If this is the last Goodbye

Up in the room she sat them on the bed and spoke, in a voice she barely recognized as her own "listen, I'll let you run off into the night in a while, and you are welcome to shower here before.. but right now I.." she looks away for a moment "I would really like to feel you" she didn't speak, she just kept a pained look,got up, and for a moment Cherie was sure of the rejection, but the younger woman took the straps off, and sat by her side again " Cherie, this is so messed up.. a fucking mess", Cherie smiled sadly running her hand thought Shane's face " I know, it's us... " a tear runs down Shane's face, which Cherie pretends not see, "Cherie I'm trying to change, I'm a fucking messed up monster, but I'm trying so hard" something within Cherie wanted to ask 'is she worth it?' but she knew better than bring her up right now, so she found herself being honest "I know messed up Shane, I know darkness and to a point I embrace it. Not as much as I once did, but still.. And in this fucking ugly world, between black and white, there are so many shades of gray... there were times I loved, and times I hated it... but it is what it is.." she makes Shane look her in the eyes "I take people as they are, their light and their darkness. I take you monster, demon... hell-born angel, and I know that, you at least once... took me like that too. So if not for anything else, at least for that time's sake, let me feel again even if it is to be the last", Shane looked into Cherie's eyes, searching for any sign of deceit, anything to indicate that it was just a cruel joke... but having found none she said " feel me.. you feel me" neither was sure if it was a question or statement but they laid down, kissing a bit more softly, this time, keeping lust at bay... Shane covered Cherie's body with kisses and light nips, down to the apex of her thighs she could feel her hot breath on her wet folds, but then it was gone and she felt Shane get on her knees and take her own hands down her body to part herself open to her. It was the most intimate she had ever felt to anyone. Like she was offering herself to be taken in a way far more intimate than she had ever known - then a strange half commanding half shy request "close your eyes..." she did as told too intrigued to even object and then she felt Shane's hands that mirrored her own and this time when she laid on top of her she could feel Shane's clit touch directly on her own. She could feel their combined wetness as they moved, slow at first, giving her time to marvel at the sensation, then increasing tempo, faster, harder, she could both hear and feel Shane's hot shallow breaths, the fast pacing of her heart... she pulled her short hair thrusting in sync with the younger woman, moaning against her ears, as she bit her neck and sucked at her pulse point, but it was a hoarse whispered "Cherie"that was her final undoing as they came crashing down.

They had fallen asleep together and she would later feel her stand, dress and leave, with a pang of pain, and while the old routine was expected, this strange set of emotions was not.

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Her ring tone, brought her out of her daydream, and she glimpsed at the screen and threw it to the couch on the opposite side of the room.

She looked at the mirror once again, to read upon her reflection the secrets she kept only for herself locked away in plain sight.

It was then she realized that she was past any obsession she had ever known... She knew she would never let that girl belong to anyone else and a scheme started etching on her devious mind, She would have Shane no matter what because she knew "She feels me"

the end

Author's note: It really took a while to end this... Anyway Shane being Shane and Cherie being Cherie I think they were a pretty good match... (I know I know Shamen forever but still).

I might do a series of One shots since there are not many Shane\Cherie fics, but it will be up to the muse to decided.