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It's All About Finding Yourself - Chapter 11
"Why do I have to come?" Beca groaned, resting the side of her head on the window as her eyes fluttered shut. Dr Mitchell had picked Beca up after school on Thursday to take her up to the Apple store to get her phone replaced. (Luckily it was insured with Apple so it doesn't cost as much)
"Because it's your cell phone."
"It's your money." Beca fired back. She turned her head to look at her dad. He had a small smile on his face as he watched the road after her remark. Beca couldn't help but feel a sense of guilt because she hasn't told him she's gay yet; she actually hadn't even told Jesse yet even though she told Chloe she would, she was just finding it difficult trying to find a way to tell him.
"So are you and Jesse okay for staying at Grandma's tonight?" Beca leaned her head back on the window and closed her eyes again. The reason she always did that was because she was prone to motion sickness and would rather keep the uneasy feeling to a minimum.
"Mhm." Beca hummed in response.
"Do you feel sick?" Her father asked in concern after noticing her sudden silence.
"No, I'm fine." She lied, it wasn't that she was feeling sick it was that the reason that her and Jesse were staying at their Grandma's was because her father had decided it would be a great idea for Sheila and Rachael to move in now so they are settled before the wedding. Plus she had the huge 'gay' weight weighing her down, overall making her feel pretty down. She had no idea how she was going to tell Jesse nevermind her own dad.
"We're here." Beca opened her eyes once she felt the car come to a halt. "Hey, are you sure you're alright?" Dr Mitchell's brow furrowed as he placed his hand on his daughter's knee.
"One hundred percent." Beca faked a smile before climbing out of the car, waiting for her dad to lead the way across the parking lot of the mall.
"No wonder you're so clumsy." Dr Mitchell chuckled as he pointed at Beca's feet.
"What?"
"It's the way you walk." Beca looked down at her feet, she walked with her feet turned inwards slightly, she had always done that. "You've always walked like you're a bit ditzy." He joked, nudging her with his elbow.
"Probably a dyslexic thing." Beca joked, a genuine smile crossing her face. When she was first diagnosed with dyslexia she was really touchy on the subject but now she was able to joke freely about it, accepting that it's who she is. Now she had to do the same with being a lesbian.
The two had made their way inside the mall and into the Apple store. Beca handed her phone over to her dad as they walked up to the front desk. "Hi, there I'm here to get my daughter's iPhone replaced..." Beca wandered off to look at the different phones as her dad dealt with her phone. She was thinking about being at her Grandma's as she absentmindedly looked over the different iPhone models. She started contemplating coming out to not only Jesse but her grandma as well that night.
Later that night after dinner, Beca had finally gotten a chance to put everything from the backup of her old phone onto her new phone. She kicked her feet up onto her Grandma's table as she pulled her laptop onto her lap, plugging her phones USB charger cable in. "What're you doing on that, dear?" Beca's grandmother leaned towards Beca and pointed at her screen.
"I backed up my files of my old phone and now I'm just transferring them to my new phone." Beca explained, holding up her shiny new iPhone 5s.
"You've lost me honey." Beca chuckled at her grandma as did Jesse, who lifted his head from his phone.
"Never mind." Beca shook her head when a thought crossed her mind. It's now or never, Mitchell. "Uh guys, can I tell you something if you promise not to tell my dad?" She asked warily, placing her laptop on the table so she could sit up properly.
Jesse and Grandma Mitchell looked at each other with a furrowed brow. "Sure, what's up?" Jesse shrugged, placing his phone down next to him.
"As long as you haven't murdered someone I'm sure I'll be able to keep a secret." Beca smiled at her grandmother's joke but she knew it was going to be hard to say what she wanted to say.
"I don't want either of you saying anything until I'm finished." They both nodded and Beca continued. "When I was growing up I knew there was something deep inside of me that was a little different but I had never really managed to put my finger on it until recently." Beca refused to look up at either of them as she spoke quietly. "The thing is when Chloe moved here and told me her story, that thing inside of me kept building up and I became confused and angry for no reason until I asked Chloe about it and she helped me realise..." Beca paused as she lifted her head, trying her hardest not to let the threatening tears affect her voice. She let out a shaky breath, wiping the tears that did actually manage to fall. "I-I'm...gay." She whispered the word 'gay' before she felt an arm wrap around her.
"Aw sweetie." Beca felt a massive wave of relief as her grandmother pulled her in for a hug and she didn't know why her body began to shake with tears, maybe it was from relief?
"Thank god you're not mad." Beca sobbed. Although her dad is the most important person she needs to tell, her grandma has always meant a lot to her.
"I would never be mad at you for something like this sweetheart. I'm so proud of you." Her grandma squeezed her one last time before letting go. "It doesn't matter how much of a lesbian you are Beca, you'll always be my granddaughter and I'll love you to the moon and back no matter what." Beca laughed as she wiped her face with her sleeve.
"Hey, Beca?" Jesse asked softly. He was on his knees in front of her with his hands on her knees.
"Yeah Jesse?" Beca sniffed hard as she continued to wipe her eyes with her fingers only to have Jesse replace them with his own, not caring that he got makeup on them.
"Why didn't you tell me something like this was bothering you?"
"It was literally just on Tuesday when I told Chloe, if I had known any sooner Jess, you'd be the first to know and you know that." Jesse smiled, taking a seat on the couch to Beca's right as he began rubbing her back.
"I'm proud of you, weirdo." He pulled her into his side. Beca smiled, Chloe was right, it felt so much better to be out and open about it instead of keeping it to yourself.
"Do you have a girlfriend, Beca?" That was a typical grandma question that made Beca laugh.
"No Grandma." She chuckled, running her hand through her hair. Should she say something? No harm, right? "There is this one girl though, I'm not sure what I'm feeling since I'm still getting used to this but I guess I kinda like her? It doesn't matter anyway she's got a boyfriend."
"Oh, honey don't get yourself involved with someone who can't love you back."
"Oh no no, grandma she's bisexual meaning she likes girls and guys." Beca explained before Jesse went into a coughing fit of realisation.
"Ah right, okay. As much as I would love to sit and talk about your little crush Beca, I really need to wash these dishes." Grandma Mitchell pried herself off of the couch and shuffled through to the kitchen.
Beca was about the protest that it wasn't a crush when she was caught by surprise by Jesse who pushed her back onto the couch, pinning her wrists above her head as he swung his leg over her so he was straddling her waist. "You have a crush on Chloe." He teased.
"1. I don't have a crush and 2. I wasn't talking about Chloe." Beca shook her head as she tried to struggle from Jesse's grip.
"Oh please how many bi girls with boyfriends do you know in this town? Come on! If you admit it, I'll tell you a secret." Jesse offered and Beca took a second to think about it.
"Okay fine!" She eventually gave in making Jesse smirk. "I have a little thing for Chloe, can you let me go now?" Beca rolled her eyes and Jesse finally let her go, allowing her to sit up. "Now spill the secret."
Jesse smiled widely. "I'm not supposed to tell you this but me and Bree have kinda been going out."
Beca gave him a tap on the shoulder with a smile. "Dude! that's so gross and awesome at the same time!" Beca laughed.
Jesse gave Beca a playful slap when something hit him. "Holy shit, you're gay."
"You're just catching on?" Beca responded dryly with an eye roll.
"No, no this is awesome, that means I can be your lesbro or would it be lescuz? Oh my god so many possibilities! thank you for being that one gay cousin that everyone has."
"You're such a dork."
So what do you guys think?
Question - Which do you prefer? Cousin Banter? (Jesse/Beca), Father/Daughter Banter? (Dr Mitchell/Beca) or Grandmother/Granddaughter Banter? (Grandma Mitchell/Beca)