Title: And Then He Came
Summary: Kurt's life keeps spiraling out of control. Not knowing what to do suicide becomes a temptation he just might give into, unless someone can find a way to get through to him.
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the Glee characters. I just like to mess with their minds. Hee hee
Author's Note: Thank you all for choosing to follow this story. And thank you Mr. Anonymous for being the first to give me a review. I hope this next chappie will continue to hold all your interest. And don't worry the smut will come!
Ch.2
While Kurt had fallen to sleep with the sounds of a Hebrew lullaby, it was Guns and Roses' 'Sweet Child of Mine' that he woke up to. A peace like he hasn't known in two years stole over him as he took in the feeling of home, love, happiness, and everything that is essentially Finn. They were laying in Kurt's bed that now smelled of new sheets and Finn was pressed against his back holding him while singing. Kurt could feel the vibrations from Finn's chest when he sang the lower notes. It was then that Kurt finally felt safe enough to let go of his pain. Heaving sobs and tears just flowed out of him. The arms holding him tightened and Finn whispered soothing words in his ear.
Finn had been in Mr. Shue's office discussing tomorrow's Glee assignment when his phone went off. Mr. Shue indicated Finn should answer it then started going through the giant stacks of papers that covered his desk. Finn saw that it was Rachel calling, how weird that was since they hardly ever talked.
"Hello?"
"Finn!" Rachel was sobbing. He stood so quickly his chair fell backwards and grabbed Mr. Shue's attention. She started babbling and all he could understand was Ryan and Kurt's names and 'going into shock'. Pure terror went through Finn's body as he remembered a similar call a year ago. Wait, don't think the worst get the full story first Hudson before you lose it.
"Rachel, calm down everything's going to be fine just tell me what's wrong?"
"Kurt walked in on Ryan having sex with another man and now I think he's gone into shock. Ryan, although he's a totally unfit life partner and a complete douche he knows better than to leave someone with Kurt's past alone in this condition so he called me."
"Okay, you said you think Kurt's in shock, what is he doing?"
Mr. Shue was also standing now looking worried and ready to do anything he could to help.
"He's just sitting on the kitchen floor looking at his hands, but he's not responding to anything I say or do. I covered him with a blanket, because he was shaking. The only thing he's said was your name and then he just withdrew again. I think he needs you. Is there any way you can fly up here?"
"Get him to the couch, keep him warm and don't leave, I'm on my way...Thank you for calling...just please dear God, don't let him do anything stupid." Finn hung up then looked at Mr. Shue.
"Is Kurt all right? What happened?"
"He walked in on Ryan with someone else. He's in shock, but Rachel isn't leaving his side. I have to go. I'm not letting him go through this alone, not after last year."
"I completely understand. Take all the time you need I can hold down the fort here. Let me know if there's anything else I can do."
"Thanks, I will." Finn emailed Mr. Figgins on the way to his car letting him know that he was taking a few personal days. Then he texted his mom and Burt telling them to meet him at the house Puck and he share. There was no way he was relating that news over the phone if he could help it. When he pulled up he saw that Puck was there and had apparently let his mom and Burt in. He took a deep breath then rushed in.
Everyone was worried when Finn relayed the news. Although they knew Kurt was strong, the events of last year always stood as a reminder that he was also very fragile at times. Back in high school Kurt seemed to be an ice queen that no one and nothing could break. Still when he finally did the possibility that he could again was now always a fear.
"I'm coming with you", Burt insisted.
Finn had been packing while getting them up to date and now he stopped to look at Burt. He tried to think of a way to dissuade him of the idea. "I know you want to, but I think now the less people Kurt is around the better."
"I'm not people. I'm his father dammit."
"Burt that's not what I meant. I know you're worried, but I also know that if you are there Kurt is less likely to see this through and more likely to bury it. He doesn't like to look weak in front of you. You and I both know that. "
"What kind of father am I that my own son is afraid to be himself around me."
Carol wrapped her arms around him and stated, "It has nothing to do with being a bad father. You are a wonderful father and Kurt loves you very much. He has told you that many times. This is about him needing a friend not a parent. He asked for Finn and
while we don't know why, Kurt does. So, Finn..." Carol looked at Finn. "You'll call us and let us know what's going on and if you need us." She then looked at Burt, seeing the hopelessness reflected in his eyes she added, " And maybe talk to him about taking a break and coming home for a while. I think it would do us all a world of good to spend some family time together."
Finn nodded knowing his mother was right. He went back to packing with Burt's help. Puck took Carol into the kitchen for some hot tea.
Burt looked over at Finn as he closed the suitcase, "We don't know why Kurt asked for you, but do you know?"
Taking a deep breath Finn picked up his luggage and headed to the car. He waved his hand for Burt to follow. Once his things were in the trunk he leaned back against it and stared at Burt. He wasn't sure how to put his thoughts into words that wouldn't be taken wrong. It was something that always bothered him and something that never happened with Kurt.
"Look no offense to my boy Puck, but over the past few years Kurt has become my best friend. He was my rock when things went to hell. When Quinn told me, I was going to be a dad, when I found out it was really Puck, every time Rachel and I broke things off, and every other time that I needed someone to be my strength and sanity Kurt was there. Maybe this time he's asking me to be the same for him. I don't know how to explain the way I feel towards him. Ever since you and mom got together I've referred to him as my little brother... There's this weird connection that's been there since day one of meeting him. Before we became friends, I was an asshole. You know our history, but he put that aside and let me in. He introduced me to...me." Finn paused and gathered his thoughts again not sure how far he could go in this reveal.
Burt just nodded and waited for Finn to continue.
Finn once again took a deep breath and decided to go for broke and hope for the best. Hell, maybe Burt would be okay with things and have some advice. "I said that I refer to Kurt as my brother and while everyone, including Kurt see that as a term of endearment; I've used it to keep myself in check. We seem to be drawn to each other. Kurt use to mention how we could know what the other was feeling... That we have a connection, but that scared me. In the beginning, I was fine with Kurt being gay, but I was terrified of being considered gay. So, I'd lash out when he would say things like that or push our friendship. We all know how well that ended."
Burt grunted remembering the anger he had felt at the time. Still he kept quiet knowing that Finn wasn't done yet.
Finn rubbed the back of his neck, "When you and mom got together it was awful at first then I realize, hey, Kurt could be my brother it's a perfect solution to the feelings I was having. I let it stay that way until last year." He looked Burt straight in the eyes now as he said, "It was last year that I realized I love him..." His stomach knotted as he continued with only a slight tremor in his voice. "Not as a brother Burt, as I'd convinced everyone including me, but that I was in love with Kurt."
Burt was shocked he knew Finn had been going somewhere with all of this, but still to hear him say it out loud was ... shocking! They stood there with Burt all tense and Finn shuffling his feet like a little boy. Finally, Burt replied, "You have known this and carried it around for nearly a year?" At Finn's simple nod he spoke again, "Why didn't you say something?"
"Because we're brothers now. It's wrong I can't just go up to him and spill my heart out just to know nothing can ever come of it."
Burt was silent thinking it all through. When he spoke again it was with conviction, "I'll admit it is slightly odd. Mainly that's, because up till now you've been straight." He laughed softly and rubbed his chin in thought. It was his trademark move well that and lifting his ball cap to rub his bald scalp when something stumped or surprised him. The move was usually saved for Kurt. "Some people might see things that way Finn, but it will be those same people who think being gay is wrong. What they think does not matter. Fact is you knew Kurt long before I knew your mother. If anyone's relationship would be questioned it is mine and your mother's." Burt placed a hand on Finn's shoulder, "I know you are a good man. I've seen the love you two share first hand and I must have been dumber than shit not to have seen this before. You have my blessing if you want to pursue Kurt and quite frankly I would prefer it be you than another jackass that breaks my little boy into so many pieces that we can't put him back together again. Now go say goodbye to Puck and Carole then bring my little boy home." That was how Finn found himself holding a sobbing Kurt in bed.
