~BtS~
We were young and times were easy
But I could see it's not the same
Standing here but you don't see me
Give it all for that to change
~BtS~
"Where's Seth?" was the first thing I said as I started removing my suit jacket and dress-shirt.
"Sleeping," was her one-word reply.
I wished I could see him before he went to sleep, but I thought maybe it was for the best that he went to bed early tonight, it gave me more time alone with his mom.
After removing my clothes, I hopped in the shower, stepping under the warm water, closing my eyes tightly shut as the water ran down my body, hoping that it would remove the smell of her perfume from my skin. I wondered if the redness of her lip gloss was anywhere on me but decided that the soap would help remove any of traces of her on my body.
Maybe I was going to take the divorce as the next and final step in my relationship with Bella, but to be honest – I still didn't want her to know of my affair.
Call me a jerk, but I didn't want to be blamed for this any more than I would already be just by telling her that I was the one who wanted to end it and why.
I seriously had no idea what Bella's reaction would be, but I was almost sure that she wouldn't be too upset, after all – she might be with me on this. For all I knew, she might be having an affair herself. She was the one who refused to let me have sex with her for over seven months now, always the magical headache hitting her just when I wanted to touch her.
Something ached in my chest at the thought of Bella being with someone else, but I shrugged the thought away; I didn't care for her anymore – I knew I didn't.
After I showered, I put on a sweatpants and a shirt and then I got into bed with her, she was still in the same position as I left her. I could easily tell that she was faking sleep from the way her breathing kept changing, so I called her out on her bullshit.
"Bella? Can you get up for a minute? I need to talk to you about something." I said. She didn't react at all, but I could see her body tensing. "Bella, I know you're not fucking sleeping, I said I want to talk! It's important."
"Leave me alone, Edward, I'm tired." Was all she said, her voice sounding as if she was irritated with me.
Un-fucking-believable!
Maybe she thought I wanted to have sex. But that would be stupid of her, and she wasn't stupid. I'd stopped asking – begging – her for sex three months ago, the day I found someone else to fulfill my needs. Why would she think I would try now after this long?
"I said it was important!" My voice was as annoyed as hers, it was almost angry.
"I said I was fucking tired! Leave me the fuck alone!" she screamed at me, and then turned on her other side, giving me her back to face me.
I stared at her form with shocked eyes. Bella never spoke to me with this language or with such a loud voice, especially knowing that our son was sleeping in the next room.
Finally, I sighed, trying my best to calm myself – maybe the talk would wait for tomorrow.
~BtS~