I am currently laying on my back on my couch with a blanket covering all over me. I am so tired of this drama.
"Reba?" Narvel came in my house looking for me. I didn't respond or move. "Honey, I know you're under the blanket."
"No I'm not." I mumbled still refusing to move.
He came over, moved my feet and sat down, putting my feet on his lap.
"Are you ok?" he asked me.
I finally looked at him. "What do you think?" I sat up next to him. "I feel like everyone is against me."
He put his arm around my shoulder and hugged me closer to him. I laid my head on his shoulder, he rubbed my arm. "Things aren't that bad. Those two are just assholes. You have plenty of people in your life who love you, and would never betray you."
I looked at him. "You did."
He looked hurt by my words, I felt a little bad saying it, but it was true. "I know I made a mistake, but I will make it up to you for the rest of our lives."
I smiled at him and gave him a kiss on is lips.
"I do love you Narvel."
"I love you too, Red."
I decided to go to see Kelly. I needed a girl to talk to.
"I am so ready to have a girls night out." I said Kelly as we sat in her living room.
"We haven't had one in a long time. We are overdue for one." Kelly said excitedly.
"I agree. Maybe we can have one tonight. I can call Melissa, Shawna, and Chassidy and see if they are available." I said.
"Sounds great."
I text them all and asked. Melissa, of course, answered right away saying she could. Shawna and Chassidy answered after a few hours. They both said they were available. We decided to meet at 7 tonight, and go to a local club.
I had to hurry home and get ready. I was really excited. I needed a night to get my mind off the things going on in my life.
I was ready by 6 and was heading over to pick up Kelly, she was going to ride with me and the others were going to meet us at the club.
The club was quite busy, but we didn't mind. We loved this place, always played great music and had great crowds. I just hoped no one would bring up Ronnie or Kix.
We grabbed some drinks and sat at a table. I loved the girls in my life, they always knew how to cheer me up when I needed it. We danced to a lot of music. I totally forgot about everything going on.
We were recognized by a lot of people, but they kept their distance, and I respected that.
We were there for hours, and a little tipsy, before we went home. I dropped Kelly off at home, and headed back to my house. I saw Narvel's car in the driveway when I came home, I forgot to tell him I went out. Well, I don't have to tell him everything I do.
I walked into my house and he was sleeping on my couch. I really did miss having him in bed next to me at night. When we divorced, I wasn't alone for long before I had Ronnie. But since I got back together with Narvel, it has been harder to sleep alone since we are in a relationship again. I love him so much, I have never stopped, but I don't trust him completely. I was afraid to get close to him again, especially after being hurt by everyone around me lately, I didn't want to hurt anymore then I already was, if at all possible.
I went into one of my closets and got a blanket out and covered him with it. I gave him a kiss on the cheek before I went upstairs and to bed.
I have had a hard time falling asleep. A lot of nights I can only fall asleep when I cry myself to sleep. When will this end?
I woke up around 10am to noises downstairs, the strong smell of bacon. I jumped out of bed smiling, and ran downstairs. I came into the kitchen to see Narvel cooking breakfast at my stove. I came up behind him hugged him from behind. He was cooking eggs and bacon.
"Good morning, sleepy head." he said as he turned to face me with the spatula still in his hand.
"Hi honey." I gave him a kiss on the lips.
"How did you sleep?" he asked as he turned back towards the stove and I went to pour myself a cup of orange juice.
"I slept great." I smiled. It was true, I felt great. I haven't slept that well in years.
"Good, I am glad. Thank you for kicking me out last night when you came home." he looked at me over his shoulder, I sat at a barstool.
I giggled. "I wouldn't kick you out."
He just shook his head. "You have before."
"Only when you have deserved it." I said as I took a sip of my juice.
He finished the food and we sat down and ate together. This was our first time eating breakfast in a year, it was great.
I decided that I was going to ask him to move back in. He has been staying at a hotel since he broke up with Janine.
"I wanted to ask you something." I said.
He looked at me and raised his eyebrow. "is that so?"
I smiled at him. "Yeah." I was trying to tease him.
He leaned in closer to me. "is it a secret?" I laughed. I shook my head at him. "What is it?"
I started to act like I was thinking about it. "I know how to get it out of you." he said as he stood up and stood behind me. Oh no, I know what he is going to do.
He started to tickle me, I couldn't breathe I was laughing so hard. "Stop!" he wouldn't stop. "Ok, ok ok. I will tell you!" he stopped tickling me and sat back down. I tried to catch my breathe and I slapped him on the arm. He laughed at me.
"I wanted to know if you wanted to move back in." I put my elbow on the table, rested my chin on my hand and smiled at him. He smiled hugely at me.
"I would love to." he gave me a very passionate kiss. I really loved this man.