though… In a long time I haven't seen my sister so happy.
My friend Jill is happy too. Lately she reminds me of the young Jill I met 17 years ago. Time is flying!
I'm sorry to say, but you were wrong, I wasn't happy in my marriage and it's been tougher to leave it than I expected.
About a month ago, I informed Laureen about our divorce and she didn't take it well and tried to kill herself by walking in front of a car. Her family made my life tough too and her mother confessed me Laureen stopped taking some meds for her condition during my hiatus and something in me pitied her and since I couldn't reach you. I ended up returning home to take care of her during the is concluded, somehow I want to try to make it as less traumatic as I can by staying at her side taking care of her and giving the medication she needs for her leg and head. Possibly it's not the right thing for me to do, but I had to accept I lost you.
It's a unique situation because of Laureen's mental illness, she was diagnosed with Borderline. I am the sole provider financially. I'm in a situation where I'm trying to get her to get a job and move out since her family are not in a good situation either with her father having a chronic illness that lately is demanding a special and expensive care. It's a tricky situation.
I have to be very careful about what I say, Laureen goes through cycles. I can't directly tell her she is in a manic episode, because I'm viewed often as the enemy or the source of her problems. I have to get outside help to convince her what's obvious to me so I volunteered for missions of work to get some distance, which made her went off and call or send me constant messages.
I think she is doing a little bit better now, but it's unfortunately been too many years of emotional abuse to get in there.
When I talk to her physician, she's not in the room and there isn't a privacy issue because I approach them and say, "I'm in the middle of this. This is a one-way street. I'm telling you everything and you benefit from it in any way you want. I don't want any feedback. I don't want to know anything about her. I just want to give you more information on what's going on and if you think it's relevant and it affects the treatment, I'm hoping it will. If it doesn't, I don't know what to do."
It was to a point of desperation, actually.
To get things worse, her family blames me for her condition. It all started after the death of our son Noah. They scream that to me all the time. It's a two-faced situation.
I made a decision to never be vulnerable to her, never be intimate, because she's taken a lot of things that she's known about me and the closeness and its hurt me in her episodes. That was the one thing I could do was not let her be any closer.
Now that she's better again or trying to be or whatever you want call it, I can't release and trust her again, because if she does hurt me again, I won't have anything to pick myself up with.
I've drawn a boundary for myself. No matter what she does, I have that promise to myself. I've had to really try hard to stick to that promise and she's actually helped me keep it by being worse. Now, she's rebounding and going through the good phase of the cycle, she's medicated, it's going to be a lot for me to break that promise to myself (to you) and remain with her.
I don't feel guilty about the divorce and I'm not even angry with her.
I know she has a disorder and I want to believe she's not choosing to behave this way. It's kind of pathetic, but I need to play along. I'm not playing her like, "Oh, we'll be together someday.". I'm playing her like, "Let's go baby steps. I'm not going to do anything with you until you get a job."
I draw lines. I have to say 'no'. She asks for things. She asks for intimacy and closeness and I say, "Okay, you need to give me what I need first. I need you to get a job. I need you to do this. I need you to do that". I'm having to make the love very conditional, very transactional, which is a horrible way to conduct a marriage, but when you have somebody that never follows the agreements you make, you have to make it a cash-only transaction kind of reciprocation in the marriage.
As you can see, you and I lived a paradise.
I really wish I could find you, talk to you and see you. I'm doing everything I can to be oblivious to these feelings inside me and to my thoughts about you, about us.
It hurts me not to have a single picture of you so I could appreciate it and feel you closer to me somehow, but all I have is the necklace that I usually wear under my clothes since Laureen got bothering me about it since I don't wear our wedding ring.
I so want this to end!
Now is time to go back to my jail… I hope everything is alright with you. There's not a single day that I don't think of you. That I don't wish to be with you."
TPOV
Chris arrived home and went to check on Laureen at her bedroom. For his surprise the bedroom that was supposed to be Noah's had its door open. Chris he could hear Laureen talking to someone.
"Sammy, I know. We can talk later! Sammy stop! Can't you see Noah is sleeping?"
Chris stood by the door and looked to around to see whoever Laureen was talking to, but she was alone sitting on an armchair holding a pillow and caressing it.
"Sammy, who arrived?" the woman whispered looking at Chris
A few days passed. Laureen seemed to be under control. The couple was having a peaceful breakfast before Chris would go to work.
Laureen's mother arrived a little after Chris left the house.
"How are things between the two of you?" the older woman asked as they were sitting on the couch
"Things seem fine now. He hadn't talked about divorce and I haven't received any notification to go to court. I think he changed his mind about the divorce." The younger brunette replied
"I'm glad to hear that. This one less drama in the family. It's already enough having your father sick." The older brunette murmured
United States, BSAA
It was afternoon, around 5:00 PM. A little while before the end of Chris' shift. He had left a meeting and headed to his cabin. He sat on the desk and admired for a while the landscape from the window. His thoughts were distant and after some time he checked his email.
The man frowned looking at the screen.
"Subject: It's Yana, I Hope You Read This Email
Hello, how are you? I hope you still remember me. It's Yana, Eva's friend.
I'm sorry for contacting you just like this, but I really needed to talk to you before Eva kills me when she finds out what I just did.
But it's really important. I wouldn't be writing you an email considering our divergences.
And before I start, I shall tell you to get the attention of your secretary or whatever that woman is! I can understand the security thing, but not giving me a number to contact you really pissed me! This IS Urgent! But all I got was an email and I pray (something I never really do) that you open this and that it doesn't go to the spam box! So I apologize for filling your box with the same content, but I needed to make sure you would read this.
Anyways… now let's go what to really matters.
I hope you still remember Evana Novak (A blonde woman!). You lived together for 6 months and you said you loved her, that you wanted to spend your life with her, have a family with her… Well, the latest became true!
Damn, now this is the part she's going to kill me! But I can't keep my mouth shut anymore, I can't continue hiding this.
The time is passing and things for us are not any easy since she got sick and I'm very worried about her condition… that is your fault!
I'm going straight to the point. Evana is pregnant! PREGNANT with YOUR CHILD!
She learned about it a little while before you left Bohma, but as you know Eva (I hope you do…) she preferred to omit it from you because she didn't want to cause you any trouble, especially with your wife. She didn't want to destroy another family by becoming your lover and with a bastard involved too.
Before you judge her, I tell you she did it because she thought it was the right thing. She didn't do to it with bad intention. She just didn't want you in bad sheets, literally speaking…
Now we are living in London and we had to use the money you gave her. Some shit happened in Bohma because of Stan, and for our own safety we decided to leave that town.
However, because of her treatment, we are running out of money very soon. I'm the only one working and I don't make that much since I'm starting to have my own problems too and don't do extras anymore.
But you as the father, (I always told her you had the right and duty to be responsible for what you had and if you were true about all those things you said) I hope you do something for your unborn child and for the woman you said you loved so much.
She is 22 weeks pregnant and this child is all she has of a family. She cares immensely about her maternity and I hope you won't let another of yours to die too.
I ask you, humbly, to contact me. You can reply to this email, but I will also leave my number below.
Mostly importantly, I'm not really sending you this just because of money, but mainly because this child, Your Child, deserves to have a father.
I really hope you're not a crappy man that will ignore this email and live as if nothing happened with your precious wife.
If you do that, I will personally make a loud scandal! I don't think you will want that!
Please, don't take too long to make a move. Eva believes you are a good man and believed all your words and promises.
I know deep inside she's waiting for you. She prays for you and thinks about you all the time.
One thing she told me earlier today got me thinking and I tell you that:
'The only thing greater than the power of the mind is the courage of the heart.'
So please, if you ever loved my soul sister… Listen to your and her heart."
Chris was completely shocked with those words. All of his body trembled; he could not believe that was happening. His love with Evana had given a fruit; she hid it from him. He was still processing it and read the email several times and those words echoed in his mind. He could hear it as if he heard Yana's voice.
He didn't really judge his beloved Eva, he knew her well enough to not to be surprised by her decision, her omission. Actually, he was more concerned about her than ever. Yana didn't tell what kind of sickness Evana had or how dangerous was her current condition. Somehow, it was like reviving Noah's situation all over again and he didn't want to lose another child. Especially the child that was the fruit of a true love.
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One of the chapters everyone was waiting for (including me!) hahaha
Yana finally broke her silence! Chris has the knife and the cheese in his hands! And Laureen, watch out!
Two months that seemed forever, damn!
I hope you liked it and Stay Tuned!