So I know this chapter is short, so i will be able to upload another chapter sometime tonight! Promise.

28. Thursday

I've stopped smoking less. Finn and Mr. Schue made me go to Ms. Pillsbury every week and talk to her about home and everything. She asked how I was doing and how Minnie was and my homework and I said everything was going good. She once asked about my relationship with Ryder and I asked her why she was questioning. She said that I could be worried about things are with Ryder and I and if something would happen, how I would react and if that could cause me to go back to smoking cigarettes. I said everything was perfectly awesome with Ryder and that Ryder was helping me with quitting smoking too. Which was true. One time we were hanging out and I craved a cigarette; so Ryder told me to punch him in the stomach.

"Are you crazy? No, I'm not going to punch you n the stomach!"

"No it's fine, I don't mind. Just imagine my stomach as your cigarette habit and beat the shit out of it."

After trying to tell him I wouldn't; I did punch him. Lightly at first. He told me to go again, but harder. So I did. He told me to keep hitting his stomach harder until he felt like his bones were breaking. So I kept hitting him and with each hit in his stomach it I felt better and didn't feel like having anything else at the moment. I pretty much left his stomach almost red when I finished.

"Feel better?"

I nodded.

That's another routine I worked on. When I wanted a cigarette I just hit my pillow until I didn't want one anymore.

But that didn't stop me from drinking or having weed when I got the chance. Usually if I were over at Ryder's I would have to leave by at least ten, ten-thirty at the latest. He would give me a ride back home and I would wait until the coast was clear to call Lark and have him come over so we could get high for a couple of hours. By the time I cooled down I would fall asleep, wake up to my alarm and shower and go on about my day. Same thing if Ryder stayed over until ten-thirty; wait until he's gone and call Lark. Lark didn't drink usually, but he would get totally high.

Nobody knew. Except Minnie, who didn't care about what I did as long as I was okay and the place was cleaned up for Friday's check up.

Today was the last Thursday of April, which meant tomorrow was the check up. Minnie told me they would come over around dinner time, 6, to check. She got the day off from work but was going to go party later.

I had Ryder and Blaine over after Glee practice. I woke up early in the morning to clean a lot of things out before those two came over. I mean the condoms were left lying around, but the booze and drugs were in the attic.

We were hanging out in my room listening to music and dancing when I had the urge to go pee. I left my room quickly and went into the bathroom shutting the door with a slam and proceeded to use the toilet. When I finished I grabbed toilet paper and wiped myself, only to startled myself when I saw blood on the white paper tissue. Blood? But how could there be blood? Unless... Oh my God!

"YES!" I yelled loudly, not even thinking who could here me at the moment. "ITS BACK!" My period had returned! That meant I was at a good weight and was getting back to having a healthy body. Okay, healthy body when it came to eating.

I kept a laundry basket in the bathroom to throw my dirty clothes in for when I showered. I also had a mini-wardrobe that had clean bras and underwear in them. I always thought that if it were just Minnie and me in the house, usually just me, than I could put a new set on and walk to my room. I grabbed the new underwear and grabbed a tampon from the cabinet and proceeded to care for myself. When i was finished with everything I washed my hands and left the bathroom.

Upon returning the boys looked at me confused. "What?"

"What's back?" Ryder asked.

"Huh?"

"You shouted 'Yes! It's back!' from the bathroom. What's back?" Blaine asked, more clearly to the details.

Well Ryder is my boyfriend so he would have to know these things, right? And I know for a fact that when it was just Blaine and Tina they usually had a conversation in relation to this (Blaine told me, without going into details obviously). So I just said, "My period is back."

"That's wonderful!" Blaine smiled.

"So, that's a good sign?" Ryder asked.

"Yeah," I said as I sat back next to him. "My therapist said that when my period came back than it meant that my body was pretty much back to one hundred percent healthy again."

"Alright, it's a good sign." Ryder said.

I couldn't stop smiling from the inside. Sure any girl would HATE to have their period come in general, but for me in my case it was the complete opposite. It meant I was healthy again and that meant I wouldn't have to worry about my weight or anything else.