Chapter 5
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I knew Jordan was supposed to come to the set for one more day I made sure to avoid him. I did not need any scenes happening at work. I run into his friend Joey again there at work. He was chatting with Belinda about something. I tried to rush past but they saw me as I went past. I could not get away from them.

"Hey, did you hear Jordan is flying back early" warns Belinda.

"What?! Why is he doing that?" I question her curiously.

"He says he has no reason to stay here so he is heading back home. We all wanted him to stay but he wants to go. We were going to go to a studio here in town one day this week and see about recoding a new album together like he had with Nick Carter" Joey explains as he crosses his arms and glances my way.

I knew the real reason why Jordan was leaving for home early. It was all my fault. Guilt sets inside of me.

"He did?" I say softly. Joey nods.

"I think he is bummed about not seeing you. Though he would not talk about it" Joey tells me.

"Why is that Ana? Why did you ditch Jordan? You had free time this week?" Belinda pipes up as she raises her eyebrow at me.

"I am busy...I have a million things to do" I lie.

"Excuse us a moment Joey" Belinda says as she takes me aside away from Joey. "Spill those guts Ana. Why did you do that?"

"He is leaving any way! It would never work out for us!" I moan.

"Chicken! You have real feelings for Jordan. You know he has them for you! So, you are dumping him before you get hurt" states Belinda. "I know Rocky was an ass! He hurt you deeply. But not every guy is going to break your heart"

Rocky was my ex. Rocky was a nick name because whenever the Rocky movies were on he had to watch them. His real name was Nathan Weston. He was a boxer wanna be. Always making bets in the ring then losing out on a ton of money.

He had been abusive mentally as well as physically to me. So, it was hard for me to trust Rocky or any other man.

"I feel so badly" I sigh. "But you are right"

"So, go to Jordan! Before he is out of your life for good! Hey Angel!" Belinda grabs poor Angel in the halls.

"Yes miss?" Angle says smiling.

"Can you cover our girl if she leaves for just today? It is for the sake of love" Belinda says.

"Sure, can boss lady" jokes Angel.

"Joe! Joey!" Belinda calls out to Joey. He comes back over to us.

"What is it?" he asks her.

"Can you give Ana Jordan's room at the hotel? She needs to talk to him before he leaves" begs Belinda before I had a chance to say no way.

"Of course, Let me get a piece of paper" Joey replies. He jots down the information for me. Hands it to me.

"Go to him. Before he walks out of your life forever" Belinda warns me as she hands me the keys to her jeep.

"Okay" I sigh deeply. She nods.

I head out the door after clocking out of work. I get in Belinda's jeep. I glance over the address Joey gave me. The hotel was not to far from the movie set. I set up my GPS system. Then I am on the way to Jordan. My heart hammering in my chest at warp speed.

What was I going to say to the man when I saw him? Beg him to forgive me? Beg him to stay? Would he want to stay? How serious was he about me? So many questions were running in my head. I could not stop them from coming.

Soon I come to the hotel. This was it. I was here at last. I find a parking spot where his room was located at. I sit in the car for a moment. Gathering my thoughts of all I wanted to say to Jordan.

I could do this. Jordan was nothing like Rocky. He was not going to break my heart. I could only hope he would not do that. I get my purse going to go to his hotel room.

Someone knocks on my car window causing me to jump. I glance over to see who was there. It was Jordan! Quickly I roll down my car window.

"Ana?! What are you doing here?" Jordan asks me softly.

"I came to see you. I hear you are leaving early? Why are you doing that?" I ask him as I get out of the jeep. I shut the door behind me.

"You know why Ana. Don't ask me. Look I have things I have to do. See you around" he mutters as he goes to leave. I hurt him, I never meant to. But clearly, I had hurt him. I grab his arm.

"Jordan, please hear me out" I beg him.

He says nothing but he does not leave.

"Go on!" he demands.

"You are right. I am scared. I was in a really bad break up. The guy beat me in my past. He was controlling. He cheated on me. I have not had feelings for anyone in such a long time. You made those feelings come back. They scared me to find out where they were going. Jordan, I don't see you as a womanizer. These are all my own issues. You are not like that. Please do not think that. I just am scared to see where this is leading us. Scared to be left behind" I ramble on.

Suddenly he pulls me into his embrace. He kisses me until I am breathless. My arms are around his middle as his lips hungrily explore mine. My lips had craved this all along. He pulls back for a moment. His eyes smile back at me with joy in them.

"Ana, honey I am scared to. I have been hurt before to. But I want to see where this leads us. Did you know I had been looking at rental homes out here so maybe I can spend time around here by you? Did Joey tell you we might work on an album out here? I am doing all I can to have more time around you out here" he confides in me.

"Really?" I squeak. He nods.

"I want us to work. I was even considering moving out here in time. I have nothing left any more back in Boston. I don't want to rush this. But I want it. I am so glad you came to me" he says happily.

"I want to be with you to. I was upset by Candy. I am sorry for being foolish" I sigh. He hugs me.

"Trust takes time. We both have to trust each other for this to work out. You can trust me. You will see. I won't hurt your heart. I want to win it" he promises me.

"Are you going to stay longer?" I beg him hopefully.

"I will. Only if you promise to go on another date with me" he asks me as he smiles at me.

"You have a deal" I agree.

He laughs as he pulls me close in his arms. He dips me in his arms. Kissing me making me happy about the choice I chose to make.