Hey nerds :) This chapter is really short but very much needed. Hope you all enjoy and don't forget to review and answer the question at the bottom XD
It's All About Finding Yourself - Chapter 10
Aubrey decided to return to school on the Tuesday, feeling better than what she did the day before. One of the main reasons for her to return were to see Jesse, she still didn't know exactly what they had between them but she couldn't keep her mind off that moment. The blonde swung open her locker to find a folded up piece of paper on top of her chemistry textbook. She furrowed her brow and picked up the paper, unfolding it. It read 'Meet me in the choir room - Jesse.' Aubrey couldn't help but smile to herself as she read the note. She quickly closed her locker again and made her way to the choir room.
"You got my note." Jesse smiled as he leant against the piano.
"Sure did." Aubrey nodded, making her way over to him. "Why did you want to meet up with me?"
"So I could do this." He smirked, placing a hand on her waist before placing a kiss on her lips. "Now do you want to tell me why you want to keep this a secret?"
"I'm worried about what people with think. Since I've recently broken up with Luke I don't want them to think you're just my rebound." Aubrey wrapped her arms around Jesse's neck as he swayed her side to side.
"Well whenever you're ready let me know." He winked "But first off, how about I take you out to the movies tonight? How does that sound for our first official date?"
"It sounds awesome." Aubrey smiled from ear to ear before kissing Jesse once last time before detaching her arms from him. "But I better get to class so I'll talk to you later."
Beca closed her locker and almost hit the roof as she realised Chloe was standing there. "Holy shit!" Beca clutched her chest as she tried to even out er breathing. "You need to quit sneaking up on me." Chloe looped her arm through Beca's before they started walking down the hallway.
"I'm sorry but I wanted to give you this." Beca looked at Chloe's other hand. She was holding out the first season of Pretty Little Liars on DVD. "Here take it." Beca raised an eyebrow at the redhead and slowly retrieved the DVD out of her hand. "I don't want it back until you've finished it, trust me you'll be addicted."
"Not too sure about that Red, movies aren't exactly my thing." Beca replied distractedly as she flipped over the box to read the back of it.
"Well you're in luck, it's a TV show." Chloe teased, giving Beca a wink. Beca quickly looked away from Chloe back to the DVD case. Chloe winking and Pretty Little Liars had only managed to bring back the events of last night. Beca couldn't deny it, the kiss made her feel good it was just that she was trying to find an explanation as to why though. There was one that had crossed her mind but it couldn't be, she wasn't gay.
Beca went home that afternoon and since she had nothing to do, she started watching Pretty Little Liars. As much as she hated to admit it, Chloe was right, the show was weirdly addictive. Chloe had rambled on about Shay Mitchell, the girl that plays Emily, all day and how amazing of an actress she was and Beca was starting to see it plus she was hot. Beca's eyes widened at the thought in her head before she convinced herself that it doesn't matter if she finds another girl pretty, she was just overreacting. Beca shook her head and opened her eyes and just her luck, on the screen Maya and Emily had just kissed in the photo booth and Beca's rush of feelings from last night came back to her and the brunette panicked. What was happening to her? Why was she suddenly finding these girls attractive? Why had this thought only crossed her mind now? What had Chloe done to her?
"Hey could you tell Uncle John I'm out when he gets in?" Beca was roughly dragged back into reality once Jesse swung her room door open.
"Uh-Yeah sure." Beca rubbed her head and pressed pause on the control.
"Are you alright?" Jesse asked slowly, noticing the brunette's uneasiness.
"Y-yeah why wouldn't I be?" She stammered. Jesse asked no more before leaving the room. Beca fumbled with her phone, contemplating calling Chloe over. Her thumb hovered very Chloe's number before she eventually tapped it.
"Hey Bec, what's up?"
"Are you busy?"
"Uh no, why?"
"Well my dad and Jesse are out and I'm pretty bored, do you wanna come over and hang out for a bit?" Beca thought that would be a better lure than the 'we need to talk' conversation.
"Yeah sure, do you want me to leave just now?"
"Yeah, that's cool, I'll see you in about twenty minutes?"
"See you then!" And with that the line cut off and Beca set her phone down before holding her head in her hands. Surely Chloe could help her figure out what's going on with her, and what these feelings are that she's experiencing. She got up from her bed and began pacing the room, thinking of how she could ask such questions.
Once Chloe had arrived Beca hand only said a handful of words to her as she led her up the stairs to her bedroom. "Something's up." Chloe noticed as she brought her legs up onto the bed. "I can tell."
"Nothing's wrong." Beca lied.
"There is." Chloe pushed, prodding the brunette's waist making her jump.
"There isn't."
"There is." Chloe decided to take matters into her own hands, quite literally. She lunged towards the brunette, knocking her back on the bed as she began to tickle her.
"S-s-stop!" Beca laughed hysterically trying to push the redhead off her but Chloe just straddled her making it even more difficult.
"Not until you tell me what's wrong and the real reason why you brought me here - woah!" Beca took Chloe by surprise as the brunette managed to grab the redhead's wrists and roll over so she was straddling her instead. Beca pinned her wrists by the side of her head and took in the sight beneath her. That was the first moment Beca had realised that all these strange feelings she had been feeling were for Chloe, she hadn't fully noticed before but ever since she met the redhead, something had sparked inside her as cliché as that is.
Beca let these feelings get to her and before she knew it she was the one initiating the kiss, she leaned down and took the redhead's lip between her's. Chloe kissed her back before deepening the kiss with a swipe of her tongue across Beca's bottom lip. The feeling of Chloe's tongue against her's drove Beca crazy, she apparently had a sex drive of a fourteen year old boy and this was the first time the thought of 'I'm so gay' had crossed her mind. Beca was the one to break the kiss but kept her lips centimetres from Chloe's "Chloe..." Her breathing was heavy.
"Uh huh?"
"I-I think I might be gay." Beca whispered against her lips and she didn't realise that saying that out loud would bring her such emotion. She felt a wave of relief mixed with confusion and her eyes began to water. She didn't totally know for sure but she needed advice from Chloe.
"Hey, hey don't cry." Beca rolled off Chloe and the redhead sat up and wrapped an arm around Beca's waist. "Do you know for sure?"
"You know more about this stuff than I do." Beca snapped. "I'm sorry." She quickly apologised.
"It's fine to be angry and confused about it but I want you to try something for me. Close your eyes." Beca wiped her eyes of the few tears that managed to escaped before doing as Chloe said. "This is what my ex told me to do when I told her that I thought I was gay but mine just ending up in a confusing mess since I'm bi." She chuckled which made Beca smile slightly wbut Chloe could still sense Beca's uneasiness. "Okay try and imagine your life in the future. Think of your dream job and most importantly think of that special someone. Now once you've done that, open your eyes." Beca opened her eyes to the girl she imagined in her mind. "Was it a guy or a girl?" Chloe asked.
Beca looked away and tried to blink the tears away.
"It was a girl wasn't it?" She asked and Beca nodded. Chloe pulled Beca in for a hug and that's when the brunette felt like it was okay to cry. "Can you ever imagine yourself with a guy?"
Beca sat up and a few more tears rolled down her cheeks as she was still trying to process this news herself, she was gay and this had been the first time she had properly thought about it. "I've kissed guys before but kissing you felt different, it felt like what I was doing was right but I can't imagine me dating a guy, I never have and I guess this explains why."
"I want you to know that the hardest part of this whole thing is coming out but once you're out, especially to your family, you feel a whole lot better." Beca stood up and began pacing the room.
"Chloe this has come along unexpected to me, don't think I'm going to start waving a lesbian pride flag over my head anytime soon!" Beca snapped, pinching the bridge of her nose. "Why can't I just be bi like you and not be such a disappointment to my dad?"
"You can't choose Beca."
"Of course I can't choose! If I could choose I wouldn't be here with you discussing my new found attraction to girls, I'd be normal and straight!" Beca threw her hands up in the air in frustration.
"Hey, enough of that!" Chloe scolded sternly, standing up and enveloping Beca in a hug. "You are normal and so am I. Just because you're gay-"
"Stop saying it!" Beca struggled out of Chloe's grip and threw herself down on her bed and buried her face into her pillow. Chloe sighed and climbed onto bed and kneeled beside Beca, soothingly rubbing her back.
"Honey, you need to calm down." Chloe said softly and Beca began to calm down bee breathing. "It's going to be hard but I'll be with you the entire time, I've been through it before so I can keep you from falling off the tracks. Think about it, you telling me today is another step closer to telling your dad."
Beca rolled over and looked up at Chloe with glassy eyes. "I don't want to tell my dad first." She shook her head "What if he reacts like your dad did?"
"Yeah but look at my dad now, he walks around flashing a bisexual pride wristband." Beca managed a small smile and chuckle, having that image in her head. "I still think I should hold off telling him first."
"Okay then, why don't you start off with Jesse?"
A soft smile grew on the brunette's face, Jesse was the most understanding and supportive person she knew. "I think that could work." Although this news came overwhelmingly sudden, Beca was started to accept it, all of her previous questions of why she was never very much interested in boys had been answered.
So what do you guys think?
Question - How do you think Dr Mitchell will react to Beca coming out?