A/N: Hey again. I m really sorry AGAIN for being late..
But, I want to thank you for all the followers, and favers and rewievers ^^
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'What is that annoying voice...?'', Shizuo though when he slowly woke up from his sleep.
He wrinkled his eyes brows as he slowly oppened his eyes.
He got up where he was. 'Oh right at Izaya's apparment'.
He turned to look around the room; he saw Izaya typing quickly at his computer.
''ooy, Izaya how long have you been up?'', Shizuo grumbled, trying to rub the sleepiness from his eyes. Izaya turned to look at Shizuo amuzed.
''Since 3 am, I need to work, and don't you have work too? '', raven said and pointed at the clock. it was little past ten.
Shizuo pailed. 'Oh shit', he though and got up. ''I need to go! See ya'h later!''. Shizuo barked out of the aparment.
Izaya laughed quietly . 'See you later? I never imagined that he would say that to me'.
There was sudden knock at the door. Raven got up, and walked lazily to the door.
He looked through the door eye , he froze when he saw who was stading there.
No other than Shirou Orihara.
Izaya backed off slowly. His heart hammering against his ribs.
''heey Izaya are you home? '', Man shouted outside of the door.
Raven stood there in silent, trying to make no sound of his existence.
After several minutes of silent, his father left.
Izaya breathed in relief, and fell to his knees.
'I m fine, I m safe, safe..', he told to himself at mantra.
He got up from the floor, feeling his legs shake under him.
He slowly made his way to couch. He curled against the cold letter cushions.
'His not here, I m not a child anymore, his not here'.
He took his flipblade out of his pocket.
He stared at the shining blade.
Raven pulled his sleeve up, revealing his white skin, were was still healing red cuts of last time. He raised the blade against his skin, with shaking hands. He pressed the tip of the blade against his sking. 'I need this, I need pain..I deserve this', he though pressing harder, making some blood rise up.
When Izaya saw the blood, he felt urge to cut even more. He was about to, but then he realised what he was doing. Like he was waken from a trance, he trow the knife to other side of the room. 'no, no I don't need this, I m not going back to that', he told to himself, trying to make himself calmdown.
''Damn, I m fucked up'', he wishpered, pained smile on his face, tears running freely from his eyes. ''I m clad Shizuo is at work''.
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Izaya hadn't even noticed that he had fell asleep. He got up from the couch, feeling slight headache. 'damn..I hate crying', he though, he made his way to his computer.
He looked through his emails.
There was one from Shinra.
'Hey Izaya, have your father made any contact with you ?
And is everything allrig-
Delete.
Izaya sighed in irritation. He hated when Shinra was like that. worried.
It made him feel...weak. Weak and vulnerable, like he would break from touch.
'well..I kinda did that today..', Izaya though, he felt angry with himself, sighing in frustration.
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The sound of door bell woke him up from his thoughs.
Izaya walked silently to the door, holding his breath he looked through the door eye.
Raven sighed in relief when he saw the familiar blond stading behind his door.
He oppened the door, welcomign Shizuo in.
''Well, you are back soon Shizuo'', Izaya says, and closed the door.
''Lunch break'', Shizuo muttered, he walked over the kitchen.
''ooh, and you want to be with me?'', raven said teasingly.
Shizuo blushed slightly. ''well I bet you haven't eaten anything? ''.
''I have!'', Izaya said, at same time his tummy decided to protest and prove him wrong.
''Really?'', Shizuo said rasing eyebrow.
''well...What will we eat?'', Izaya said changing the topic.
''Some instant noodles and chicken?'', Shizuo asked, and turned to look at the raven.
''yeah, okay'', Izaya says, and goes to sit to the table.
''what? you're not gonna help?'', blond asked looking slightly pissed.
''I m really bad at cooking; I once even managed to burn half of the kitchen'', Izaya said looking serious. ''you're joking?'', Shizuo tried, but Izaya looked dead serious.
''okay, we don't want that happening'', blond muttered.
Izaya watched in silent, as Shizuo made the food.
'he kinda looks cute while cooking..what?! Cute. no. no.', Izaya shook himself from his thoughs. 'nope'.
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''Will you set the table?'', blond asked, while mixing the chicken sauce.
Izaya got up and searched the plates, forks and glasses.
He placed them neatly to the table.
Shizuo split the food to the plates, and waved Izaya to sit down.
''well,bon appetite'', blond said and laughed.
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