~BtS~
Not a word is left unspoken
As the thunder starts to crash
Maybe I should give up
~BtS~
Bella's eyes widened when she heard the word, and for some reason, I couldn't hold her gaze. I had to look away, not able to see the shock mixed with the sadness in her eyes, knowing fully well that I'd caused it.
"W-what?" she asked in a whisper.
"You heard me, Bella," I said, still avoiding eye contact.
"I did hear you, Edward, but I can't believe my ears." She said in shock wrapping her voice, "You want to get a divorce?"
"Yes."
"Why? What did I do?" her voice cracked, and I knew if I looked at her I would see the tears rolling down her cheeks.
"Are you really asking me that?" I asked with a bit of anger appearing in my voice, finally looking at her, "Why don't you ask yourself that, Bella?"
She didn't reply, only stared at me with those tearful eyes that made my stupid heart ache. I hated doing this to her, but it was her fault, she did it all. She brought it all on us. She had to suffer the consequences of her actions.
"Ask myself what? I - … Oh, my God!" she gushed, putting a hand over her mouth as she cried some more, and then she spoke. "I can't believe you want a divorce, and you choose tonight of all nights."
I wanted to yell at her, telling her once again how it was because of her that I delayed this talk until tonight. But, wait … what made this night so special?
Whatever …
I pulled my hands into tight fists, trying to keep myself calm and my voice low enough to avoid waking Seth.
"Do you have any idea how many times we fight?" I asked her, not really waiting for an answer. "Do you have any idea when we last had dinner together as a family and not as two people trying to ignore each other? Do you have any idea when was the last time we were intimate? Do you have any idea, Bella?"
She still didn't reply me, she just stared ahead of her, tears falling down her face and pain written all over her soft features and I decided to stop talking and let her think. I knew that eventually she will realize it's for our best and our son's. I only added, "I can't take it anymore, Bella. We need to break up."
After a while, Bella finally looked at me again, her eyes bloodshot and her lips puffy from all of the crying. It kind of … hurt me to see her this way, but I swallowed it in and toughened up. I didn't need to feel any sympathy for her; it was all her own doing.
"Okay, Edward. I agree." She said, surprising me of how easy this all went. "But I have conditions."
~BtS~