Okay so this chapter has semi-smut. Enjoy and leave reviews because I love them and they give me life lol.
-J.
Punk POV
After coming back from my shift at daybreak I quickly found April in Bayley's room sleeping with Jojo. I contemplated leaving them alone for a minute, but, ultimately, I took April back to my room after Bayley replaced her next to Jojo. I lay her down next to me in my bed and before I knew it, I fell asleep. Before too long, I feel a stirring next to me which wakes me up.
"How did I get here," April asks me groggily.
"I retrieved you from Bayley's room," I answer her with my eyes still closed.
"Jojo's alone?"
"Bayley's with her," I open my eyes to see her sitting up. She rubs her eyes and runs her finger through her hair, trying to tame her morning pillow hair. I can't help but smile at the sight. She throws her legs over the side of the bed and stands up, stretching out her small body while yawning. "Where are you going?"
"Bathroom." She walks into the adjoining bathroom and I hear the door lock. This is different for me. I've never woken up next to somebody before, and I've never just slept next to a woman before. I know I shouldn't, but I can't help but get attached to this human. I know nothing could ever come out of it. Nothing in this world would allow us to truly have a future together. I just hope that she's not expecting that from me because I just wouldn't be able to do it. I wouldn't be able to give her the future she deserves. When this whole siren fiasco is over she'll just go back to human society and move on with her life… and I'll move on with mine.
She comes back out of the bathroom and lies down next to me in the bed. She's on her side with her back toward me. Is there a reason she won't face me? Maybe I'm just reading too much into it. I move closer to her and grab her waist, spooning her. I place a kiss on her shoulder and pull down the thin strap of her night shirt. I hear a moan escape her lips and I continue kissing her shoulder, moving up to her neck slowly, sucking on it softly.
"Punk, stop," I've heard that before. When is she just going to give in on her own? Of course, having to push her to edge isn't something that I mind doing. I continue sucking and nibbling on her neck and pull her closer to me. It's faint, but I can smell her building arousal. Good, she needs to stop fighting herself and just let it go. "Punk, I'm serious. Stop," she demands as she pulls away from me and gets out of the bed. What's wrong with her? After yesterday, I would think that she'd want to do this every opportunity we got.
"Okay, April, I'll bite. What's wrong?" She crosses her arms over her breasts as though she's unsure of what to do next.
"What is this, Punk?" I don't understand the question and give her a confused look. "I mean us. Is there an us?" Oh, I get it now.
"You're asking if we're in a relationship." She nods her head, keeping her eyes on the floor. "April, you need to understand. We are from two totally different worlds. A relationship between the two of us would never work." She looks up at me with a pained expression on her face. She's hurt, really hurt.
"Then why did you have sex with me?"
"Just because we can't be together doesn't mean we can't enjoy the time we have left."
"So that's all I am to you? I'm just someone to keep your bed warm? I thought you liked me." What am I supposed to tell her? I do like her, but a long-term relationship is just completely out of the question.
"Of course I like you, April."
"No, I mean really like me."
"I know what you meant."
"Then why can't we be in a relationship?"
"April, be realistic," I get out of the bed and walk over to her. "You are a human and I am a wolf. How would that work in a serious long-term relationship? What, are you going to give up your life as a human to be with me?" She doesn't answer. "Do you expect me to abandon my pack to be with you?" Still nothing. "April, I can't promise you a future of any kind. I can't offer you anything that you probably wanted before you knew I existed, and you deserve all those things. But right here, right now, all I can offer you is sex." She remains silent and walks toward the door.
"Then maybe we should just stop. There's no point in emotionally investing in someone who I have no future with." She walks out my room and leaves me totally stunned. I sit back down on the bed and run my hand through my hair and over my face. What the hell have I done?
Dean POV
When I came back to the den after being on duty all night, Kaitlyn seemed really stressed out. She could barely look at me and, when I asked Sheamus about it, he told me that he had no idea what happened. I was worried about her, but I figured that she was just tired and I could always ask her what happened during our training session in the afternoon.
"You're off today, pup," I call to her. Kaitlyn and I headed into the woods for her training session around one in the afternoon. I had her run the same agility course that she ran through yesterday. Her time should have gotten better, but instead she was getting hung up on the obstacles and getting really frustrated. She doesn't answer me and groans loudly in anger. She stops running the course and tries to catch her breath while running her fingers through her hair roughly. "Let's take a break." Kaitlyn nods her head and sits at the base of a tree. She brings up her legs to her chest and hugs them tightly, putting her head in between her knees. I walk up to her and sit down beside her. "Kaitlyn, what's wrong? You've been acting strangely since I came back at daybreak." She lifts her head and looks directly at me.
"Dean, I need to ask you a serious question. Do you promise to be honest with me?" Now, I'm really worried about her. What the hell is going on?
"Of course."
"Who's Summer?" CRAP! I'm physically taken back by her question. Where the hell is this coming from?! Who told her about that? I know I didn't tell her!
"How do you know about her?"
"Wrong answer." She gets up and starts to walk away. Dammit! I get up quickly and grab her hand to make her stay.
"No, wait. You just caught me off guard." She turns around to face me. "Kaitlyn, please, just give me a minute to explain, okay?" She nods and I let out a sigh of relief, but damn, where do I begin? "Summer was a lone wolf of sorts. She came wandering into our territory when I was 22 and we took her in. We ended up being in a relationship for five years, and then she left."
"Why did she leave?"
"She was upset with me. I couldn't give her what she wanted out of our relationship."
"Am I going to get a better explanation than that?" Dammit, I didn't want to tell Kaitlyn about this. What if she wants the same thing that Summer wanted? Whoever told Kaitlyn about this is about to have serious problem with me.
"You have to understand, Kaitlyn. I loved Summer, I did, but she wanted puppies, and I couldn't give that to her. After asking me for pups for the last two years of our relationship, she finally got sick of it and left."
"You don't want kids?"
"It's not that I don't. It's just," I pause for a minute. How can I explain this properly? "She would have died within a few years if we had pups. I already lost my mother to the curse, Kaitlyn. I didn't want to lose her too." Kaitlyn holds herself tightly and starts pacing around.
"Is that why you wanted to break the curse so badly? So you could get her back?" WHAT? Why would she think that?
"No, of course not!"
"What if she ever came back?" Where are these questions coming from?
"She's not coming back."
"But what if she did?!"
"I would tell her to move on! Summer's in my past, Kaitlyn. That's where she's going to stay."
"Why didn't you tell me about her?"
"Because why the hell should my past relationships matter?"
"Because she was your first love, Dean! And you've only been separated for a year! How do I know I'm not a rebound?!" A rebound? So that's what this is about? I close the space between us and cup her cheek gently.
"Look at me, Kaitlyn," She lifts her eyes and stops avoiding eye contact with me. "You never have been, nor will you ever be a rebound. Don't let the past get in the way of what we have now, okay?" She nods in understanding and takes a deep breath.
"I'm sorry I freaked out on you."
"Don't be." I lean in and kiss her quickly. I pull back slightly, looking into her hazel eyes. I don't know what's coming over me but I really feel like I need to tell her something so that she'll never have doubt about us again. "I love you, Kaitlyn." I'm shocked at myself that I actually said it, but I don't let it show. Kaitlyn is surprised at my confession too, but waiting for her to respond is nerve-wracking.
"I love you too, Dean." I take a breath of relief and kiss her again. The kiss soon becomes rushed and my hand leaves her cheek and moves to the back of her neck. My other hand wraps around her waist, pulling her closer to me as she puts her hands on my shoulders.
How did our training session turn into an emotional confession which then turned into a make out session, turn into something so… feral? I practically threw her up against the nearest tree and hastily unzipped her top revealing her bra clad breasts to me. Beautiful, absolutely beautiful. We kiss one more time before I duck lower and pepper kisses along her neck, down to her breasts. I start pawing at them slowly before pulling the cups down and exposing her bare breasts and small pink nipples. I glance at her quickly before pulling one in my mouth and sucking on it gently.
"Dean," she whimpers. It's fucking music to my ears. I switch breasts slowly and I can hear her heart pounding. I stop after a while and move back up to kiss her lips. She responds eagerly and reaches for my shirt, pulling it off easily. We immediately return to kissing and my hands go to her shorts, undoing the button and zipper. "Dean, wait," she pants. I instantly stop and wait for her to say something. "I don't think we should go too far," she tells me breathlessly. That's not exactly what I want to hear, but I'll stop if she really wants me to.
"Do you want me to stop?" I hope to everything that she says no.
"No." Yes!
"Okay, I won't go too far, and if you want me to stop at any point, tell me." She nods and leans back against the tree. I kiss her once more before I return to my task and pull down her shorts and panties. She steps out of them as I lift one of her legs and put it over my shoulder, giving me a perfect view of her opening. She starts to shake out of nerves, and I look up and smile at her. "Don't be nervous," I tell her as I use my fingers to open her lower lips. "Let me take care of you." I stick out my tongue and slowly drag it up and down her slit. I can hear her whimpering breathlessly as her hands move to my head and gently grip my hair. I turn my attention to her clit, alternating between sucking and licking.
"Oh! Dean! That feels so good." Upon hearing her words of encouragement, I place my hands on her hips, keeping her in place as I continue my attack on her clit. I can feel her body start to tremble, but I know it's not out of nerves. I glance up at her to see that her eyes are closed shut and her mouth is slightly agape, revealing both her top and bottom fangs. She looks perfect. I slowly start to fuck her with my tongue while reaching my fingers over to her clit, rubbing circles around it at a steady pace. A mere seconds later, she doubles over a little and her moaning stops. I feel her walls contract around my tongue and I know she's hit her climax. So she has silent orgasms, huh? That's going to have to stop, but not right now. Right now, I just help her ride out her orgasm, slowing down my fingers and slowly removing my tongue from her folds. When I hear her begin to breathe again I place one more kiss on her slit before slowly kissing my way up her body, ultimately landing on her lips. She holds me close to her and I can hear breathing become even. "Hey, don't fall asleep just yet," I tease her. "We need to get you dressed again. You can sleep when we get back to the den." She giggles softly and leans her head on my chest.
"What about our training session?"
"We'll make up for it tomorrow." I feel her nod against me. When we get home, I'll put her to bed in my room. I would love to join her, but I need to handle some personal business before I can do that, but Kaitlyn needs to tell me something very important. "Kaitlyn, who told you about my ex?"
AJ POV
I'm so stupid! I'm so stupid to ever think Punk and I could ever be something! I was so stupid to give it up to him before finding out his intentions for me! After I left Punk's room, I looked for Kaitlyn, only to run into Sami who told me that Kaitlyn and Dean left for their training session. Dammit, Dean is always taking her from me when I need her most! I just wanted to be alone so I went over to the basement to find that it was locked. Punk must have been more adamant about me not sleeping in the basement anymore than I originally thought. "Fuck," I whisper silently. I can't stay in the living room, and I refuse to go back to Punk's room. I begin to cry out of frustration. What am I supposed to do? Where am I supposed to go?! I can't let anyone see me like this! Quickly I run back upstairs and go to the nearest bathroom, locking it behind me. I lean up against the door and fall to the floor, curled up in a ball. I sob uncontrollably. "What the hell is wrong with me?! I know better than to give it up without knowing where I stand!" I don't know if I can stay here. Kaitlyn doesn't need me as much as she did in the beginning, and if she really did need me she could just come visit me. Why should I stay here and continue to get hurt?! Suddenly, I hear a soft knock on the door. If I weren't next to it, I wouldn't have heard the knock at all.
"AJ, okay?" It's Jojo.
"I'm fine sweetie," I try my best to not sound like I'm crying. "Go play with Bayley." I hear little footsteps scurry away calling out for Bayley. I get on my feet and walk over to the vanity, looking at myself in the mirror. Ugh, I look like a wreck! My hair is messy from sliding down the door and my eyes are bright red and puffy. I use my fingers to tame my hair and run some cold water to splash my face and wash out my eyes. Then I hear another knock at the door. "It's occupied right now!"
"I know, AJ." It's Bayley. "Jojo told me you were crying so I wanted to come and check on you."
"I'm okay Bayley, really."
"AJ, don't lie to me. I can smell your tears." Damn wolves with their heightened freaking senses!
"Bayley, please I just want to be alone right now."
"That's not true! If Kaitlyn were here you'd want to be with her!" It doesn't matter if she's right or not. Kaitlyn's not here right now. "Please, AJ! I don't know what's wrong but if I can help in any way, let me do so." I guess it couldn't hurt and I could use a shoulder to cry on. I open the door and she immediately comes in a hugs me. She kicks the door closed and lets me go. "Oh you were crying a lot," she says when she takes a look at my face. "What happened?"
"I was just thinking that I've been making some pretty stupid choices lately."
"What do you mean?" I take a seat on the edge of the tub and she sits next to me.
"I just thought that I could have a relationship with someone who didn't think the same way."
"You mean with Pack Master CM Punk?" I snap my head and look at her. I'm absolutely horrified! How did she know?! "When you guys came home yesterday your scents were all over each other. It smelled like you tried to wash it off, but… the smell of sex doesn't go away that easily."
"That's embarrassing. I never intended for anyone other than Kaitlyn to know."
"In a house full of wolves, it's very difficult to keep anything a secret. Anyway, you and Pack Master CM Punk are having problems?"
"Well, we did have sex, but I thought it was more than that," I confess to her. "The way it happened and how it felt… I just thought he cared and he wanted something more, but I was wrong."
"Well I don't much about what's going on between you, but I don't think you're giving Pack Master CM Punk enough credit. He never just sleeps with someone, and he definitely never shares his room with anyone. It's obvious to all of us that he really likes you."
"But that's not enough! He told me that he liked me, but he still doesn't want to be with me. What's the point of liking someone you have no future with?"
"I don't know much about the future. No one does, but I know for a fact that if my mother was so focused on the future, Paige and I would have never been born." What?
"I don't understand."
"We wolves don't have the luxury of a future. Everything is decided for us. We can't enter human society because we have to hunt them at least once in our lives, we can't make any decisions about our lives because we have to protect the humans. On top of that, we can't even enjoy a full life with our mates because after females give birth, we die four or five years later. My mother knew she would have pups when she and my father mated. She knew she would die and never have the opportunity to have a full life with her pups and mate, and yet, she lived in the now and, because of it, Paige and I are here." Wow. Bayley is really wise for someone who acts so childish. "I guess what I'm trying to say is Pack Master CM Punk only knows to live in the present. You can't really fault him for that."
"I don't know Bayley. I mean I understand that, but he can't expect me to do the same."
"I get that, but at least you know where you stand now. It's not like he was trying to keep it from you, and who knows? Maybe he'll rethink about a future with you now that the both of you know how you feel about one another. At least you have that." I get the feeling Bayley is speaking from experience. Is she talking about Roman?
"Does Roman know how you feel?" Bayley is surprised by my question and loses her balance, falling into the tub.
"Wh-what are you talking about?!"
"It's obvious that you like him. Does he know you like him?" Bayley stays in the tub and leans back.
"I've never told him. I mean Roman has always looked out for me, but I don't know if he feels the same way or if he just sees me as a puppy that needs to be protected."
"There's only one way to find out, Bayley."