I shakily pulled myself out of the hazy darkness. Something stabbed the back of my throat. I gagged and tried to move, but my body was unresponsive. I cried out as my torso twisted unnaturally. I grunted and I could feel tears run down my face. I could hear people just outside the room. Finally, feeling rushed back into my hand.

I knocked something over and they ran into the room. They were on each side of me. "Relax Kara. It's okay. You're at the DEO."

The other person pulled the object in my throat.

I took in a slow, steady breath. "You're safe Kara." Everything was blurry. I blinked and I barely made out the forms of Derek and Dr. Hamilton. "'M a-live?" I questioned. "Yeah, Cisco and Winn were able to reach Superman with your comm. He broke in to the warehouse, grabbed you, and flew off to the Fortress." They spoke too quickly for me to understand right away. One of the two shined a light into my eyes. "Dilation normal and equal in both eyes." Derek reported. "Kara, can you see us?"

"Bl-urry." I answered slowly. "Blindness must have been due to the concussion and severe internal bleeding."

"For'ess?"

"Yeah, you were stabilized there. Apparently, Superman had it stocked for situations like this; with his blood, bandages, medications. He brought Batman and Lena Luthor there to work to create a regenerative liquid. It was the opposite of Kryptonite for you and Superman along with other components to help you heal as fast as possible. As soon as it was finished, he placed you in it, and you immediately started to heal. You were brought back here when he deemed you healthy enough to be monitored by us. We kept you sedated in a mini coma for a quicker recovery. We weened you off of the meds a few days ago to get you to start to wake up." Dr. Hamilton explained. Derek grabbed the stethoscope and placed it over my heart. My head spun with all her words. I felt dizzy and I closed my eyes. "Time?"

"A few weeks." I released a painful sigh. It wasn't another 5 months. "How are you feeling?"

"H-human." After a few minutes, they left the room. I tried to focus on anything across the room, but everything was still out of focus.

I cautiously chewed on the ice chips Dr. Hamilton gave me. Slowly, three people walked into the room. I was enveloped in a hug. I could hear their heartbeats and I recognized them as Alex, Jeremiah, and Eliza. They pulled away and Eliza pulled a few strands from my face. "How are you feeling sweetheart?"

"Blurry, unclear. Weak." I answered. "That's normal, Kara. You had a lot of powerful drugs and other substances in your body along with the blood loss and Kryptonite exposure. You'll start to feel better the longer you are awake. Your mind is trying to reset from the trauma and stress." Eliza explained. I tried to focus on her words, but my mind was thinking in Kryptonian. Her words were just garbled sounds. I took in a breath.

"You pulled a hell of a comeback Kara." Jeremiah stated. I looked down to the bandage around my side. "I did, right?" I accidently spoke in Kryptonian. I blushed with embarrassment.

"It's okay, Kara. Just focus." Alex comforted. My mind understood her right away, even if her pronunciations were off. I nodded slowly.

"We're just so glad that you're awake. It was a long time waiting." Eliza tried to add. "At least it wasn't longer." I teased poorly. Alex's small smile faded to a deep frown.

"Sorry."

Jeremiah looked to the other two and spoke in English. "Can you give Kara and me a few minutes?" He asked. They nodded and walked out of the room. He sat down by my side. "How are you feeling?"

"Exhausted."

"That's understandable."

We sat in silence for a few more minutes. "I killed him. I killed Shade." I cringed at my heavy Kryptonian accent that wove itself in my English words. I bit my lip, but he didn't notice. Instead, he sighed. "Yes, he's dead." I swallowed thickly. "I'm a monster." Jeremiah shook his head. "No, Kara, you did it to protect us. All of us."

"I'm a murderer, Jeremiah. I took a life."

"You are not a murderer. There was no other way."

"I'm not supposed to resort to that kind of violence. It was our Honor Code on Krypton. We serve for Integrity and Justice. We don't kill. I'm supposed to be a hero, not a killer."

Jeremiah took my hand. "Kara, being a superhero is complicated. You have to face tough decisions every day. Being on a pedestal like that, as a superhero, it is extremely difficult. And it's even harder on you as you were not from this world. You grew up on Krypton, you saw the standard you were held to. It makes your life that more difficult, especially as the views on Earth constantly changing. But that is what makes you that much better of a hero, of a person, and of our family. You continuously push yourself to do these great things. Even if it is unfair to yourself. Sometimes-" He sighed.

"Sometimes, even though we don't want to admit it, it's okay to not be perfect. To regret your actions. It's okay to be human. We are happy to see you here, alive and awake."

"Thanks, Jeremiah."

We sat in silence as his words settled into my mind. Finally, everything was seeming clearer. My vision was straight and crisp. My chest wasn't as tight, and my head didn't spin as quickly as before.
He smiled at me. "So, as we have that out of the way, there is something else we need to talk about."

"What?"

"There is a certain man who proclaimed his love for you. And I do recall him stating he wants to be a part of our family." I blushed lightly. "Yeah, I uh- didn't know about that."

"I know that you didn't, but I want to know how you feel about it." I smiled at him. "I never have thought about that aspect of my life. I always thought that I would be alone. The Last Daughter of Krypton." I sighed. "But it is different for Kal. He doesn't need to worry as much to hold up the traditions as he never knew them, but I can remember them clearly. And know that I have someone I could possibly spend the rest of my life with, it scares me. I don't know what to do, I'm not used to not being in control."

Jeremiah laughed. "That's perfectly normal, Kara." I looked away shyly. "I know. It's just- strange."

"Yeah, it will always be strange. Kara, whatever you choose, I want you to know that we will support you. Barry is a great guy. I see how he stands by you, fights by you, and loves you."

"Thanks Jeremiah. It means a lot to me."

"Of course, Kara, you are a part of our family. We love you so much."

"Can you send Alex in, please?" I asked. He nodded and left. A few seconds later, Alex walked into the room. "How are you feeling?" I asked. She scoffed. "You shouldn't be the one asking that. It wasn't me who was bleeding out."

"I wasn't the one who was electrocuted. Any nerve damage? Is everyone okay?" She wouldn't meet my eyes for some reason. "Alex? Is everyone okay?" I repeated sternly. She glanced out of the room. Finally, she met my eyes, and I could see tears staining her face. "What happened?"

"As you were flying to Metropolis, Shade and his army attacked. We fought back for a while." Shade's words echoed through my head. I want to make sure your city suffers first. "B-but he killed them."

My stomach dropped. "What? Who did he kill?" Alex bit her lip and looked away. She muttered something. I couldn't hear her. "What?" Alex took a breath. "The Kryptonians. He murdered them."

I sucked in a breath. "No. He couldn't have. Astra? Maya?" Alex bowed her head once again. "No, that's impossible." I tried to pull myself out of the bed. "Kara, no. You have to stay in here. You don't have your powers back yet. You can cause serious damage to your body." She tried to push me back down. I grimaced as I rolled off the side. "Get out of my way, Alex." I growled and pushed away from her.

I held onto my side as I staggered through the halls. I finally made my way to the morgue. There, I could see all the bodies of the Kryptonians. I bit back a sob as my eyes landed on Astra. "Aunt Astra." I breathed. No words came out of my mouth, I didn't know what to say. I felt a pair of arms wrap around me.

"It's okay, Kara." Kal stated. I pushed away from him. "No, it's not, Kal. Nothing about this is okay! These are our people! The Last People of Krypton. And now here they lay, dead! Because of me!" He reached out to touch my shoulder.

I pulled away from him and pushed his arm harshly. "No! Don't you get it? I've already seen these people die! It was hard enough to know they were gone once, but twice? It doubles the pain, and the hole in my heart."

I collapsed to the ground. "They're all gone." I whispered. Kal kneeled by my side. I didn't want his pity, not now.

I pulled myself out of the room. Winn and Alex followed me from where they were waiting. "I don't need you to look after me. I survived for 5 years just fine." I turned around and left them.

I walked through the DEO and I bumped into James. "Kara, whoa, hey. You're up. And looking to bulldoze me down?" He joked. He stared at me for a moment. "Are you okay?" He asked. "Fine." I answered shortly. James grabbed my arm gently. "No, you're not. Do you want to talk about it?"

"No."

I went to pull away from his grip, but he held on a bit tighter. "Come on Kara." He pulled me into a quiet room. "What's wrong?" I stayed silent.

James moved in front of the only door. "Either you are going to talk to me, or we'll both be in here for a while." I rolled my eyes. "You do know I could easily get out of here." I stated plainly.

"Then go ahead. I know you can. But will you?" He crossed his arms. I sighed and did nothing. He smiled. "See, you do want to talk, otherwise you would've moved me."

"Fine, but can you move away from the door? I don't want to feel like I'm being held in here." James moved away and sat down by my side. He folded his hands on his lap and waited for me to start. I sighed again.

"Back in Barry's universe, it was so different. I know that sounds obvious, but there was nothing similar here. On that Earth, I didn't have family, friends, no one I could fully trust. Except Maya. She was the only one I could lean on. I lived like that for 5 years. I accepted my fate of staying there forever."

I took in a breath. "I never thought that I would see any of you again. Maya was my other half, she was what was left of my world. Of Krypton and what was left of Earth before it fell. We depended on each other in every situation. And we vowed to finally end Shade's reign together. But ever since I've been back, it seems like I'm more alone than ever. By some cruel twist of fate, I feel even more isolated now. It feels like I don't know my family and friends anymore. And somehow, Maya and I were always separated, for some random reasons from the DEO. She was the last person that I felt close to since being on Terram Two. I never really got to see her when she was here. We never got to just be ourselves, never got to relax around each other. So, after Shade contacted me, I decided to go and I-" I paused.

"You thought that you were never going to come the winner." He finished. I nodded. "Yeah. When I woke up here, it was a kick to my stomach to know that I stopped Shade alone. I felt like I betrayed Maya. We had an oath to stop Shade together, because we both suffered together. And now, she's just- gone. She is gone and there is nothing I can do." I looked down to my hands and swallowed hard.

James gently placed his hand on mine. "Kara, there is nothing that anyone can do to make up for those 5 years you were stuck there, no matter how hard we try. Everyone agrees that you were the last person who deserved that. But there is something that we all want you to know. We are by your side now, so please don't push us away or shut us out."

He squeezed my hand. "We want nothing more than to make you feel somewhat close to before you were taken. We all love you deeply and are trying to support you. But sometimes, you make it almost impossible to even talk to you. We will never understand half of what you and Maya went through, but we want you to know that you aren't forgotten, abandoned, and most definitely, on your own."

I gave him a small smile. He smiled brightly at me. "There's that smile I missed." We both stood up. I wrapped my arms around his torso. "Thank you, James." He returned the hug. "Of course, Kara." We both walked out of the room. I went back to the med bay. Alex and Winn were waiting there, talking. As soon as I walked in, they stopped and looked to me. I sighed. "I'm sorry for snapping at the two of you. It was wrong of me."

Winn walked over to me and gave me a gentle hug. "Kara, we will always be by your side. Through thick and thin. And trust us, we could never be mad at you. With everything that you went through, you can grieve, be sad, angry. But just remember that we are your family, your friends. Don't ever be afraid to talk to any of us. Okay?" He whispered in my ear.

I gently squeezed him back. "Thank you, Winn. That means the world to me."

Alex stood off to the side. "You should probably lay back down Kara, you'll need all the sun and rest you can get." I nodded and went back to my bed. I closed my eyes and I heard the snap of the sunlamps coming on. The heat covered me in a comfortable blanket. I floated off into unconsciousness.

I woke up a bit later, but I could tell that I was still partially asleep. I laid on the bed and listened to the stillness around me. There were gentle footsteps approaching the med bay. Someone sat down next to me. "Hey, Kara." Barry started gently. "I know you're still asleep but me talking to you know makes me feel better. What you went through, you deserve all the rest you can possibly get. I will stand by your side for as long as it takes you to get back on your feet. Even if that means postponing our plans of the, well, engagement. I would rather have you healthy and happy, than stressed and recovering. Take the time you need. I love you." I heard him stand up and he carefully placed a kiss on my forehead.

The next few weeks, I stayed at the DEO. Dr. Hamilton and Derek continuously checked on me. They ran tests, monitored my vitals; they didn't want a repeat of the Kryptonite poisoning. They finally let me start to spar again. It was nothing too over the top, but I was happy to move around. I wanted to get better quickly, but I knew not to push myself. I wanted to get back to being me. I was afraid that I was going to go through a repeat of isolation like last time, but my family visited me when they could, and tried to cheer me up. But I knew what I had to do to appease the darkness in my thoughts and body.

Once I was cleared to leave the DEO, I immediately went to J'onn. "Kara, how are you feeling? I heard that Hamilton finally released you."

"Better. I feel close to what I did before the uh, universe hopping."
J'onn smiled at me and I noticed Alex made her way to me. "So, I take it that you will be going back to National City?" He asked. I took in a breath. "No, there is something I need to do." I stated. "Okay, we can send-" I shook my head and cut him off. "I appreciate your offer of company, which I know is to be my security, but this is something that I need to do alone." Alex and J'onn exchanged glances.

"Yeah of course, Kara. Where are you going?" J'onn asked. "Somewhere other than here."
"When will you be back?" Alex asked with worry. I shrugged and tried not to meet her eyes, which I knew would start to fill with tears. "I don't know." I rose off the DEO floor about two feet before gently flying away.

I made a quick stop at my apartment, grabbed some provisions and took off. I knew where I wanted to go, but I didn't want to go, not just yet.