~BtS~
Standing out in the rain
Need to know if it's over
Cause I would leave you alone
~BtS~
When I woke up, I found myself sleeping on the couch, alone. I didn't know when Bella left, or how we fell asleep in the first place. I remember that she was upset and wouldn't stop crying no matter how much I tried to calm her down. So, eventually, I let her be. I guess I fell asleep at some point. And … I couldn't help but think how it would've been nice if she stayed with me and didn't leave. But then I shrugged the thought away, it was silly.
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That night when I came back home, it was already after 9, so I knew Seth was already sleeping. I hoped that Bella wasn't asleep as well. I needed to have that talk with her today, no matter what. No more excuses and no more escaping. It had to be done.
To my surprise, Bella asked me to sit down because she wanted to talk. I thought: sitting down works for me, but I will be the one doing all of the talking.
"Edward, I - … I have something important to tell you," she said.
"Me too, Bella. Can I go first?" I asked. I was dying to just let what was inside of me out.
"Please, Edward. I need to tell you this. I- …"
"I wanted to talk to you two days ago and I kept delaying it because of you and your mood swings. I'm tired of this, if you need to talk – fine. But I will go first." I insisted, how bothered I was by this was evident in my voice.
Bella stared at me for a moment too long, her eyes were sad and it almost made me drop everything and leave it for another night, but I wasn't going to fall for more games. I had a feeling Bella knew of my intention and she wanted to escape facing it. But I also had a wish that Bella wanted to talk about the same thing. It would make things much easier.
I watched as she pressed her lips into a tight line and her eyes smiled sadly, "You're right, you should go first, go ahead – I'm listening."
So, I told her, "We need to get a divorce."
~BtS~