My feet touched down quietly on the CatCo rooftop. On the other side of the roof, I saw Barry dressed as the Flash. I made my way over to him. His silhouette was cast from the rising sun. The sky held an orange and pink hue. I crossed my arms and continued to look at him. "In all my years working here, I never thought about watching the sun rise. I have it admit, it's a great view." Barry jumped up at my voice and turned around. His eyes widened as they landed on me. He pulled off the mask sluggishly.

"K-Kara?" He stuttered. I smiled shyly at him. He tentatively walked over to me with his hand outstretched. His palm met my cheek and I leaned into his touch. Tears rushed down his face as he smiled at me. Suddenly, I was wrapped in his arms and held onto me tightly. He leaned down and kissed me.

He held onto me as if I were smoke, as if I would disappear at the first chance I got. The kiss was passionate, but gentle. Something that knew we both missed. We pulled apart and took shaky, shallow breaths. Barry stared into my eyes and I could see love and happiness deep within them. We leaned in again and rested our foreheads together. I close my eyes and take a deep breath. "Kara." He whispered slowly, as if he was savoring the word. He rested his hands on my hips.

"I love you, Barry."

"I love you. God, I love you Kara."

He laughed and I smiled. He pulled me in and I rested my head on his chest. "I thought that I would never see you again. The moment I realized that you were gone, it felt like my world crumbled." He stated. I pulled away. "Yeah, I heard from the others. Barry, you need to see your friends. I talked to them, and they miss you. I don't think that they are mad. But they miss you, the happy, silly Barry Allen. Go see them." He held my hand. "But I just got you back."

"And I will still be on this Earth when you get back. Go see them. I'll be at the DEO."

He nodded and ran down the side of the building. I flew back to the DEO. There, I found Kal waiting for me. "Kara." He smiled at me. "Hey Kal." I greeted. He walked over to me and gave me a hug. "I missed you, so much. I thought that I was the last from the House of El." I shook my head. "It takes a lot more to get rid of me, Kal. You know that."

"What happened over there? In the other universe."

I went silent and looked down. Something glimmered on his left hand. "I don't really want to talk about it. But it seems like something happened here while I was gone." I stated. He looked at me quizzically. "Huh?"

I pointed down to his hand. He laughed nervously. "Oh, yeah. Lois and I got married almost two years ago." Kal looked to me with concern. "Kara, I really wanted you to be there, we all did, trust me. I just-"

"No, that's great Kal. I'm happy for you. You and Lois. You two are great together." I smiled softly at him. He looked down at the ring again. "It's a beautiful ring." I stated. He nodded. "You should see Ma-" He stopped short. "Who's?" I asked. I heard his heart rate pick up. "Nothing." He stated softly. "Kal, I know something's up. Who's ring?" I asked again, more sternly. He sighed. "Alex and Maggie's. They're beautiful."

My throat closed and my heart dropped. "A-Alex and Maggie got married?" I asked. How did I not notice? "Kal, did they get married?" I repeated. He nodded his head. "Don't be mad, Kara."

I clenched my jaw and closed my eyes for a brief second. I took a breath and opened my eyes. "I'm not mad. I'm happy they got married." I turned and walked away from Kal. He called after me, but I ignored him. I went down to the training room. It was the only place that was quiet enough for my chaotic thoughts. I sat in the middle of the room, on the ground, and my legs crossed. Kal got married, Alex got married. I missed my own family's weddings. Not just one, but two. What else did I miss?

I stood up and walked over to the computer and decided to look up what I've missed since I was gone. Even before I got onto the internet, I noticed something strange. The date was completely wrong. It said that it was 2017. No way, I was gone for 5 years, at least. I counted every day that I was gone. I remember seeing the dates clearly on the travel logs from the alien ships and inside the alien holding facilities. They always read 2019. My stomach lurched. I backed away from the computer and locked the room.

I sat down in the corner of the room with my back resting on the corner of the wall. My world felt like it was crashing down around me. I heard a thumping sound and at first I thought it was my heart. It happened again and I realized that it was on the door. "Kara, let me in." I heard Alex state. I closed my eyes and covered my ears, trying to drown her out. "Please Kara. I never wanted to leave you in the past. I thought about you every day. I always thought that you survived somehow, but I couldn't live in the past. I always hoped that you would return one day."

She paused for a second. "I don't know how you are feeling right now, or what is going on in your head. But I am here for you now. And I'll tell you everything that you want to know. Just please, open this door. Talk to me. Please Kara. Don't shut me out."

I stood up shakily and walked over to the door. My hand hovered over the lock system. "Please Kara." Her voice was trembling. I sighed and put my hand down on the scanner. The door slid open and Alex was standing there with tears in her eyes. "Kara." She went for a hug, but I backed away. She furrowed her eyebrows. "What year is it?"

"Kara-"

"What year is it!"

She sighed. "2017." I bit my lip. Alex stepped forward. "Rao." I whimpered. "Kara, please talk to me." I pushed past her. "I need space." I ran down the halls and bumped into someone. I looked up to see Jeremiah. He smiled down at me before it turned into a frown. "Kara? Are you okay?" He held my face in his hands. I looked away from his dark eyes. "Let me go, Jeremiah."

I tried to pull away from his reach. He looked down at me curiously. I heard another pair of footsteps. "Kara? Kara!" I heard Alex call. There was another pair of footsteps. "Kara, we need to take you to debrief." J'onn ordered. I nodded numbly and looked briefly at Alex's distraught face as we walked to the interrogation room.

I was sat down on the cold chair as J'onn, Lucy, and Alex sat with me. "Kara, we need to know what happened on the other Earth, and what happened to that Earth."

"As soon as we passed through the portal, I thought that I was gone. It felt like I hit a brick wall. I couldn't breathe. My powers were drained. Shade beat the living hell out of me. He didn't hold back as he attacked. I couldn't do anything accept my death by him. Something happened and Shade disappeared. As I laid there, I could feel myself bleeding out. The heat pounded down on my skin intensely. My body wanted to heal itself, I know it did. It was excruciating just waiting there, ready to die. I was losing too much blood and I thought that it was the end. I blacked out shortly after that."

I paused and they stared at me in anticipation. "I woke up some time later in a small room. A few seconds later, Maya walked into the room. At the time, I didn't know who she was. The last time that I saw her was a day before Krypton exploded. She looked different and the same. She took me in. I taught her how to fight, she taught me how to survive on Terram Two."

"What was Terram Two like?"

"It is somewhere that I never want to return to ever again. There was no life there. The air smelled of burned flesh and smoke hung densely in the air. The sun beat down harshly. The cities were standing like skeletons of the past, completely empty. Any water that was still there, stood like semi-stagnant pools of decay. There were no waves, no wind. There was nothing in the sky. It was desolate; stale. Aliens roamed freely on Terram Two, and they tracked us down like animals. At times, we thought that we wouldn't survive. Maya and I wouldn't let them win, we would fight those bastards to the end."

"Kara!" Alex looked at me with shock. "What? They hunted us down, captured us, tortured us. They deserved it." I stated plainly.

Alex, J'onn, and Lucy exchanged looks. "Don't look at each other like that. There was nothing else for us to do. Did you want us to wait for you?" I scoffed. "Oh, wait, you did nothing. You left me for dead. Did you even think I survived? How long until you gave up?" I stood up, but Alex grabbed my arm.

I pulled away from her grip. "No, don't you dare pull that damn concerned card! I'm right. You know that I am. I could tell you what happened to me over those 5 years all damn day and you still wouldn't get it." My face was rigid, jaw clamped tight, and teeth were grinding. "I need to get out of here." Before I do something that I'll regret.

I shoved the chair backward and it crashed loudly into the wall. I opened the door and slammed it closed as I walked out. As I passed by the DEO agents, they looked at me in worry and fear. I didn't notice it; however, tears were blurring my eyes. I made my way out of the DEO as fast as I could without causing more of a scene. I jumped into the sky and flew to my old apartment. I landed in and I noticed that it was kept well. There was no dust collecting, it was as clean as it could be. It looked like no one ever left it alone, even for a day.

I was trembling as I made it to my room. Tears rushed down my face as I leaned against the wall and sunk down to the floor. Why couldn't I ever have a normal life? Why couldn't I just have an easy life? I rested my head on my arms which were supported by my knees and I fell asleep in the corner of the room.

I was woken up by someone knocking heavily on my door. My body was stiff as I stood up. In my sleepy haze, I started to walk over to the door instead of using my x-ray vision. The thought of Alex being at the door ran through my mind as I opened the door. My heart froze until my eyes landed on Maggie. She breathed a sigh of relief and smiled solemnly. "Hey, Little Danvers. Can I come in?" She asked softly. I stared at her for a second. Her dark brown eyes held regret and guilt. I nodded and moved aside.

She walked in and awkwardly stood in the middle of my apartment. "Alex told me what happened. Are you okay?" I stayed unresponsive. She took a step to me. "Kara?" I clenched my hands and she noticed. My stomach was turning and I could feel myself shaking. I could see that Maggie wanted to comfort me, but was unsure if it was a safe thing to do. I bit my lip and tried not to let tears sting my eyes.

I took quick short breaths as my heart pounded. "Take deep breaths, Kara." Tears began to form, but I blinked them away. "I-I want to go home." I whimpered. Maggie's shoulders dropped. She took another unsure step to me. "You are home, Kara. You're here. You're home. In National City. With us." She stated nervously.

I shook my head frantically. "No! It isn't!" I screamed. I backed up until my back hit the wall. My heart was beating out of my chest even more now. "I've lost so much! I've lost my family! My world! My life! I'm not supposed to even be alive! Not Kara Danvers, not Supergirl. And Kara Zor-El should've died on Krypton all those years ago." I fell to the ground. Maggie's eyes were wide with sorrow.

The apartment fell into silence and Maggie carefully walked over to me. She crouched by my side. She placed one hand on my shoulder, and the other one on my chin. She pulled my head up to look in her eyes.

"Kara, we were never going to forget you. We never meant to leave you in the past." She stated. I studied her brown eyes and I could tell that she grew uncomfortable under my silent gaze.

"You haven't lost anything. We are all still here for you. We all love and missed you. It killed everyone when we thought you were gone. Now you are here, and everything will be okay."

She paused for a while and I could hear her heartbeat pick up. "Please don't blame Alex for marrying me without you being there. If anything, I pushed her. So, if you are going to be mad, be mad at me. If you are going to hate anyone, hate me. Please. I'll understand it if you do. I accept full responsibility of your anger and hatred. Your sister was so distraught at the idea of you not being there with us. She looked for signs from you; a sign that you were still out there and alive, every day." I could see her eyes shimmering with tears. "Goddamn it! Please Kara. Say something." She cried.

Tears rushed down her cheek. I could see that she was shaking with sadness. I wrapped my arms around her and she broke down into my shoulder. She buried her head in my neck as she cried. I rubbed small circles on her back until she stopped crying. I pulled her away from me and looked into her red and puffy eyes. "Maggie," I breathed. "I could never be mad at you. You were there for my sister when I couldn't be. You made her happy when I couldn't."

I tried to give her a reassuring smile. "I remember when she first talked about you. How her personality lit up as she talked about this Detective Sawyer. So, no. I won't be mad at you. I could never be mad at my sister in law." I stated and kissed her forehead.

Maggie smiled from ear to ear and pulled me into a tight hug. "Thank you, Kara. You have no clue how much that means to me." She paused and the smile faded. "You need to talk with them, Kara. They are all worried about you after you stormed out of the debriefing." I met her eyes and nodded. "Yeah, I guess you're right." I stood up and offered my hand to Maggie. She took and I pulled her up. "Are you still afraid of heights?" She nodded. "Deathly." I scooped her up. "Whoa, no way! I'm not flying again!"

"Don't worry, I'm running."

"Huh?"

"Barry isn't the only one with super speed. Hold on tight." I stated before speeding off to the DEO. I dropped off Maggie in the control room. She grabbed onto the wall and steadied herself. "Damn Kara, you're fast. Ugh, I'm going to be sick." I nonchalantly handed her a trash can. She snatched it from my hands and retched into the can.

J'onn came out from an office and his eyes landed on me. They held concern and sorrow. I walked over to him. "I'm ready to finish my debriefing." I stated. He shook his head. "There is no need to. Maya told us what happened." He placed his hand on my shoulder. "Kara, I truly am sorry for everything that has happened to you."

I shrugged and pushed off his hand. "It happened. There is no changing it." I stated emotionlessly. J'onn's shoulders dropped. "Why don't you go hit the showers? I bet you've been wanting to get clean." I nodded and walked off.

I went to the showers and quickly finished. I pulled on my clothes while trying to not look at the scars that littered my body. I pulled on black pants, a gray shirt, and black combat boots. As I tightened the laces on my shoe, I heard Alex's heartbeat pick up as she neared the bathroom.

I stood up and took in a deep breath while I closed my eyes. She entered the bathroom and I released my breath. I could feel her eyes on my back. She stood there silently.

I straightened my back slightly but I didn't look at her directly. Instead, I looked at her reflection in the mirror above the sink. I leaned on the rim of the sink. Her brown eyes searched for any sign to speak.

"Kara-" She started but I shook my head. She immediately stopped. "Alex, I am not mad at you. I am not mad at Maggie. I am not mad at anyone here. I am mad at myself. I am mad at Shade. For what he did to me. For what I allowed myself to do, or not do. If anything, you should be mad at me and my actions. You were right, I was stupid. I was reckless. But 5 years of anger, loneliness, and pain tends to change people."

I could see her lip trembling. "How could I be mad at you, Kara? You saved my life. You saved all the lives of National City. You were the superhero that we all needed." She stated. I took in a sharp breath and tightened my grip on the sink. "Not everyone. I didn't save everyone." I mumbled. "Yes, you did. So many people are alive because of you." I clenched my jaw and the sink snapped under my grip. I turned around quickly and let the pieces of the sink fall from my hands.

"No, so many people died on Barry's Earth due to my actions. I tried to save them. I tried. I tried to give them a better life here. I'm not even sure that it worked. But so many people died because of my actions. Maya almost died because of me. Wherever I go, death and pain follows." I stated.

Alex took a step forward. "What are you talking about?" She asked. "On Barry's Earth, there were people close to him that didn't deserve to be enslaved, tortured. So, Maya and I thought we found another way to get them here. It almost cost me her life. And I don't even know if they survived."

"Who?"

"Oliver and Thea Queen, Felicity Smoak, Barry's dad, Sara and Laurel Lance, Ray Palmer, and some others. Some of them were heroes. Like Green Arrow, Atom, Speedy, and White Canary. I couldn't let them suffer there."

"I'll get Winn and Cisco to see if they made it." She glanced down to the broken sink. "How did you break that? Those are made of reinforced steel." She stated with disbelief in her voice.

I looked down to the metal pieces scattered across the floor. "I-I don't know. It didn't even feel like I put much effort into that." I turned back to the sink and easily pulled off another chunk of metal. "What the hell?"

"Kara, come on. There are some tests we want to run."

Hey guys. I'm so so sorry for not posting lately. So to (hopefully) make up for it, double post. It's just that I had a hard time trying to decided how I wanted Kara to react in these two chapters. I felt like she should be upset and confused, and most importantly, in shock, especially what she went through, but I couldn't get exactly what I wanted written down. As I said before, I wrote pretty much all of this already. But as I went back to post it, I wasn't totally happy with it. I kept changing my ideas and I kept getting interrupted. But I feel pretty content with how they turned out. And it's later than I usually post, but I couldn't go another day without posting. I guess I'll see you guys in the next chapter. ~Raya Kor-El