And time is taking its sweet time erasing you
and you've got your demons, and, darling, they all look like me
'Cause we had a beautiful magic love there
what a sad beautiful tragic love affair
Distance, timing, breakdown, fighting
Silence, this train runs off its tracks
"Beca, I know that you are in there. I can hear your music." Jesse says through the door. Beca looked over at the door debating what to do. Kimmy Jin kept typing on her laptop working on some essay for a class.
"Come on, Beca. Open up." Jesse says knocking on the door again. Beca sighs and goes to the door. She tries to smooth out her hair to look as if she hasn't been making mixes for the past few days. She had not been doing well' but hell would freeze over before she let him know that.
She pulled open the door and looked to see what was on the other side. Jesse stood there with his hair array and bags under his eyes. His clothes were wrinkled and it gave away that he hadn't slept in days.
"I tried to call you. I left a bunch of messages." Jesse says wringing his hands. She almost feels bad seeing him so torn at her door.
"I got them." Beca says crossing her arms over her chest. She was not going to give him anything else. He had left her various messages and texts. They ranged from a drunken Jesse babbling nonsense to a sober Jesse almost crying on the phone. They had almost broken her down and it made her feel like crap. Apparently someone had told him that she knew he had cheated on her.
"I'm sorry that I cheated on you. That girl came up and kissed me and-" Jesse says until Beca interrupts him. Did he really think using the sentence 'I cheated on you' would help his case that well.
"Do you think 'I'm sorry' can fix this? Do you know how it feels to have your heart feel like it has been ripped out of your chest?" She asks her voice breaking at the end. Beca wishes that she could just keep her composure and not show him that she was dying inside. Part of her wanted to show him the damage he caused and how she thought that she could easily trust him.
"Yes, I mean n-" He starts and Beca just looks up at him with a look that showed him a hint at how heartbroken she was. Beca knew that he was struggling from a mixture of his lack of sleep
"You just don't know, Jesse. How am I supposed to know that you're not lying to me?" Beca asks and his face starts to show his rage and she almost wants him to get angry. Anything besides sadness.
"I would never lie to you!" He argues and Beca just wants to end the conversation and run back inside. A part of her knows that he isn't lying to her; but her logical self can't argue with the fact that of what she had heard. He wasn't lying and she knew it but wanted to deny it so badly. She just wanted to have her walls up so she couldn't be hurt by anyone ever again.
"I'm jus- I'm just done." Beca says her voice breaking off. She closes the door before he can utter a word. The look of his heartbroken face will forever be imprinted in her mind. She sinks to the floor and leans against the door. Beca tries to ward away the tears that were threatening to make its way down her face.
Kimmy Jin got off of her laptop and stood up walking over to Beca with a tissue box in one hand. Beca took the box and nodded at her as a thanks. Kimmy Jin just ignored her and went back to her desk to get back to work.
She had just made a major mistake.
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"Guys! Guys, stop! What is going on?" Beca asks as she walks into the gym. She had convinced herself to get up and apologize. It was mainly a way to get her mind off of Jesse.
"Nothing. Nothing. This is a Bella's rehearsal." Aubrey says defensively standing up. Her and the other girls started to straighten up to look as if they had been rehearsing the whole time.
"I know. I just…wanted to say that I'm sorry. What I did was a really dick move and I shouldn't have changed the set without asking you guys. And I definitely shouldn't have left. I let you guys down and I'm really sorry. And…Aubrey, if you would have me, I want back in." Beca says swallowing her pride. When Beca sees that she is not going to say anything Beca starts to walk away and grabs a chair as she walks away to reference to their first rehearsal.
"Aubrey." Fat Amy says and Beca hopes that she can get to Aubrey before she walks away.
"Wait." Aubrey says and Beca stops dragging the chair.
"Thank you. That would have been embarrassing." Beca says walking back to the group.
"Beca, I know that I've been hard on you, okay? I know that I've been hard on everyone here. But I am my father's daughter. And he always said, 'if at first you don't succeed, pack your bags." Aubrey says her lip quivering.
"Jesus." One of the girls mutter under their breath.
"I get it. Mine gets on me too. Not like that, but…I guess we don't really know that much about each other. About most of you really." Beca says motioning to the group. They sit around in a circle and agree to reveal something that none of them really know about themselves.
"Well, I'll confess something that none of you really know about me. I have a lot of sex." Stacie says looking at them. Beca looks down at her feet as she realizes exactly what she will reveal to the group.
"Yeah, we know Stacie." Cynthia Rose says.
"Only cause I just told you." Stacie snaps back. Beca watches the exchange mildly amused at the conversation between the two girls.
"This is a good idea. That was a pretty bad example, but this is a good idea. Why don't we all go around the room, and we can all say something about ourselves that nobody else knows." Beca says looking at the girls.
"Okay, I got something. This is hard for me to admit to you guys." Cynthia Rose says standing up and facing the group. Beca nods to encourage her to keep going.
"I think we all know where this is going. Les-be-honest." Amy says and Cynthia Rose glares at her.
"Well, for the last two years, I've had a serious gambling problem." She says rubbing her hands together.
"What?" Beca asks clearly surprised; she had expected something along the lines of what Amy had said.
"What?" Amy said even louder and Cynthia Rose just glared at her again.
"It started when I broke up with my girlfriend." She says and Beca just nods.
"Whoomp! There it is." Amy says pretending to whisper. Beca glares at her this time.
"Anyone else?" Beca asks. She needed a little more courage before she could say what she had planned.
"I ate my twin in the womb." Lily says and Beca really wishes that she didn't hear her.
"What?" Stacie asks and Chloe just shrugs.
"Okay. Um…Fat Amy?" Beca asks; hoping that the Australian has something to say she almost always does.
"I'm an open book. I mean, for God's sake you guys all call me Fat Amy. See, I guess I'm just not really living if I'm not 100% honest. And my real name is Fat Patricia." Amy or Patricia says and Beca just looks at her shocked.
"What?" Aubrey asks.
"Okay, this is hard for me to say but. I uh dated Jesse for two years." Beca says and sits back. The rest of the group looks at her with slack jaws.
"You were treble boned?" Aubrey asks aghast.
"Wait, dated?" Chloe asks. "I thought you guys were still dating." Beca nods slightly trying to avoid the stinging at the corners of her eyes.
"Yeah," Fat Amy says looking at her.
"You guys knew about this?" Cynthia Rose asks looking between them.
"I knew too." Stacie says and Aubrey looks at them suspiciously.
"We dated until spring break." Beca says shortly and Aubrey's gaze softens slightly. Fat Amy walks over and hugs Beca forcing her into her breasts. Soon Beca can feel another pair of arms around her; she noticed that it had been Chloe adding to the hug. It didn't take long before all of the Bellas were gathered in a hug around her.
They eventually pulled away and Beca tried to discreetly wipe away the small tracks of tears off of her face.
"What happened?" Chloe asks and leans towards Beca.
"I think it was just a misunderstanding." Beca says and hopes that they can move on to something else. Beca looks over to Aubrey to see understanding on her face. She was more than surprised to see that and expected anger.
"Okay someone else please go." Beca says sitting back refusing to give any more information.
"Okay. Over spring break, I made the courageous decision to remove my nodes. I know. The doctor said that I can't sing above a G-sharp, maybe ever. I thought this season was over." Chloe says starting to get emotional at the end. Jessica pats her on the back to comfort her.
"It's okay, it's okay." Beca says in a monotone voice; not exactly sure how to comfort Chloe.
"Beca, what do we do?" Aubrey asks standing up. Beca stands up facing her. Aubrey throws the pitch pipe towards her and Beca almost is able to catch it but it falls right into the large puddle of vomit.
"I'm sorry." Aubrey says looking down at her feet.
"Maybe not here." Beca says looking around the gym.
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From: Paige
Sent: 6:36
He is sending us heartbreak movie soundtracks. What happened?
From: Beca
Sent 6:40
Broke up with him.
From Paige
Sent: 6:41
U know that he didn't cheat on u. We talked to the girl.
From: Beca
Sent: 6:42
I need to fix this huh?
From: Paige
Sent: 6:45
Hells yeah
From Paige
Sent: 6:47
See u at finals.
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"Alright, let's remix this business. Um...Aubrey, would you pick a song for us, please?" Beca says looking over at Aubrey. Aubrey takes a deep breath before responding.
"Bruno Mars, Just the Way You Are." Aubrey says watching Beca.
"Okay. Um…Chloe, are you okay to take the lead?" Beca asks looking over at Chloe.
"Yeah." She says nodding.
Beca is able to lead them through a mash up that she feels is just the beginning of what they can do together. They are able to sound better than they did before and Beca feels that they have an actual chance at the finals. All during this she will have to orchestrate some way to get Jesse back.
"Hands in." Beca says smiling at them.
"One, two…ahhhh" They all sing and look over at Chloe when they hear an incredibly low note. Beca was amazed and realized that this would be useful to their performance.
"What was that?" Stacie asks as she cocks her head at Chloe.
"I don't know, I've never made that sound before." Chloe says holding her throat.
"Yo, but with your messed up vocal cords, you could hit the bass notes." Cynthia Rose says as she looks over at Chloe.
"Do you know what that means? Yes, Lily?" Beca says as she looks over at Lily.
"I think I have something that can help us out." Lily says in a normal tone of voice.
"Excuse me bitch, you don't need to shout." Amy says.
Beca smiles as the girls gather together. They all know that they will be alright together and can work together to make a badass set.
A/N: Thanks for the reviews and you guys should help me, the story is so close to 50 reviews. The song is Sad Beautiful Tragic by Taylor Swift. Please follow, favorite and review.
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