"No." Alex stopped and turned around. "What?" She crossed her arms and her eyebrow was raised. "I said no, Alex. I'm not going to run your tests. At least not now." I stated. "Why? I thought-" I cut her off. "No, oh no. You don't get to think anything, Alex." I spat angrily before taking in a shaky breath.

"I need time. No, I need more than just time. I need space. I need to breathe. I need to figure out exactly what happened. Honestly, nothing is clear. I just remember feeling angry and terrified all the time. I was always looking over my shoulder, hoping that there wasn't an alien who was ready to rip apart my body. I was always looking out for Maya, protecting her, like I did on Krypton. Those are the only two things I remember. Everything else was a blur of blood and dirt." I tried to swallow the anger that was trying to surface itself again.

"I just got back here, after being on Terram Two for 5 years. I don't care that you all think it's been only three. I remember every damn day suffering there. And with none of my powers. I've encountered hundreds of bloodthirsty aliens out for me. I've had a few too many near death experiences. And I've been so close to giving up and letting Shade win." I confessed with humiliation.

I clenched my jaw and looked into her pathetically sad eyes. "So, excuse me if I don't want to be your little test subject as I try to understand what the hell was going through my mind when I thought death was the best option. It tore me apart, and still does, that I actually thought that death would be more comforting than the idea of you and the DEO coming to save me."

There was a silence between the two of us. "I need time to understand what is going on through my head, and what's happening to my body. And I definitely don't need a bunch of doctors and their jargon trying to guess or even understand the slightest bit what is happening to me. How can I expect to trust that when I can't even figure it out for myself?"

"Kara." Alex reached out to comfort me, but I backed away. "Don't touch me." I growled softly. She slowly retracted her hand and I saw aching in her eyes. "Family or not, Alex, there are things that I need to figure out on my own."

I walked past Alex and out of the DEO. As I walked through the DEO, all the agents watched me. I felt uneasy as I strode to the doors. Before I left, I gave one glance behind me to all the agents. They all broke out of their fascination with me and went back to work. I pushed off the ground and rocketed into the sky. I lost my breath as I first raced out of the United States' Airspace.

After a few minutes of flying, I expected to barely be reaching Southern China. I decided to land down and hopefully eat some pot stickers as I let my mind try to process what happened. I started lower down in the atmosphere and I expected to gently land on the ground like I've always had before, but the land mass zoomed by underneath me and I crashed in the water. I froze in confusion for a second under the waves before swimming back up to the surface.

I gasped for air. What the hell? I've never missed a landing. I looked behind me, and there seemed to be no land for miles. Especially not this bad. What did Shade do to me?

I studied the horizon in front of me and I saw a small island. I jumped back in the sky and raced off to it. I landed down on the spot I was aiming for, but not without making a huge crater in the sand. The beach trembled as I touched down and sand rained on me. I groaned as the sand stuck to me like glue. The tropical sun beat down on me. "This is definitely not anywhere near China."

I looked down to my hands and studied them intently. Why were my powers acting so crazy? I've never had any problems like this, not even when I first got to Earth. I know how to control them, I have for most of my life. It's not like I forgot to control them.

I pulled off my boots and shook off the large amount of sand. I sat down under a tree and sighed. How am I supposed to cope with this? I've done things on that Earth that I should have never done, no matter the circumstances. There was no way I could be a hero again, could there?

I shook my head. This is all past you, Kara. You survived. You need to push on. Your family, your friends, they all look up to you. There is no way that you should be doubting yourself. You need to be strong. They'll be waiting when you get back. You need to appear okay.

I gritted my teeth. "I don't want to appear okay, I want to be okay." I reminded myself.

I leaned back onto the tree trunk. How was I supposed to do that? There was no way for me to just walk up to someone and say, "Hey, I want to be okay, even after all this fucked up stuff happened to me. I'm super confused, angry, and I want revenge. Will you be there?"

I scoffed at myself. "Oh Rao. What am I supposed to do?" I looked down and saw a rock by my hip. I grabbed it, weighed it in my hand and threw it as hard as I could. There was a large crack in the direction that I threw the small rock. I stood up and followed the path of my throw. I made it to the side of the small mountain, where there was a large wall of solid rock.

Down the middle was a huge crack, probably big enough for me to walk through. As I neared the crack, I could see what caused the crack. It was me. I looked through the crack and I saw through the mountainside and to the ocean. I back up slowly. My heart started to race and my hands were shaking. I turned my attention to a dead tree in the distance. I focused on a branch for only a few seconds before the tree burst into huge flames. I ran to the tree in less than a second and used my freeze breath to extinguish the flames. The scorched trunk froze solid in a matter of seconds.

I swallowed thickly and took in a large breath. "It's okay Kara. You're just stronger now. You need to focus and learn to control it. It'll be fine." I told myself.

The next few weeks, I stayed on that little island, practicing landing and taking off without destroying the ground under me, along with my freeze breath, heat vision, super speed, and x ray vision.

I rose from the ground and looked down on the completely ruined island. Large portions were either burned, frozen, or broken.

I stared down on the island with hatred as I only maintained a little control of my new bounds. I raced back off to the outskirts of National City. I found a cheap sweatshirt in a small store. I pulled the hood over my head and decided to go to the alien dive bar. I sat in the corner booth and watched as aliens and metahumans slowly got more drunk. I sighed and looked down to my still full glass.

The glowing blue liquid tried to temp me to drink it, but I found no desire to. I pushed it away and closed my eyes. I leaned back listened to the chatter in the bar. Someone walked into the bar and I recognized their heartbeat. I opened my eyes and hunched over, hoping that they wouldn't see me. I scanned the bar, but I couldn't see who I knew.

I used my x ray vision and looked through the wall; they weren't outside. Someone cleared their throat and I looked next to my shoulder. Caitlin had two drinks in her hands and she gave me a small smile. "Can I sit?" She asked. I nodded.

Caitlin placed the drinks down. "I'm not much of a drinker." I declared. She smiled. "I know, neither am I. It's club soda." She took a quick sip.

"Thanks." I grabbed the glass. We sat in the booth quietly for a while. "How did you know I was here?" I asked after enough silence. A frown made its way onto her face as she stared at her empty glass. "Because I went through the same thing."

"What?"

She looked up to me. "After you sacrificed yourself, it hit all of us really hard. We had to tell the world about Supergirl. We had to tell Eliza and Jeremiah about you. It was a dark world for a while. Black banners with your crest hung in every city around the world." She looked back down to her glass and traced the lip of the glass with her finger.

"We all had a really tough time, but Barry- It changed him. He tried everything in his power to save you." I raised my eyebrow. "Save me? I was already gone. I thought you all thought I was dead."

She shook her head. "No, Barry and Alex wouldn't believe it. Barry did something. He-" She paused for a second. "He tried to go back in time to save you. He actually did, but he messed up everything else."

"What do you mean?"

She sighed. "Barry created another timeline. One where you were saved, but everything else was different. People were different."

"Like how?" Caitlin bit her lip. "Cisco was a millionaire, the DEO was run by Lillian Luthor, James was still in Metropolis, Barry wasn't the Flash, you made it to Earth safely, but Clark died on impact which made you never come out as Supergirl, Maggie was in a wheelchair, Joe and Iris weren't on talking terms." She listed.

"What about you? And Winn? Alex?"

She stopped tracing the lip of the glass and looked up to me with pale blue eyes. Wait, weren't they brown? "Your eyes-" I trailed off. "Alex, Winn, and I, we were villains. Winn followed in his dad's footsteps, Alex was trained by a man named Kenneth Bender, who was an assassin."

She took a shaky breath. "And I was a metahuman, named Killer Frost. We would constantly terrorize National City. It was terrible."

"What happened? Nothing seems different."

"Barry realized his mistake. He somehow went back in time again and stopped himself. Almost everything went back to normal, but some things have been changed. Joe and Iris still aren't much on talking terms, James still partially works in Metropolis, but as a crime scene photographer, and I'm a meta." She reached out and froze my half drank club soda. "And that's also where I think the other two years between here and the other Earth went." She added on as she placed down the glass.

I stared down at my drink in disbelief. "I know what you are going through. When Barry told us he changed the timeline, no one believed him. But I started to have powers. I was beyond terrified. I didn't want to become her. I didn't want to be Killer Frost. I tried suppressing my powers, denying what was happening to me, and bottling up my feelings." She bit her lip again and I could see tears in her eyes.

"My emotions controlled my powers, and bottling them up was the worst idea. I tried to isolate myself, so I wouldn't hurt anyone. But it only got worse."

A tear ran down her face. "I was angry all the time. I turned into her. I went on a rampage. I hurt hundreds of people here. The DEO, Barry, and Clark had to come after me. I finally came to and realized that I hurt so many people, but I was too late. That happened only because I thought it was better to handle it on my own. After months of being locked up at the DEO, I broke out. I ran away from National City. I tried to find myself, but it didn't work. I broke down after that and came back. Everyone helped me. Winn and Cisco especially."

"I thought that anger was an unacceptable emotion; I had denied and repressed it. They helped me realize that I could use the energy of that anger to be better. I've learned to be grateful for my anger."

"To me, anger seems like a positive response. Anger, unlike depression, is full of energy. Your pulse quickens, and you want to do something. When all that energy is directed positively, good things can come of it." She held her hand above the table. There was a cold gust of air before she moved her hand. Under it, was a small beautiful ice crystal. She grabbed my hand and held it tightly.

"Kara, you can be angry, upset, confused. It's natural, it's okay. I understand, I've been there. And I can tell you, it will get better. But you can't bottle it up, you can't isolate yourself. Your powers are going crazy, that's fine." I pulled away my hand slowly and glanced back down to the ice crystal.

"It's when anger goes unrecognized and unexpressed, it can become toxic, causing relationship problems and eventually escalating to rage. That's where Killer Frost came from." Caitlin sighed. "Sometimes, we have to do things we don't like to get the right results. When that happens, we often forget all the good we did." She rubbed my arm. "You've done so much good for this world, Kara. You don't need to be scared or afraid."

I bit my lip and looked away from her concerned face. "Cait, I-" I started, but she cut me off. "We may not ever exactly understand what you went through, no matter how hard we try, but we want you back. And no, we don't expect you to be Kara Danvers right away. It'll take time. We just want you back in our lives." She rubbed my hand comfortingly before standing up. "We won't rush you, but please, think about it." Caitlin walked away.

I watched as she walked out of the bar. I glanced down to the frozen cup. I grabbed it in my hand and studied it. As the ice started to melt in the cup and the condensation ran down my hand, something strange happened. Something in my mind, and my chest seemed to straighten out. Caitlin's words echoed in my mind and I didn't feel as lost. For the first time in a long time, hope rose inside my chest.

A few hours later, I flew over the DEO. I could see the crater I left the last time I was here. I hovered about 100 feet above it and closed my eyes. I sucked in a deep breath and tried to hone in my powers. A few seconds later, I landed down gently on the broken ground. Some agents saw me land and froze on the spot. I walked through the DEO and more agents watched me walk by.

I found J'onn in his office, working over some paperwork. I stood in his doorway for second before he looked up. "Kara? You're back."

He stood up and walked over to me. He went to give me a hug, but I hesitated before accepting it. "I just wanted to say I'll be back around soon."

He sensed my emotions, pulled away, and gave me an uneasy smile. "Okay, well we'll all be happy that you're back." I nodded. "Yeah, and thank you for sending Cait to me." He looked confused. "I didn't send her. No one knew that you were back." He explained. "You weren't tracking me?" He shook his head. "No, you needed space. I made sure that everyone at the DEO honored your wishes."

"Thank you J'onn."

He nodded. "Of course, Kara." I started to walk out, but I stopped. "Where is Alex?" I asked. "I believe she is in gun range 3." He stated and walked back to his desk.

I made my way to the gun range and I could hear bullets being fired nonstop. I watched from the doorway as Alex obliterated the target. Finally, she put down the M4 carbine and glanced over to me. Her eyes met mine and she immediately went back to her gun.

My heart dropped and I cautiously approached her. I could see that she was trying to reload the gun, but her hands were shaking so bad that it was difficult for her.

"Alex." I tried, but she still fumbled with the magazine.

"Alex." I tried again and placed my hand on her shoulder. She instantly shrugged off my hand and put her gun down. "What, Kara?" She asked hotly. "I wanted to talk with you." I stated. "Oh, I thought you made it clear the last time we talked. And if not then, how about when you disappeared for a few weeks, huh? How about that?" She spat. "I didn't mean-" She cut me off. "Mean what? Mean what exactly?" She barked. Alex picked up the gun and finally managed to get the magazine clipped back in place.

She opened fire rapidly and my ears rung. I shook my head as my super hearing didn't help with the pain. I clenched my jaw in anger and waited for her to empty the clip. After she did, she reached for the next magazine and ignored me. "Fine, that's how you want it." I walked away in a huff. I heard a second of hesitation in gunfire as Alex continued.

Phew! I wasn't lying to you when I said that this story would have a lot more angst and OOCness, was I? I wanted to include my own version of Flashpoint, but instead of Nora being saved, it was Kara. And I feel like if the Flash and Supergirl were continuously on the same Earth, Kara and Caitlin would be best friends, or even feeling more like sisters. I don't know, maybe it's just me thinking that.

I wanted to say thank you to everyone for the reviews, favorites, and follows of my story. You guys are great! And it means a lot. I also wanted to give a quick shout out to MMMMk for wanting me to elaborate a bit more on Kara's reaction of her return. Any ways, I'll see you all in the next chapter! ~Raya Kor-El