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4. Glee Practice

During the two and a half hours with Lark we just stayed at one of the local pizza places and talked. He was telling me about his life growing up and how he and Ryder use to be best friends but stopped when Ryder was twelve because Lark started to smoke and Ryder just wanted to stay away from him. He attended night school now after dropping out at 15 years old. Though he called it insane, Lark mentioned that after getting a diploma for his night school classes and then going to Lima University, he wanted to go to an Ivy League school, either Cornell, Dartmouth or Harvard, and study psychology. "Nothing doctor related. But I'm aiming to Dartmouth. What 'bout you?"

I told him that I wanted to be a singer on the radio. I wasn't too sure of schools yet but that Kurt watched me audition for Glee club and a few weeks later he had e-mailed me and said in his message: Guess who's better than Rachel Berry? You are! Come to New York Academy of Dramatic Arts (NYADA)! but I just told Lark that I might just end up coming to a community college and take a music program there. Lark said it was bullshit. Lark said I could go and get into any school I wanted to attend and that I'd get in within a second. And before I could mention money said had told me that, because his family hates his smoking habits they refuse to pay for him, he said that he could apply as independent and that they'd help him out with paying for classes. Or if he did well in school or whatever that they'd give him grants and whatnot. Or use his drug money to pay. But he laughed so I guess it was a joke. I think.

"I don't know. Maybe. I'm not sure yet, I have a few more years." I stated.

"I heard Dartmouth got a great theater program," He winked. He made me laugh. "Someone is happier than this morning."

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After talking, exchanging phone numbers and such Lark gave me a ride back to the school. He told me his address, he didn't live too far from Ryder (his own apartment!), and then he drove off. I smiled and giggled a bit. Lark had great chemistry with me, but I brushed it off. I felt bad actually. I think I just re-bounded him after Jake. God I was such a terrible person! But I shook it off as I entered inside of the Glee room and notice all the chairs were gone, everyone was on the floor except for Artie obviously and Finn and Mr. Schue. I was the last to arrive and apparently I had just missed the news whatever it be. Tina was giving me a cold glare and as I took a seat far away from the others, but close enough to not be the outcast. Hmm. Outcast. I liked the word, strangely.

"Ashamed to show her face and comes late, or puking her brains out?" Tina snapped her comment.

I just rolled my eyes, though Finn said, "Tina, enough."

"Well it's true! If she thought she was New Rachel, then just New Rachel my butt!" Tina then looked at me and yelled again, "I knew Rachel Berry! I'm friends with Rachel Berry and you Marley are no Rachel Berry!"

"Preach!" Artie joined.

Geeze, that just annoyed me. I just literally wanted to stand up and scream these exact words at Tina: FUCKING BITCH! LEAVE YOUR COMMENTS TO YOURSELF AND TALK SHIT WHEN YOU GET HOME, LIKE EVERY OTHER NORMAL PERSON! But then somehow, out of character of myself, I said, "Rachel Berry my ass."

"Excuse me!?" Tina asked loudly.

I didn't shadow my words. I looked at Tina and said it again. "Rachel. Berry. My. Ass!" I screamed as I stood up and walked to the front of the room, never losing eye contact with Tina. "What is with this Rachel crap? Is Rachel suppose to be like this princess of this school? Huh? Princess Rachel Berry!? Is she like the idea of Regina George!? We just have to listen to her because she is everything!? I'm beginning to see this Rachel Berry girl even worse than Regina George when we first meet her! Blaine told me what a New Rachel is and to be honest, it's kinda…well…." Never had I sworn in Glee. But it happened. "Bullshit!"

Nearly everyone in the room gasped, jaws dropped to the ground, even Finn and Mr. Schue. Kitty smirked and everyone else just looked at me like I had just done the most unbelievable thing ever done. Bombshell that I had ever known the word 'bullshit' and what it meant. It was out of character of me, but it was my honest feelings. Why not? I didn't want to lie and everyone is showing their honest colors now, right?

I felt Mr. Schue put his hand on my shoulder gently. "Marley," he said my name soothingly. "I think you need to go take a walk around the halls for fifteen minutes. Get some water too, then come back. Okay?"

I turned on heel and left the room with my backpack in hand. I wasn't going to come back. Tina would just make rude comments about my attitude and then she and her co-boy, Artie, would just… I don't even know. Do whatever it takes to stay on top for the club.

Unique texted me. Finn announced that because we lost Sectionals, Glee club was over for the year.

Oh Tina must have been real pleased with me when Finn said that, I thought to myself. She probably wanted to throw me a party with sprinkles and unicorns.

Honestly I just really hate things right now. At least when I get home I can just read a book and be free from them for the rest of the day.