It wasn't really horrible traveling from planet to planet with Goku, what was terrible was his realization of how he felt about the man. There were very strict guidelines for being a Sōzōshin, and one of them was to not fall in love with a mortal, not that you'd be punished it was just frowned on because a mortal's life was so short... But, his feelings were completely inappropriate, the man before him was married for heaven's sake.

Though he hadn't said a single word about his wife, just his children. Had they fought, was that the whole reason Goku had wanted this adventure, to begin with? Goku was happily kicking water up as he walked along the alien shore, He'd made sure to make a map of worlds that Goku could visit, due to his need of oxygen. The last thing they needed was to land on a planet the Saiyan couldn't go to, that would kill him.

The purple waters lapped smoothly over his own feet, free from his boots, The water was rather soothing, even if his thoughts were far from it.

He wondered if it was just a matter of time before he'd shown his interest, or if it would have been anyone that would have stirred these feelings, could it have been Gohan if the young man had asked for such an adventure? No, maybe...It wasn't as likely he hoped because he knew that feelings of this nature were not something that could form for just anyone, and yet...Well it didn't matter now, did it? Because he'd found himself wondering what it would be like to sleep in Goku's arms, to feel his lips on his own...

But it seemed Goku didn't notice how strange he acted at times, like for instance the hot springs they had found several planets back. He hadn't wanted to get in, simply because he was embarrassed by Goku's lack of modesty and the growing feelings he was harboring for said man.

There were times he wanted to just leave, to stop adventuring with Goku, because in the long run that was the better course of action because he would never be able to love this man and be loved in return. How could there be any chance? If Goku's wife ever found out about his feelings no doubt she'd tell Goku, who probably wouldn't care, he seemed so easy going, so willing to ignore certain things.

"Shin?" He glanced up and smiled gently at the warrior looking at him, this man was beautiful...Powerful, kind, all the things someone could look up to. "Hm?" Goku had stopped and he came to stand next to the taller man, watching the dying sunlight glitter in the water. "I wanted to thank you for coming along with me...I know you really didn't want to, but I'm glad you did." While he had disagreed in the beginning, he was glad that he'd come along as well.

"I'm glad to have come, without this adventure. I wouldn't have gotten the chance to know you better or to truly relax." While he had been relaxed before Buu...And true relief had graced him when Buu was finally stopped, the time after that he was too busy learning from the Elder. Goku smiled but then his face turned serious. "There was a reason I choose to do this other than fighting and learning new things...I feel comfortable enough to talk about it now." He nodded, what was it that had sent Goku on this journey, to begin with?

Goku sat and patted the sand next to him, sitting he waited for Goku to start. The man sighed wistfully; "Chi-Chi left me, we got a divorce and well it really broke me. I needed time away from that, from the pain that created...She was finally just fed up with me constantly training, constantly getting the boys to train with me and she was done. Years we'd spent together apparently wasn't enough for her, was too much of a hassle for her."

Oh, gods, that was what created this journey! No wonder Goku had seemed so down when they first started and he'd simply thought it was homesickness that Goku was feeling rather than such a giant loss.

How had he managed to keep such a life changing thing to himself for nearly eight months? It had felt like less sometimes, because of new worlds. New challenges and fun, yet for this whole time, Goku had been hiding this part of himself, hurting alone...

"Goku, I'm so sorry why didn't you say anything before now?" Goku smiled wanly and shrugged, "I guess because it hurt, to know that the one person I thought I'd always have at my side decided she didn't want to be by my side anymore, because as much as she loved me, that maybe I didn't know who she was and that I didn't love her as much as I could have...Should have." Dear Zeno, how did he deal with this information? This was a lot, a giant thing he didn't know how to help Goku with.

"Sometimes it feels like just traveling with you will heal all of it, and other times it reminds me of what I won't have...It's been good and bad. I just, I really think that you've done more for me just by coming on this adventure with me, so. Thank you, I'm really glad that you came with me." He smiled at Goku, if it was helping him, then it was his pleasure to have supplied a companion who Goku could travel with.

But this really meant that he couldn't ever tell Goku what he'd started to feel. Because, how would he feel? Having been heartbroken over his wife leaving him, to learn that someone he trusted was feeling something so...inappropreate for him?