It has been 3 months since that fateful night. Neither Kix or I have seen or heard from Ronnie, and I really don't care at all anymore. We are done, we have cut all ties, professionally and personally. People have been asking what happened, but we just have told him it's none of their business.

Caesar's Palace was not too happy when we told them we wouldn't be performing our shows. Unfortunately they had already announced it to the public, and had sold tickets. We felt bad, but we would figure out how to make it up to them somehow.

Kix as been so protective of me and has been my emotional support through it all. Ronnie's stuff was still at my house, I fear him coming back for it.

I was writing a new song, called "going out like that" Ronnie had helped me write it. We started writing it when we were going through our divorces. I am falling in love with the song. I was in my office going through paperwork when my cell phone went off. The caller ID said 'Ronnie'. I ignored it. It went off a minute later letting me know I had a voicemail. I sighed trying so hard not to listen to it. I didn't care what he had to say.

Curiosity finally won over, and I gave in and listened to it. "Hey Reba. I am sure you hate me right now, I hate myself. I really want to talk to you though, I really would love to see you. I don't blame you if you don't and I will leave you alone, I wont contact you again. I will meet wherever you want, I just really want to talk to you."

I sighed. I was so angry at him, but I wanted to know the truth, I wanted to know what was going on. So I text him. 'I will meet with you at my office, but only if you tell me what is going on. I will only listen to you telling me the truth. No avoiding it this time.'

He was quick to text back. 'thank you Reba. I want to tell you the truth, no bull shit.'

He was at my office door twenty minutes later. I wasn't one hundred percent ready to face him, but I needed to know. I let him into my office.

"hey." he greeted me.

I sat down at my office chair. He stood at the front of my desk with his hands crossed at his waist, he didn't sit. "hi." I said back.

"Reba, I am really truly sorry for what I did-"

"Ronnie, the only thing I want to hear is the truth, I don't want to hear anything else." I said getting a little irritated. He has said sorry way too many times recently to me, but has done nothing but hurt me.

He looked to the floor. "I have a problem, a drinking problem. I was drinking every night I came home late, sometimes I would sober up before I came back, other times I didn't. I was in denial, I refused to believe I had a problem. But that night-" I cringed thinking back. "it made me realize the truth, it hit me in the face. And I absolutely hate myself for it. So that is why I left and I went straight into rehab. I was there for a month, and went to meetings, I haven't missed one."

"When did this first start?" I asked.

"The night I went to Janine's. I don't blame you if you hate me Reba, I hate myself. I will never be able to forgive myself for what I did. You say the word, and I honestly will walk out, and I will leave you alone."

I didn't know what to do. Logic says to kick him out, but I still really cared about him, even after everything. "I don't know what to do or say Ron."

Ronnie came over and went down to his knees in front of me and took my hand and looked me in the eyes with tears. "I really am sorry Reba, I am doing everything I can to change myself. I love you, I want you in my life, but I will stay away."

I smiled at him. I squeezed his hand. "If you stick with the meetings, and stay sober, then I will let you stay around. But, this is it, and I mean it. I am not doing this at all, I can't take it."

"I will do whatever it takes." I kissed him and hugged him. I honestly don't know why I gave in so easily, but I really do love him, more then anyone can know.

We had a great dinner at home and was sitting around laughing. "Hey Reba!" Ronnie looked at me wide eyed. Crap!

Kix walked into the kitchen, he saw Ronnie and started to go towards him. We both stood up and Ronnie practically ran from Kix. I walked over to Kix to stop him from killing Ronnie. I knew he was not going to be happy.

"What the hell are you doing coming back here?!" Kix yelled at Ronnie.

"I came here apologize to Reba." Ronnie said.

"She don't want you here, you better leave."

"Look, we talked and she forgave me."

Kix looked at me, and I saw nothing but anger in his eyes. I backed a little away from him. "Is that true? You forgave this asshole!" Kix said to me.

I hesitated not wanting to answer. Kix waited for me to continue. "Yes, I did."

Kix looked a little shocked, but it faded quickly. "I can't believe you actually forgave him after what he did."

"You don't get it-" I started to say.

"You're right, I don't get it. You were crying to me the day after he attacked you, I have been there for you everyday this past few months. We both agreed we were done with him, and he comes and says 'sorry' again, and you magically forgive him like always."

Ronnie was getting angry and stormed right up to Kix. When Ronnie got close, Kix punched him hard in the face. Ronnie stumbled back and went after Kix I pulled him back. "Stop it now you two!" I yelled at them.

"I am leaving, I am done with both of you, and I mean it. I am done." Kix turned around and left.