I knew I had died.

I knew that he said his mark had burned, I had a feeling that I consistently pushed to the back of my mind that his mark had faded. But even if I did acknowledge that thought, I never in a million years thought it would have faded this much. I mean honestly, I was dead for minutes at most. As soon as Amber and I saw it, our stomachs plummeted. Amber whining and pawing at her cage to come out and ask why he wouldn't tell us. Why did he keep it a secret? Was our mark not worth having on him? Is that why he kept wearing shirts to bed?

All these thoughts were from Amber, especially the one about him not wanting our mark. As a human I understand how he feels on an emotional level, to Amber the mark are his feelings laid out on a platter because her instincts are more physical. But her sadness, is my sadness so the pool of tears in my eyes no matter how full doesn't make it more difficult to see the mark… what little mark there is left. How had it faded so fast? I've never heard of that happening.

Josh stares at me wide eyed and open mouthed, either trying to figure out my reaction or trying to figure out what to say to me. He knows this is a blow to my heart. My mark is still very apparent, it hadn't faded at all. I don't really know why I thought that, of course his mark is there he didn't die. "Mate?"

Of course he let Jax take control, he knows Amber is practically in mourning. "Mate don't be sad." He whimpers out and pecks my cheek, for whatever reason I dodged it. Jax drops his head and his lips turn to a frown, I denied him contact. "Please don't be sad mate. No don't cry." My eyes had their fill, it was time to let them fall at this point. It isn't his fault that the mark faded so why am I so devastated and hurt?

'Mate didn't tell us.'

Amber's tail covers her eyes, she doesn't want to look at our mate right now. "It hurts us when you cry." Jax's hands move in an effort to wipe my tears and I don't dodge him this time. I let his thumb brush them away as if they never fell in the first place but my eyes remain fixated on where my mark was, "Stupid human." He mumbles under his breath.

"I'm going to go to bed." I muster out, though I've been sleeping basically all day I'm exhausted. These past few days have had more than an emotional and physical toll on me and this tonight, whether or not this was Josh's fault was icing on the cake. "Good night."

"No mate please, don't be mad. Human didn't want to make you sad, says you had enough on your plate. Whatever that means." In any other situation I would have laughed at the look on his face. "You don't have a plate, but he says you'd understand?" His statement coming out as more of a question than anything only makes him more adorable.

Shaking my head from left to right, I just limp away. Amber I think more than anything needs some time to herself like the dramatic she wolf she is. "I carry mate upstairs?" Again shaking my head I meander towards the elevators, well aware that Josh or Jax rather is right behind me. Words muttered so low I can barely make them out. No doubt he's chastising Josh for keeping it a secret. "I get on elevator with mate?" He questions hopefully.

"Jax I just – Amber and I both need some time." He whimpers and backs away from the doors with his head down, fidgeting with his fingers. The door closes, his deep brown eyes being the last thing I see till the silver steel traps me inside. Resting my head against the wall, I talk to Amber.

'Amber you okay girl?'

'No. Mate doesn't want us.'

I feel a pang in my heart and I know it's from her. 'Yes he does. He just –

'Doesn't want our mark on him. Didn't tell us that our mark had disappeared. Mate doesn't want us!'

Shutting her out completely, I'm not surprised to see Josh's face as soon as the elevator doors open. A hopeful smile on his face, "Enough time?" Again, I'd laugh if it wasn't for the overwhelming amount of sadness I'm feeling from Amber.

Limping out of the elevator, I don't even answer him as he falls in step beside me. Opening the door, grabbing some night clothes and a tee shirt of Josh's I walk back towards the entryway. "Where's mate going?" Jax whimpers while pushing off from the bed and now I'm feeling his sorrow.

Goddess, this is almost too much to take.

"Amber needs some alone time. I'm going to sleep in the other room Jax."

His orbs instantly fill with tears, I vaguely make out his chin trembling. "Mate stay in here. I kiss mate, and mate feels better. W-we love mate." Head cocked to the side with his brows furrowed, it's as simple as breathing to him, to wolves. He just wants to make it better.

'See Amber. They love us.'

I get no response from Amber she's closed both her mind and mouth completely to not just Jax and Josh but to me as well. Sighing to myself and wishing she wasn't acting this way, my hand finds the door knob. "I'll see you in the morning Jax." Stepping towards me I kiss his cheek, "I'm sorry this is just a lot for Amber after everything."

"P-please don't go." Hearing a gulp, his Adam's apple bobbing I feel like I'm about to burst out into tears. His arms snake around my waist and hold me tightly in place. The sparks comforting in their own way, but only to my skin side. The warm soft fur that Amber has is no longer, leaving it cold and coarse. "Human says I sleep on couch, you stay here?"

His face burying into my stomach, gently. "Maya?" The voice not as gruff and deep, Josh is back, "Please don't leave baby girl. I'll sleep on the couch but please don't sleep somewhere else. I'm sorry I didn't tell you, I didn't want to overwhelm you, you had so much going on and I just didn't – I didn't think." His last words barely a whisper.

"Josh, I love you but Amber needs some space. You can feel her sadness." I finish off for him, but his posture that tenses and his breath that hitches tells me otherwise. "Right? You can still feel my emotions right?"

His hands start to fall before he tightens them again, realizing what it was he was doing. "I-I can read your mind but no I can't feel your emotions or hers."

'Mate doesn't care.'

'Stop being so dramatic! Mate loves us! And I'm sleeping in another room tonight because you can't understand that he didn't want to overwhelm us. You're feeling sorry for yourself wolf, you've never done that since I shifted and tomorrow morning you better be out of your pity party! Because you will apologize to Jax and Josh!'

'What's a pity party?'

Shutting her out, I focus back in on Josh. Pleading eyes looking up at me, "Josh, my bitch of a wolf needs to be away. I love you." Stepping out of his grasp wasn't easy, the sadness and hurt from Josh and Jax flooding into my body. This isn't fair, I can feel his sadness but he can't feel ours. Stepping towards the door, Josh intertwines our fingers.

"I come with Mate." Jax is back out, "I stay with mate." He repeats, chin still trembling and more tears fall. Goddess I'm so pissed off at Amber, but if it weren't for her and her healing I would be dead before I hit age 12. I owe her this much. "Mate stays with us." A small smile on his lips he's being so hopeful.

"Jax stay in here please."

"Human did something stupid not Jax." He reminds me.

I want to tell him neither of you did a stupid thing but, Josh should have told me. I just, unlike Amber understand why he didn't tell me. "Sweet dreams Jax." Another pang to the heart, "Please put up your block. Between you two and Amber it hurts." I don't expect him to put it up, I'm sure he's hoping that I'll relent and come back because of how upset he is.

I hear his whimpering as I walk down the hallway to the only other bedroom on this floor. Shutting the door and resting my head against the wood, inhaling deeply I try to regain some of my composure. Shedding my shorts and tee shirt, I put on my night clothes and lie down on the bed. Josh's tee shirt in my grasp. His scent comforting me and only me as Amber continues to be cold and distant.

She's never had pity on herself, not even when my father would hurt us. This mate business isn't a joke.

Deciding that I've had enough of… everything I lull myself to sleep.

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'I can't sleep.'

Amber let her wall down about 20 minutes ago. It is now 3 o'clock in the morning and I've realized she is more stubborn than me. 'You know wolf, mate loves us. I know you felt him.'

'Go to mate.' Amber breathes out.

'If mate wants us, he's probably mad at you Amber!'

Dropping her head, ears pressed back while whimpering. I don't feel sorry for her, she was acting completely ridiculous. Crawling out of bed, my feet hitting the cold hardwood as I limp towards the door. The tee shirt of Josh's just wasn't doing it and for that I'm thankful. I almost scream as soon as the door opens… almost. I'm glad I didn't that would have caused utter chaos in the pack house. I wasn't expecting this, Josh is laid out on the floor outside our door. My pillow in his grasp, and the guilt I feel from Amber overwhelms me. He isn't sleeping well, consistently fidgeting and inhaling the scent of my pillow deeply every minute or so. 'See what you did to Jax and Josh! I should have never listened to you.'

"Josh." I whisper in hopes that will be enough to wake him, I don't want to startle him.

Orbs immediately opening, he rolls over and hopeful eyes stare back at me. "Come on." I murmur and hold out my hand. Within seconds we're lying back down in our bed, sometimes werewolf speed comes in handy. His lips connecting with every part of my face except the one place that I want them to touch.

A/N: Small sexual scene nothing too bad. Just wanted to give you a heads up.

"I'm so sorry baby girl. I love you so much, please don't think otherwise. I love you, I love you, I love you." Hurried words before his lips crash against mine in a fervent manner. Mouths moving together, rumbling in his chest as he stifles a growl of satisfaction. Grinding into my core I gasp against his lips as his trail down my neck, giving plenty of attention to my mark. "I missed you baby girl." I don't make fun even though it's only been like 5 hours because I missed him too.

Teeth grazing my mark before grinding into me again. My shirt being thrown across the room, my fingertips brushing against his abs. "Damn Maya, I love you. We love you and Amber." My shorts are next while his lips trail down my body.

"I love you too." I breathe out in pure ecstasy.

Sliding back up my frame, lips connecting to mine. How could Amber be mad at this wolf? He's absolutely incredible. "Mark me Maya."

Amber purrs in satisfaction, the purr coming forth into the silent room. Our breathing and need for one another being the only things you can hear. "I want everyone to see it." He states with finality before I feel him inside of me. Arching my back as my nails scrape his muscles, his fingers gripping my hair. What would normally be painful is pure pleasure, each thrust stronger than the last. This isn't our normal love making, this is pure need for one another.

Canines elongating from the desire, my back still arched and my one leg wrapped around his waist. "Now." He growls out when driving into me roughly. Without wasting another second my teeth plunge into his neck. Slowing down but not stopping, I don't pull my canines out. Not yet, Amber and I want to make sure that this one stays. Josh moans out, his hands gripping my hips harder almost bruising.

Finally releasing my hold on him, licking the wound clean.

That's how we spend the rest of our night, making love into the early hours of the morning.

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A/N: It's safe.

"You woke up at the worst time." Lucas growls and begins to pace the room… again. Josh's grip on my hips tighten as he glares at his Beta. Not appreciating the way he speaks to his female, plus we're cranky. Not a lot of sleep… but it was so worth it.

Alpha William remains silent on the phone as I explained my vision in great detail. Even describing the scents, any little thing could matter according to him. My mate explaining why our pack was there in the first place, which I loved the idea of pack bonding. Josh inhaling my scent just because – he isn't mad, I think he's still on a little high from me marking him. I was surprised when Lucas came into the room, apparently he found out about my new gift and my mate ordered him not to tell anyone.

Talk about paranoid.

Either way he wanted to find out what I meant about Riley and in reality that didn't help him… if anything that made him even madder. Understandably so. "Luckily this seems to be an easy fix. Don't go should you not want to risk Riley."

Lucas' hair stands up on edge with the way that was thrown out there. But he stays silent, which was probably for the best. "Or we could just not take Riley and be prepared." Josh proposes while playing with my hair. "Attack him before he attacks us."

Something doesn't feel right, "I don't think that's a good idea."

"Why's that little Luna?"

Alpha William's smirk is evident through his voice. "No females, no pups. They won't attack or make themselves known when they realize we're prepared. Then they'll start wondering how. How we were able to know they'd be there."

"This isn't the right time to attack." Alpha William finishes for me, "Trust your instincts Maya."

Glancing at my mate, the look in his eyes he wants to discuss this with me. Nodding in acknowledgement, there's only one more question I have to ask him. "Alpha, I understand that in the new alliance you basically don't have a choice in aiding us when necessary. But I'm asking you, as your granddaughter. Should we need you, alliance aside can I count on you?"

Sighing, he starts to chuckle. My brows immediately knit together in confusion, each one of us glancing at the other seeing the same muddled look on our face. What's funny? "Maya, I have done many things wrong in my lifetime. One of them, was failing at getting you and your mother out of that hell. We just met, I understand that we may not ever have the typical grandfather to granddaughter relationship but I won't fail you again. I will absolutely stand by your side dear."

"It wasn't your fault, you did what you could." I all but whisper, I don't really know what else to say to that to be quite honest. "But I greatly appreciate that you'd help."

"Call me if you need anything else little Luna."

Hanging up the phone, kissing Josh on the cheek I head towards the kitchen but not before my mate says, "We'll talk about our plan of action after school. I'll talk to Lucas then meet you downstairs." I need breakfast before we go to school, my stomach has made that apparent. Ugh, school. Such total BS. Stepping towards the kitchen, passing a hallway on my way, whispered words catching my attention. A male and female, they don't want to be heard or found. I never understand that, why have a conversation you clearly don't want someone to hear out in the middle of a hallway?

Total cliché.

Hanging out in the shadows, I try to listen in. Both voices I recognize, one with a British accent and one bitchy. Hearing Kris growl, and Katie hiss I shut my eyes and try to eavesdrop a little better, willing Amber to come more to my front without her taking control. Knowing she'd attack Katie first chance she got. "You'll do it." She snaps.

"I can't wait to rip out your throat." Wow, that turned violent quickly. The siblings really don't get along. Poor Kris having to be related to Katie. I'd lose my mind, "You were supposed to release her last month."

Damn it Kris, what have you done?

"I say I'm going to do a lot of things Kris, do the smart thing here and get me the information." Seems as if this conversation is over.

Adjusting my dress, I lean against the hallway entry. "Wow this is awful creepy." Wide eyes flipping towards me before they become stoic as if nothing happened. And to get the information out of Kris that I need, I have to at least pretend I heard nothing. "Come on Kris, no need to be around her if she's upsetting you." I reply with a smile, "Katie." I acknowledge to my disdain, I don't trust her and I don't like her.

But even after everything I just heard, I still trust Kris.

"Luna." She bows her head, giving her brother one last look of what I'm assuming to be 'warning' before practically sprinting the other direction.

Kris remains in place, terrified eyes staring back at me. Bowing his head, angling his neck. I know where his loyalties lie despite what I heard. Jerking my head behind me, he follows me in silence to the kitchen. 'Play it off.' I warn and pull out the left over's from breakfast after getting over the initial shock that there were left over's. "Hungry?"

"No Luna, I already ate. Thank you."

"What'd I say about Luna?" I question with an arched brow, 'She has your mother?'

Forcing out a chuckle that was obviously fake, I force off the grimace that wants to come to my face. "To call you Maya. Sorry, Maya." Sighing he glances around the room at the entrances to, I'm sure look for Katie. 'Yes.'

'You're the mole.'

Pressing a few buttons on the microwave, I turn back to him with a smile. I didn't ask him, I was telling him that he was the mole. "How's your mate?"

'I give Katie info, she gives it to someone. I'm not sure who.' After telling me that his mate admires me and wants to meet me personally, I can't help but laugh they act like I'm a damn celebrity or something.

'Meet me in Josh's office after school. We have some stuff to discuss.' Kris drops his head and rubs his eyes. Waves of fear and sadness flowing off of him and hitting me smack in the face.

'Please Maya, please. I have my mate, and my mother needs me just—

'Easy Kris. We can use you to our advantage, I'm not mad. I understand what's going on. You aren't in trouble.' Immediately the worry is erased off of his face as he steps towards me. Getting on his knees, angling his neck outwards. "Thank you Luna Maya."

Helping him stand to his feet, my lips curve into a smile. "For what Kris?" Playfully winking, taking my sausage, egg and cheese biscuit out of the microwave I arch my brow and walk away. "See you at school."

Now to explain this situation to Josh… this won't be good.

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So there's a lot going on right now.

Kris being the mole and giving information to Katie.

What to do about La Casa Beach.

How do you think Josh will react?