Author's Note
Hey everyone by the end of this chapter you might - I mean, you will hate me. I'm very sorry but I wanted Monica and Chandler to have a strong relationship and I felt that the last three chapters were rushed. I wanted to show that they had love that was more than just sex.
I know I maybe should've thought about writing two chapters before the first one I published, but I honestly don't know what I thought was going to happen with it. I was thinking about making it a one shot but I decided to continue from all the positive feed back :) Thank you for all the positive reviews!
The last chapter had a ton of smut, which I hope will make up for the next chapters in this fanfic. I would like to add, if you enjoy this fanfic i would be great if you can probably check out one of my newest Mondler Fanfic,"The Secret Admirer." Rated T :)
I also changed the summary of this fanfic a little bit, so that it would seem a lot more interesting then the summary before and so it fits with the plans I have for the future.
BTW you might of noticed, I left the previous chapter's name empty, I had no clue what to call it. It would be super great if you can leave your suggestions in the reviews! Thanks :)
I'm sorry for rambling on, but I hope you think this chapter is good because you'll see why it can't be great XD
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"My parents want to take me and Monica to Disney World." Ross started.
"Oh that nice so why are you so depressed?"
"We have one extra ticket..." Chandler's face lit up.
"...But Monica and I have to choose between you and Rachel."
Chapter 4 - All Because A Crush
"Oh, so I guess me or Rachel aren't coming then." Chandler replied as he bit his lower lip, saddened. He didn't mind that he wouldn't be able to go to Disney World, it bothered him that he wouldn't get to be with Monica.
"No, dude, Monica's going to obviously choose you." Ross said, somewhat still depressingly.
Chandler swallowed hard."...W-Why is t-that?" he asked timidly. 'Does Ross know? Does Ross know?' chanted through his head for a few moments until he finally responded.
"Well, uh, the other day I over heard Monica on the phone. Her and Rachel had a big fight."
Chandler slowly calmed down when he recognized Ross's reasoning had nothing to do with him and Monica's secret relationship.
"Why?" Chandler wondered. At school, Chandler always saw Monica with Rachel, they were inseparable.
"Well you know that guy Lincoln Miller?" Chandler nodded. He talked to the guy a few times, he wasn't very popular but had some good looks.
"Apparently Monica had a huge crush on him and just two days ago, Rachel hooked up with him." Ross said, jealousy present in his voice.
"What?!" Chandler was shocked. Two days ago was the day Monica asked him to come into her bedroom. "She used me?" He thought. Chandler was so hurt that he almost could actually feel his heart crack.
"How stupid of me to think she actually loved me."
Chandler felt tears fill his eyes, and he immediately tilted his head down before Ross can notice. No one ever seen Chandler cry before, and he wanted to keep it that way. He quickly wiped the few tears that slipped away and looked over to Monica who was occupied by her Walkman.
"Why would she love you, you idiot. She's too beautiful to love someone like you."
Just before Chandler could make an excuse to leave, Jack and Judy came into the kitchen and took a seat in front of him and Monica. She took off her headphones noticing the presence of her parents.
"So kids, we have some good news for all of you." Jack said, pleased."We're going to DisneyWorld!"
Excitement was present in Monica's urgent smile and eyes while both Ross and Chandler were in the corner sulking.
"Yay..." Ross said weakly, with no excitement what so ever.
Chandler stayed quiet, trying his best to not un-expectantly unleash another tear. He never cried when his parents divorced, why was he crying over this?
"We have an extra ticket that we would love to give to you Chandler." Judy said, with a smile."Unless that's not okay with you Monica."
"No, that's great!" Monica said, a little too eagerly drawing suspicious attention from everyone."...I-I mean, yeah, I guess that will be okay.." She began, sadly."..Rachel and me had a fight the other day so when she hears about this she will know how mad I am at her."
'So it was true.' Chandler shifted in his seat un-comfortably.
"Mr. and Mrs. Geller thank you for the offer, but I can't go." Chandler started. He got up, and Monica looked at him in confusion."My mother just finished her book tour, and I wanted to spend some time with her."
"Yes!" Ross cheered loudly, quickly quieting down after he realized he exclaimed that aloud.
Monica, Jack and Judy all glared at Ross.
"Oh, that's such a shame dear, maybe next time you can come." Judy said.
"Yeah, maybe." Chandler responded, a little edgy."I going to get my stuff from upstairs."
Monica's worried eyes followed him as he made his way out the kitchen.
She didn't want to make her family more suspicious then before, making a extremely lame excuse to leave the room.
"Yeah, and I'm gonna make sure he doesn't steal anything." She said, running after him a second later, not bothering to wait for any approval from her parents.
She ran up the stairs into her bedroom where she saw Chandler angrily shove his clothes into a duffle bag.
"Chandler?" Monica spoke, slowly creeping into her bedroom.
There was pure silence, just the sound of plastic rustling loudly chandler continued to place his clothes and other things into the duffle bag, a little rougher then before.
He heard her footsteps come closer behind him, but he didn't turn around still ignoring Monica's presence.
"Why didn't you tell me about your mother coming back in town?" She was now beside him yet Chandler didn't dare make any eye contact with her.
There was another set of silence, Chandler just looking down at the pink bed sheet on Monica's bed.
"Chandler, what's wrong?" Monica asked, touching his cheek.
Monica tried to get a glimpse of his face, un-successful when Chandler immediately jerked his face away.
"Are you mad at me?" She asked, worried. Monica had no idea why Chandler would be mad at her, but she knew it wouldn't hurt asking.
A few seconds later Chandler finally spoke up.
"You used me." Pure hurt, and sadness was presence in his voice.
"What do you mean?" Monica replied worried, confused, and saddened all at the same time.
Chandler didn't respond, going back to ignoring her existence. He turned around almost exiting the room, until Monica took a step in front of the door stopping him.
"Monica, move." Chandler said grudgingly.
"No." She replied stubbornly."Not until you tell me what I did to use you. I'm not going to let you leave me like this Chandler, you mean so much to me. I love you."
"Stop lying I know about your crush on Lincoln Miller, that was reason to your fight with Rachel the other day and you used me because you were heart-broken!" Chandler shouted.
"Who told you that?!" Monica asked, a tear sliding down her cheek."...It's not true, Chandler."
"Stop your lying Monica, just stop it!" Chandler was almost in tears now himself, completely shattered.
"I'm not lying!" Monica raised her voice."That story is not true, I don't love anyone but you Chandler, I always have! Why don't you believe me?"
Chandler shoved Monica against her bedroom door and kissed her hard, gripping her waist. Monica gasped before shutting her eyes and throwing her arms around his neck, her hands running through the back of his hair. Chandler slowly pulled away, watching as Monica's green eyes fluttered open.
"That might be our last kiss but I hope you don't lie about forgetting it."
Chandler reached for the door knob and opened the door not even bothering to look back, knowing it would just hurt him more. Watching her fake tears, was already enough to cause him real ones.
Chandler strapped his Adidas duffle bag around his shoulder and jogged down the stairs. When he reached the bottom, he paused and felt his pocket, gald a small box of cigarettes he bought a week ago was still in there.
Chandler quickly walked by the kitchen, hoping not to be seen any of the Geller's as he mysteriously left the home. Yet today his hopes were just way to high.
"Dude, you're leaving already?" Ross said, coming out the kitchen behind him."And without a goodbye?"
Chandler paused in his footsteps, and shut his eyes close in annoyance, before quickly opening them and turning around to face Ross.
"Yeah, um, sorry man, I just wanted to get home really quickly." Chandler lied, staring at his shoes as he shuffled his feet."I never saw my mother in like 5 months you know."
"Yeah I know..." Ross began."..But do you know where Monica is, I really need to talk to her."
Chandler clenched his teeth. He couldn't believe just simply hearing her name could make him distressed.
"I don't know, I think she's in her room." Chandler with a
"Oh, okay thanks, see you later Chandler."
"Bye Ross." Chandler made his way to the door, so desperate to leave he didn't realize Ross's mischief smirk through the glass...
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Chandler leaned back on a brick wall, inside a dark alley. He pulled out his cigarette pack from his pocket, and opened it.
"Fuck!" He cursed, angrily.
The cigarette pack was empty, just some ashes at the bottom of the box. Chandler violently threw the empty cigarette box at the wall in front of him, the box completely crushed when it fell onto the cement ground. The only possible thing that could've give him some relief right now, he managed to finish in less then a week.
Chandler didn't remember smoking more then one or two, then again he remembered that he was usually in another world whenever he would place the cigar to his lips.
Chandler slid down the wall, placing his hands over his face as he brought his knees up. He shut his eyes and sat on the cold, cement ground as all the bad memories, not just the dilemma that happened between him and Monica, started to slowly fill his mind.
Yet, luckily, the memories immediately vanished when he heard loud incoherent yelling nearby. It sounded like someone calling for their pet, the voice slowly fading away.
Chandler shrugged off the yelling as a probably typical act in the neighbourhood since he lived in an upper-class area quite far from the Geller's, he wasn't familiar with the area.
Chandler never bragged about living in a rich mansion all his life, he wasn't the type of person to do that and didn't usually wear name brand clothing, making him seem as a normal middle class individual. However, a few months ago Chandler used his wealthiness as an advantage.
He felt his pocket again and smiled for the first time in which felt like ages as he pulled out his fake ID that was hidden behind his cigarette pack before.
Roland Chang
Date of Birth: March 16, 1963
Chandler never used his Fake ID since last week, the first time he "legally" bought cigarettes.
Chandler got up on his feet and walked as casually as he could to the front of the plaza, and into a convenience store he noticed it before he entered the alley.
Before he could enter, an old guy was standing out in front of the doors, a whole ton of alcohol in his presence.
Chandler quickly walked by him and was relieved when he finally made it into the store, he felt a lot safer in there then in the outside world of Manhattan. He walked up to the counter and for the first time, got away with buying cigarettes without the need of ID.
Chandler happily walked out the store, feeling as if he just turned into a man. Not the little boy that smokes because of their parents divorce or a heart-break from their best friend's sister, but just because he wanted to.
"Hey Monica."
Monica wiped her tears, and catch her breath before facing Ross.
"Hi." She replied, her voice a little higher than usual. She was sitting on her bed, hiding her tissues underneath the covers.
"Did you see Chandler before he left? He looked pretty mad about something." Ross said, taking a seat at the end of her bed.
The room went silent, Monica not daring to answer. Ross looked at her intensely before noticing the tears in her eyes.
"Wait- Mon, were you crying?" He asked, concerned.
"...N-No.." Her lip quivered.
"Yes you were." Ross stated with a hint of regret in his voice.
Monica un intentionally let a tear slip from her eye, proving to Ross he was right.
Ross hugged her tightly, resting her head on his shoulder as she began to let the tears flow once again.
"...I-I'm sorry Monica.."
Monica pulled back from his embrace, to look at him."..F-For what?.."
"...I didn't know you and Chandler were that serious.." He said, quietly.
"W-What do you mean..you knew about us?!" Monica asked, shocked. She never re-called any time when Ross almost walked in on them until-
"You remember when I walked into the kitchen to grab my wallet? I saw you two." Ross looked down at his lap."I-I was still mad at you for throwing out one of my limited addition spotted dinosaur figures-"
"I thought it was a dog." Monica said, questionably.
"It was a dinosaur." Ross replied defensively, quickly dropping the tone before continuing.
"Um, anyways, I was also mad at Chandler for getting Fake ID's with Joey a few months ago...I wanted to get back at both of you somehow and when I saw you two almost kiss, I knew you guys had feelings for each other but I didn't know it was so serious. So earlier I thought I could make Chandler jealous by telling him that you had a huge crush on another guy-"
"What?!" Monica exclaimed, getting up from her bed."You're the one that told him that fake story?! That I have a crush on some guy named Lincoln Miller?!"
Ross stayed quiet.
"I can't believe that you would do this to me Ross, all because of a stupid fake figure of some dog! I love Chandler, and now he hates me because of you!"
"First of all, it's a dinosaur and second...you love Chandler?" Ross asked, genuinely surprised.
"Yeah, I do love him what do you think 'serious' means Ross?!"
"W-Wow, my best friend and my sister.." He said, staring off to the side.
"I won't be your sister any longer if you don't get Chandler and explain this to him!" Monica threatened, pointing her finger at Ross.
"Mon, I swear I will fix this." He reassured.
"Oh, you better.."
Ross walked over to Monica, putting his hand on her arm."I'm really sorry, I shouldn't have done that to you and Chandler, I feel terrible."
"..D-Don't, it's okay I guess, I know you're intention was to just get back at us." Monica responded, crossing her arms over one another.
Ross hugged Monica again, and was relieved when she hugged him back.
"I'm going to get Chandler and going to explain everything to him before I bring him back here." Ross promised.
"No, I'm coming with you." Monica said as she pulled on her blue sweater.
"Are you sure you want to come because maybe-"
"I'm sure," Monica replied, a little annoyed."Now comm'on let's go!"
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Longest chapter everyone! I hope you guys weren't bummed out, I explained why I wrote this chapter in the Author's Note, but honestly I think it made sense to throw this chapter in here so that it can show Monica and Chandler have more than just a sexual relationship that's actually based off of love.