Chapter 20
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I woke up in a hospital bed. Memories came flooding back to me as of what happened. When I woke Belinda was standing at the end of my bed talking to a doctor and a cop there in my room.

I wince as my rib cage pains me a little. I glance over to the other side of me to find Bobby was just fine. He was resting in bed sleeping next to me. I sigh feeling better already.

"Hey she is awake! Ana!" exclaims a worried Belinda as she rushes over to me.

"The cops are here to take our official statement against that slime ball" Bobby yawns as he wakes on the other side of me.

"Are you up for a statement miss? If not, we can check back in with you" the officer asks me.

I shake my head.

"No, now is a good time. I want Rocky to stay behind bars. He needs help" I tell them. They listen to my story as Bobby and I give the statement pressing charges against Rocky.

"Glad you pressed charges. He will be going behind bars for at least twenty years" sighs Belinda smiling at me.

"I am glad to. He hurt to many people. Rocky need help himself. Maybe one day he will be a better person" I say hopefully. "He was not right for my life"

"I am sorry for pushing you to be with Jordan. It was just he was so good for you. Getting you out of your shell. I loved seeing how happy he made you. I mean if you are not ready for that kind of commitment yet I understand. I am sorry" she says apologizing to me. "I do think Jordan really loved you"

"Thanks, I was feeling insecure. I was scared. Truthfully..." I go to ramble on about my true feelings to her about Jordan when we hear a commotion outside of my room.

A large crowd had gathered. Why I was not sure. Excitement filled the place. A nurse comes into check on me with a big old grin on her face. She looked rather star struck.

"Excuse me what is all the commotion going on out there?" questions Belinda to the nurse.

"Oh, you will not believe me if I told you. But I am not supposed to tell anyone. Oh well, I never could keep a secret! Jordan Knight a New Kids On The Block member is here looking for a patient!" exclaims the nurse. Her name tag read Jenni.

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I gasp at the same time Belinda did.

"Belinda how does Jordan know what happened? How did he know how to find me?" I demand to her. She smiles sheepishly.

"I am sorry! The poor guy was begging me to talk to you! When he found out what happened he flew all the way in a helicopter just to get here! I mean come on! This is the most romantic thing ever! I am not trying to push you. I am not. But Jordan loves you! I think deep down you love him to. Give him a chance" she begs me.

I sigh as I close my eyes. I was not expecting to see Jordan here.

"You know Mr. Knight?" the nurse asks me. I nod.

"We dated" I tell her.

"You are so lucky" she rambles on. "He is here to see you?" she asks me as her eyes grow wide.

"I guess he is" I sigh.

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Just as I say that a guard opens the door, we hear a crowd cheering out there. Jordan lets himself in. Shutting the door behind him. My eyes grow wide. I had not seen him in nearly a month now. He had grown a little bit of facial hair. His own hair was longer. He had dark circles under his eyes. He looked at me sadly as he came in.

"I will give you two a chance to chat" Belinda says as she closes Bobby's side of the curtain. Then she and Jenni leave the room together. Jordan makes his way over to my bedside.

"Hey, I heard what happened. Belinda told me" Jordan says softly as he sits in a chair next to me.

"I figured she had" I sigh.

"I could not stay away. I was so worried when she called and told me" he says to me softly. I feel tears water in my eyes hearing his voice again. I sure had missed him.

"Why did you break up with me? I thought things were going well with us?" he asks to know. My heart hammers in my chest. I could not find my words to tell him a thing.

"Can you at least give me a reason why? Some kind of closure?" he begs me again.

"Jordan..."I begin to say as tears cloud my sight.

"I miss you" he whispers softly. I finally allow our eyes to meet. Sadness shows in the reflection of his gaze. The same way I felt inside right now.

"I miss you to" I admit.

"Why did you break things off?" he asks me.

"It was a lot of things. Not really just about you. I was scared. You were gone a lot. Then Nadine" I begin to say.

"Nadine grabbed my phone she posted that post. I deleted it if you had saw it but you blocked me on Instagram. Nadine has not been allowed near me. I got a protection order on her. She has no self-control" he grumbles.

"I did not know" I say softly.

"Look baby, I am sorry if even for a second you felt a shred of doubt about us. That is never what I wanted between us. I never felt that. Not until you left me. Kicked me out of your life. That hurt like hell. I love you. I never stopped loving you even if you don't return my love, well you own my heart. I guess there is nothing more I can do about it. I just wanted to make sure you are alright. I will give my statement against Rocky to anything to help you out. I won't bother you. I wanted to bring closure in my life. But this will never do it. I guess because I want you in my life. Not even money or fame can keep you here by me, if it could I would have you huh?" he rambles on as he goes to stand up.

He touches my cheek gently with his hand. Gazes into my eyes.

"I love you" he whispers softly. He leans in kissing me. Our lips meet. It had been so long. My lips remember each sweet feeling his lips leave with me. My lower lip trembles after the kiss is over with. He smiles at me sadly. "Good bye" he says softly.

He goes to leave.

My heart hammers in my chest. I did not want him to leave!

"Jordan!" I call out to him.

The crowd was to loud. He nearly did not hear me.

"JORDAN!" I yell.

He turns around to face me.

"Please come back" I beg.

He shuts the door making his way to my side.

"What is it?" he asks softly.

"I still love you. I always have. I am sorry for pushing you away when I was scared" I admit at last.

"Babe it is normal to be scared. I am scared to. I want you. Do you still want to be with me?" he asks me. He gazes at me hopefully.

"I do" I admit. He grins he leans in kissing me tenderly.

"I love you Ana" he says softly after the kiss.

"I love you to" I vow. "I always have loved you Jordan Knight"