A/N – Thanks for the comments! * leasmom – I'm glad she's actually thinking this time and wanting to get it right. * Courtney, Guest – I feel you but I just don't understand why people seem to let Liz slide but crucify Jason. He's just as screwed up as she is lol. They've tormented me with their decisions for the last 7 years at least. Lol. To write them, I really have to go back to a more gentler time when Lucky was presumed dead and live in denial lol. That's why I usually write AU/AH.

So on GH Jason is supposed to be 41. Dylan is really supposed to be 44 ish (It's hard because of sorasing but he should be 7 years older than Nick who is 37 (actor is 41) but Nick was sorased and should be 27 lol. There is no way I can make BM be 44. So, I'm playing with Dylan's age and making him 39 (just to give you guys some reference).

Chapter 7 - Regrets

Jake studied her for a moment. "What are you thinking?"

"I'm scared. Love has never been easy for me. You don't know who you are and if it turns out that you're Dylan, are you going to leave Port Charles?"

"No, I belong with you."

"But you'll have a family and they deserve to get to know you. And then there is Jason. I have feelings for him. I'm not going to lie to you about that. They aren't just going to go away because there is too much history there. I'm not sure that it's fair to ask you to be in a holding pattern so I can figure it all out."

"I'll wait. You are worth it. Just don't shut me out."

"I don't even understand why I deserve someone like you."

"Because you are a good person and you've been through so much. You deserve to be happy and loved. We all do."

He kissed her again, this time it was slow and wicked as he teased her with his tongue. Elizabeth's body tingled from his ministrations. They were interrupted when Cam called from his mother from the hallway upstairs.

She pulled back and smirked. "That was some kiss."

"There's more from where that came from."

"Good to know."

She got up and went upstairs to see what her son wanted.

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The next morning, Elizabeth went to see Jason.

"Hi," she said sitting next to his bed.

"You are my first visitor."

She slightly smiled. "I have to work today so I thought I'd come in early and check on you. How are you doing?"

"Fine. I wanted to talk to you actually."

"What's up?"

"Sam was here last night and she said a few things."

Liz rolled her eyes. "I can only imagine."

"We talked about Jake and some things she did."

Liz was surprised that Sam would readily admit it. "And that means she gave you a list of my sins?"

"Somewhat. And then I remembered something. Did you really change the results of Danny's DNA test?"

Liz sighed. "Guilty. I made a lot of mistakes after Jake died. Who am I kidding? I made a lot of mistakes before that too. The Nicholas affair almost destroyed me. When you kissed me on that bridge and turned to me when you were hurting, things started to develop between us again and I felt like I was getting a chance to be with you in the open this time. I was desperate and I plotted and tried to keep you apart. To me, she threw away her chance to be with you by not giving you some time process the situation with Franco. I don't even recognize myself around that time. I did change the results, but I told you the next day. Unlike Sam, I couldn't live with myself. So, I admitted it and after Danny was rescued, you ended up going back to her. I can't really blame you since you were married and had been through hell and back the prior year. We never told her about the DNA but I did confess everything else and apologized."

He wasn't sure what to say. He wasn't very happy that she had acted out that way but it wasn't like Sam was on her best behavior either. She had done far worse.

"Sam is a sore spot with me. After what she did to Jake, it always killed me that you'd forgive her. When he was missing, she told me that we were even now because we both had lost a child."

Jason's mouth dropped open.

"She also wished Jake didn't exist. I understand doing things you wouldn't normally do for love, because God knows I forgave Lucky so many times that I think I lost myself in the process and you could lump Ric into that equation too. You normally weren't so forgiving, especially when kids were involved. Maybe I'm wrong to get upset with you because I did forgive her first. I think in my mind, I just thought that it meant you loved her more than you did your son and I just gave up. It was a slap in the face because you were willing to try and have a family with her and not me. That hurt me so deeply." Liz understood that it wasn't that cut and dry because they both had been struck with the fact that Jake didn't die because of the business, that anything could happen so they shouldn't have been driven by what they couldn't control.

Jason sighed. "I don't understand how I could either. I'm sorry." He didn't have all his memory back, so it was hard when you only got bits and pieces of the puzzle.

"So am I. I was wrong to forgive her. I shouldn't have, but I did. Call it a moment of weakness because I was beating myself up over things I had done. Lucky forgave her too. I think that opened up the door for you to forgive her as well. We've hurt each other so much Jason. I just don't know how to come back from that. You never really chose me and vice versa. That has to mean something."

"That we're both screwed up. It doesn't mean that things couldn't be great between us if we both are committed and we stop letting other people and our insecurities dictate our decisions. If Jake wasn't in the picture, would you be questioning this as much?"

She shrugged. "I don't know. I typically run from you. You're right, I'm always worrying about what everyone else thinks or feels instead of going with my heart."

He held his hand out and she took it. "I've been remembering more. There was a very ugly Christmas tree."

Liz gasped. "Hey!"

Jason grinned. "And you screaming on the back of my bike…"

"Those were great times."

"We can have those again Elizabeth. Please don't shut me out. I know it's easier to just walk away with Jake because he's never hurt you. But he doesn't love you like I love you either. You were everything I thought I could never have. I know I've hurt you but what's done is done. You know we'd be great together."

"You don't know how much I want to say yes, but I can't consider it until you remember a lot more. You need to see the whole picture and you need to remember the hurt and the good times before you do something you can't take back. Sam was your wife. You were in love with her. That will need to be dealt with one way or another."

"And in the meantime, Jake is there. If you fall in love with him, where does that leave me? I can't watch you with another man again. I remember some of the Lucky and stuff and I just can't do that again and I think you feel the same way about me."

Liz watched Jason's eyes water and she hugged him. "I'm sorry. Right now you need to let your body heal. We shouldn't even be talking about all of this. It's too stressful."

He relished how she felt in his arms. Nothing could be more perfect to him. "I'm going to fight for you Elizabeth. You'll see. I can't take away the past but I hope that in the end, I'll be your future."

She wiped her face. It sounded so nice, but too bad it would probably come crashing down. It always did. She pulled down the top of her scrubs. "I have to go to work but I'll stop in on my break."

"See you later."

Liz smirked. "See you later."

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Jake walked into the Metro Court and walked over to the table where Victor, Nikki, Paul, Stitch, and Avery sat.

"Hey,"

"Please, have a seat," Nikki said smiling.

"Thanks."

The waitress came by and took his order.

"I had a memory last night."

"A Dylan memory?" Avery asked.

"Yes. I remembered Afghanistan and getting hurt."

Nikki was concerned. "Are you alright? I know you were badly injured."

Jake sighed. "I'm fine. I needed to remember."

"So you really think that you're my son," Nikki said.

"It looks that way but we won't be sure until we get the tests back."

"I had them send it to an independent lab. I don't trust this Helena person," Victor said.

"For once, I agree with you," Paul added.

Nikki wiped a tear off of her face.

"Are you okay?" Jake asked.

"This is hard. I searched for you and thought I found you. I don't regret loving Jason because I thought he was my son but I do hate that you spent all this time here not knowing who you were and having to go through so much physical pain."

"Elizabeth was a God send. I don't know if I could have done it without her."

Avery nodded. "I'm glad that she was there for you."

"Thanks."

Victor's phone vibrated and he smiled. "Victoria sent a picture of Katie." He passed the phone around and Jake smiled. "She's cute."

"She's your niece."

"It will be nice to meet her."

"Jake, I'm going to stay here until the results come back. Victor needs to go back for business."

"I need to go back too. My wife had a miscarriage recently, and I don't want to leave her alone for too long," Paul said.

"I'm sorry for your loss."

"Thanks," Paul said patting his hand. He wasn't looking forward to riding back on the jet with Victor, but it was the quickest and most comfortable way to get home. "I'll be back for the reveal."

Stitch cleared his throat. "I'm not sure how much we should tell you, but if there is anything you want to know, just ask."

"I'll check with Patrick and see if he thinks I should remember on my own."

They ate breakfast and then Jake and Stitch spent some time together alone.

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Jason pushed the button on the remote so that he was sitting up. He was remembering more and more and it was starting to really get to him. He didn't like who he was at the moment. Both women had been hurt because of his choices, but what was really haunting him was not fighting for Jake. God, it was like having an out of body experience. It wasn't something he could even explain to himself.

Nikki walked into the room. "That's a pretty serious look on your face."

"I'm remembering more."

"And that's causing you pain?"

"Yes."

Nikki sighed and sat down. "You can't be so hard on yourself."

"It's like I'm going through everything again. Right now, I wish I could make it stop. It's too much."

She gripped his hand. "Dyl—Jason, you are a strong person and from what my husband dug up on you, you've been through a lot. Don't let yourself go to a dark place over things you can't control. It won't lead to anything good."

Sharon walked into the room with Faith. "She's right you know."

"Sharon?"

She slightly smiled. "Faith thought you needed some cheering up."

Faith grinned and ran over to the bed and handed him a picture she had made.

"For me? Wow. That's nice."

"I even spiked your hair."

Jason smiled. "That's very nice of you. I missed you."

"Dylan, when are you coming home?"

Jason looked at Sharon.

"Nicholas and I tried to explain everything to her, but she was pretty insistent on still seeing you."

Jason pushed the button so he could sit up more and motioned for Faith and Nikki helped her get up on the bed. She got comfortable.

"I'm sad that you won't be my Uncle anymore."

"Me too, but we can still be friends can't we?"

She nodded her head. "I hope you come to visit some times."

Jason slightly smiled. "I would like that."

Faith turned slightly. "See mommy, I told you he would come back and see us."

Sharon wiped a tear away. "You were right honey." She was going to miss him. When no one else would give her the time of day, Dylan protected her and made sure that she was okay.

Nikki stood up. "Faith, how would you like to come to the cafeteria with me and get some ice cream?"

Faith grinned. "Can I mommy?"

"Sure. Thank you Nikki." They still weren't getting along but she was glad that Nikki was at least cordial when Faith was around.

They left and Sharon sat down and touched his hand. "You have been such a great friend to me. I just felt like I needed to come here and make sure that you were okay."

Jason smiled. "How are you doing?"

"Good. I'm taking my meds and have been stable."

"And you and Nick?"

She shrugged. "It's a little better. I'm going to miss you so much."

He squeezed her hand. "I'll miss you both. I want you to know that you can still call me if you need to talk. I'm not that far away."

She smiled. "You're a good man Jason Morgan. Gosh, that feels so weird to say."

"Yeah, I know."

She chuckled.

Avery stood in the doorway. "What are you doing here?"

Sharon rolled her eyes and turned around. "I could ask the same question of you. Did Joe get bored with you already?"

"Very funny."

"I really am in no mood for this so please, dial it back a few notches."

"We're not staying long. We'll be flying back with Victor tonight. Stitch though you could use some cheering up," Sharon said.

Jason nodded. "I really appreciate it."

Faith and Nikki came back into the room.

"What are you doing here?" Faith asked.

Avery sighed. "I'm visiting Jason."

"Why?"

Sharon bit her lip and Nikki covered her mouth to hide her smile.

"I'll come back later," Avery said leaving the room.

Elizabeth stopped in to check his machines. "Oh, I'm sorry. I hope I'm not interrupting."

Sharon could see the way Jason looked at Elizabeth and smirked. "Hello, I'm Sharon Newman and this is my daughter Faith."

"I'm Elizabeth Webber."

They shook hands.

"I came to visit my Uncle Dylan."

Liz smiled. "That was really nice of you."

Faith smiled and turned to look at Jason. "Is that your girlfriend?" she whispered.

"I'm working on it."

Liz blushed. She quickly checked out his stats and then excused herself. Sharon and Faith spent the rest of the afternoon with Jason until it was time for them to go.

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Liz picked up Cameron and took him home. She started to make dinner when there was a knock on the door.

"Cameron, can you get that?"

Cam ran downstairs and answered the door. "Hey Jake."

He smiled. "What's up?"

"Nothing. Mom is cooking dinner. Are you staying?"

"Is there enough?"

Cam ran to the doorway of the kitchen. "Mom, can Jake stay for dinner."

"Sure honey."

"Madden?"

Jake smiled. "You're on."

They played while Elizabeth cooked and then ate dinner. Cam went to do his homework and Elizabeth and Jake chatted.

"How was your visit with the GC crowd?"

"It was okay. My mother and father seem nice."

Liz nodded. "I know this is a lot to take in."

"It is but I'm kind of glad that at least I know something about my past life. Stitch filled me in regarding the war and what happened."

She touched his hand.

"Everyone thought I was dead. I went through a lot. In a way, I'm glad I don't remember all of it."

"I understand why you would feel that way."

"How is Jason doing?"

"Good. I think they will let him go tomorrow."

Jake was scared to ask this question. "Is he coming here?"

"I don't think so. We never spoke about it. He has a penthouse still. Sam moved in with Patrick."

"I don't want to make you feel like you can't help him."

"I know and I appreciate that you are taking all of this in stride."

He shrugged. "There's not much I can do about it but as long as we get to spend some quality time together, I'm good."

She slightly smiled and sat on his lap. "I think that can be arranged."

"You think so. Well, I think I'm in the mood to snog."

She grinned. "Are you now?"

"I think you've been a very bad nurse and you need to be punished."

"And you think you're the man who can do it?"

Jake looked at her like he wanted to eat her as his lips closed the distance. "Oh, I know I am." He kissed her passionately and Liz closed her eyes and put her heart into the kiss. It was so easy with Jake. He calmed her and made her feel sexy and beautiful. They always were laughing and kissing. God could he kiss.

"Are you sorry yet?"

"No."

He shook his head and made a little noise, "Consider this a second warning," he said before kissing her again. She was falling for him and there was only one thing stopping her from jumping in with both feet and his name was Jason Morgan.