Here's the next chapter! Sorry I haven't uploaded. I didn't have internet.
I don't want to go. There's going to be so much crying, so many things and people that'll remind me of Finn. I
heard Carole crying last night. It was quiet but I heard it:
"I'm not a mom anymore!"
Those five words... broke me. Tomorrow at the funeral, they won't be going to her, no, they'll tell /me/ how
sorry they are for my loss. At the time, he wasn't even mine to lose.. Yes, I'll be crying but Carole, she'll be
sobbing. Her son, our quarterback, my first true love, is gone. She can't even read, or rather sing, her eulogy,
Blaine will be singing it for her.
Blaine was really struck by the news. He cried. Then he made sure we all were okay. He even held Carole as
she cried, telling her how sorry he was, saying that none of this should have happened to her or Finn. That's
why I like him. He understands.
He came into Finn's room the other day. I was writing.
"How are you holding up there, Rachel?"
"Okay, I guess. At least you aren't treating me like a grieving widow."
He chuckled. I smiled. His voice sounds less... lively.
"Well, I know you don't want to be treated like that."
"Thank you."
"It's just how I am. How's the... eulogy coming along?"
"I don't know. Good, I guess. Have you mesmerized the song?"
"For Carole's? Yeah. I'm not going to lie, I cried while listening and singing it."
"Can I hear it?"
"Can I hear your eulogy?"
"Tomorrow."
"There's your answer."
I smiled. "Okay."
"Actually I came here because Kurt has something for you."
"Oh? And here I thought you came to visit me. What is it?"
"I can't tell you. It's a surprise."
"Fine." We go to Kurt's old room. He's sitting with his legs crossed on the bed, holding something black.
"What's that?" He smiled that evil grin I've come to love.
"It's for you."
"No! I thought you bought me here to give something to Blaine."
He didn't reply and held out his arms. It was a gorgeous black dress. "It's beautiful"
"I was planning to give it to you on your birthday, but I think you need something nice now."
I held it and looked at him. "Thank you. I'll wear it tomorrow."
"And you'll look beautiful in it."
I thanked and hugged him before going back to Finn's room. I need to finish this eulogy. Even if it means it's
that last time I can see Finn. I grab my laptop from my bag. I still get Wi-Fi here. Before I finish the eulogy, I
type in the song that Carole wants Blaine to sing for the... funeral. It was originally going to be a speech but
Carole thought she can say more with the song. Ed Sheeran has such a way with words. I wonder why we've
never covered him in Glee. I cry while listening to the song. It's the perfect song. I understand why she chose
it. I finish the eulogy and take a shower. Tomorrow's going to be a long day. Everybody's coming back for this.
The whole family, old and new, are coming back to see him. Only Carole (Blaine), Noah, and I are going to do
our eulogy. Hopefully, I don't break down in front of everybody tomorrow.
The Next Day
I curl my hair, wear the black dress Kurt gave me, and put on my best shoes. I go last for reading my eulogy.
First, Noah, then it's Carole (Blaine). We get to the church first. There he is. I want, no, I need to go to him and
Kurt must have sensed that because he held me and didn't let me go. "Please! Kurt, I have to!"
"Rachel! Stop!"
I calm down and cry some more. Finn's pallbearers are Burt, Kurt, Blaine, Mr. Shue, Mike, and Noah. It took us
a while to convince him but we finally got Noah to carry him out. He reading his eulogy now.
What can I say about Finn Hudson? He was my best bud and the best guy ever. He was always... so inspiring. If
he knew we were gonna lose a competition, he made sure we had fun doing it. He was always there when we
needed him. He really was the team leader... I knew he had a problem. And I didn't bother to check up on him.
He asked for help but I ignored him. I should have been there for him.. Look at what happened because I
wasn't. But I know he would tell me not to beat myself up because that's just how he was. Finn Hudson was
the best man to ever live in all miss him but he's in a better place now. A place where they can help
him way better than I ever did. I love you, buddy.
That was sweet. I can see he's trying not to cry. There's an empty space next to me. I keep imagining Finn's
there. He doesn't say anything, he just watches with his cute little smile. Blaine going up.
"Hello everyone! Um... this is Carole's eulogy/song. She wanted me to sing it so here it is..."
I sing this song in memory of
The wayward smile
The boy we won't forget
The soul you took away from us
The river flows
The tears that we wept
Missing you
Is all that needs to be said
More than blue
The words inside my head
And I know
That you're
Gone.
And I know
That you're
Gone.
The cheeky smile of jokes and laughs
The memories
Of times we crossed the line
The stepping stones across my mind
Washed away
We all now feel so blind
Missing you
Is all that needs to be said
More than blue
The words inside my head
And I know
That you're
Gone.
And I know
That you're
Gone.
And I know
That you're
Gone.
But I now
let you
go
There's part one. I'll post part two tomorrow. I have a very late birthday party of mine to attend to. Just be prepared for Rachel's eulogy. The song I used for Carole's eulogy is 'In Memory' By Ed Sheeran. I thought the song was appropriate but now I cry every time I hear it. Anyway, I hope you enjoy the chapter.