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2. The Break Up.
I passed out and fainted at Sectionals. Coach Sue entered the choir room and told us that, by the rules of the competition, we forfeited and Warblers won the competition. I honestly hadn't cried so much in my life….well at least in a long time. Jake kept rubbing my back with his hand but, like the rest of them, he seemed disappointed by the fact we loss.
I had all day Saturday and Sunday to focus on myself and get things in perspective. Mom called an eating disorder specialist and I had a weekly appointment with a therapist every Wednesday. Unfortunately that meant I'd miss Glee club after school on Wednesdays, but Mom said that Finn would understand and he'd want me to get help with my problem. I haven't known Finn for as long as, say Artie, but he seems like a nice guy.
Monday morning I came to school and nobody spoke to me. Well except Ryder and Unique and Joe. Sam kinda talked to me, but went quiet when Tina came around the corner. Ryder, Unique and Joe all asked if I were okay and if I needed anything. I said no and that I was fine. I shared one class with each of them out of all eight classes. During history class Ryder and I just passed notes back and forth taking about bands. In science Unique and I were reading and taking quizzes from the latest magazines she got. Sam was talking to me about Rocky Horror and his body problem experience and that he felt odd too (but then he started to go on about Nicholas Cage and made impressions of him).
I had a health class with both Sugar and Joe and usually Sugar and I sat in the middle of the rows and helped one another with the assignments, but she gave me a dirty look and said if I sat next to her she'd bite me. I didn't believe her, but I sat in the last row by myself. Joe, who had been sitting in front of Sugar and heard the conversation, got up and joined me in the back. We were watching some stupid video about drugs. I fell asleep on Joe's shoulder, though he didn't seem to mind so much.
It wasn't until lunch time when it began to get worse. I got into the cafeteria and I went to go sit with Tina and the rest of them but Tina shoved her bag into the empty spot. "Seat's taken." She said.
"By who?" I asked. I really wanted to add a sarcastic joke in there, but held back.
"Anyone but you?" She sneered at me. "You made us lose, your can't sit with us."
"Don't be such a bitch Tina." Sam told her. "Marley can sit here with us if she wants too, okay? And it was just a few days ago so relax."
"We lost Sam! This was my final year, your final year and Blaine and Arties! All of us!" Tina yelled. "Marley can't sit with us!"
"You're acting like a bigger bitch than Gretchen was to Regina in Mean Girls!" Blaine yelled at Tina.
"Oh shut the hell up Blaine! You know this was our year and this bitch ruined it by starving herself!"
Before Blaine could even open his mouth I dropped by lunch tray in front of Tina, angry and pissed off. Not just at them or how they were treating me but the fact that I had these voices in my head all telling me the same stuff over and over again. Food, calories, losing, being fat, worthless, terrible. Everything.
"Whatever." I spat out. "I'm not giving a rat ass any more." I replied before turning around and walking away. Who needs Tina anyways? She was just such a bitch about everything. A diva.
I skipped lunch. Ryder and Unique and Blaine all came after me and tried to make me stay, but I just left them alone and sat in the library doing some homework. Jake texted me and ask me to come meet him over at the football stands in ten minutes or so.
I got to the spot and waited for him. Jake came walking up the steps, looking pretty sad about something. Probably losing Sectionals. He didn't even sit down with me but just stood there and conflicted with either looking at me or avoiding me.
"What's wrong?" Were my first words to him, confused.
"It's over." He said.
"What's over? I asked. I didn't want it to be that.
"Us." He said to me. "I'm done, we're over. I just can't Marley."
"What do you mean!?" I stood up, feeling my shaking legs about to shatter into a million pieces. Like my heart. "You're—you're breaking up with me? Why Jake? Is it because of me causing us to lose Sectionals?"
"No. Not exactly. Marley, Ryder told me that he found you puking in the bathroom the night of Grease. And since then you've skipped lunch and your Mom was telling me a while ago at lunch that while she booked you with a therapist, she caught you puking again last night." He explained. "Marley I don't want to date…." He didn't finish.
"A bulimic loser, right?" I stated to him. He just bowed his head down, ashamed written on his face. I threw my hands up in defeat and yelled at him. "Fine! You know what I don't even give a crap about you anyways, Puckerman! I know for a fact that you've been flirting with other girls while we were dating! The only person you haven't done it to is Brittany! I gave you a chance but you can't change. You are stuck the way you are! You are exactly like Puck!" I grabbed my backpack from the ground. "If Kitty is anything like Quinn, let me know when your baby is due!"
His head shot up when I said that, but before he could speak a word I had already jumped off the bleachers and jogged away from them. I hid behind a dumpster nearby and waited until Jake left the bleachers to go back and cry. After several moments where I could tell he hated what he did, three Cheerio's come up and start whispering in his ears and clutching onto him like a rare Louis Vuitton bag. Once gone I sauntered back over in tears. I felt miserable, broken and I just wanted to….puke.
I was just about to start walking up the bleachers when I heard a voice from behind and under the bleachers. "Hey you."