I left right after that, I couldn't go back out there again. For the rest of the night, and the next morning, I got nothing but calls and texts from friends, family, and news sources wanting to know what happened last night. I ignored everyone, even people I knew, I wanted to be left alone.
I felt like I cried for days, I have never been more hurt in my life. Everytime I turn around, I see what happened all over the news, or the internet. I just shut everything off and focused on other things. It looked like things would be crazy from now on.
I just spent the day writing new songs, I didn't come up with much. Around 2pm my doorbell rang. Great, it is probably someone wanting to know about what happened. I just ignored it, but they wouldn't go away.
I walked to the door about to curse them out, but it was Narvel. I still felt like cursing him out. "What the hell do you want?" I asked very irritated.
"Hi Reba. I wanted to talk to you." he said.
"I don't want to talk to you" I tried to close the door on him, but he put his hand out to stop it.
"Please red?"
"Why should I talk to you?"
He sighed. "I am really worried about you."
I opened the door back up but still didn't let him in. "You sure weren't worried about me when you were cheating on me."
"Reba, I know I hurt you, that's why I am here. I really would like to talk to you."
I debated on letting him in. He was the last person I wanted to talk to. No I take that back, Ronnie is the last person I wanted to talk to. "Fine." I hesitantly let him in. We sat in my kitchen at my table. I sat across from him.
"I know you are mad at me." he started to say.
"Mad is not the exact word I would use." I corrected him.
"I still do love you Reba. I saw what happened last night, I was really worried when I saw it. I know how happy you were with him."
I felt the tears coming back, I don't know if this pain will ever go away. Narvel must have noticed because he stood up and came over to me and brought me into a hug. I pushed him away, but he wouldn't let go. I eventually just gave in and cried on his shoulder. I have to admit, I did miss him, he was my life for twenty-six years, we had a son, and his three kids.
I eventually calmed myself down and got out of his grip. He sat down on his knees in front of me and grabbed my hand, like Ronnie had done when he came to my office. "I hate that I hurt you, I thought I wasn't happy, I was an idiot. I am not asking you to take me back, I know you never will. I just want to be your friend. If I can be."
Honestly, I forgave Narvel and Janine a long time ago when I was with Ronnie. I was so happy, I was actually grateful that they got together. What a fool I was. "Narvel, I have forgiven you a long time ago."
He looked at me with relief in his eyes. "Really?" I nodded.
"But don't get too excited, I don't trust you as long as I can throw you."
"I know I have a lot to prove to you, can you give me the chance to?"
Should I? I was so hurt by Ronnie, I wanted to just get rid of relationships for good. But, I was together with Narvel for most of my life, I am comfortable with him. I thought it over and over in my head. I could tell he was getting nervous.
I had my answer.