So much for relaxing. Ronnie's visit just left me completely confused, and made me realize I still loved him. How can I though? After all he said and did.

But when we were together, and it was good, it was great. When I was with him, I felt something I had never felt before in my life, not even with Charlie or Narvel. I think that is the big reason why I didn't want to break up with him.

I can't be in love with two men at the same time, I just can't. I thought that I only thought I loved Ronnie because we were there for each other after our divorces, at least that's what I kept telling myself.

I was hoping to talk to him about our relationship the next time I seen him or Kix, but that all went down the hill when he kissed me. I didn't realize how much I truly missed him until that kiss. I wish he never came, all it did was confuse me.

I called the one person who tended to always be there for me, and would help me through hard times, my sister Alice.

"Hey Reba." she greeted me as she answered her phone.

"Hey Alice, how are you?"

"I am great, planning a vacation to Florida. How about you? What's going on with the queen of country."

I laughed at her comment. I never saw myself as the 'queen of country', my family says otherwise. "I am good. When are you heading for Florida."

"In three days, I am very excited."

"I bet, Florida is a great place to visit."

"Yes, I have always loved it. So what's going on, red?"

I sighed. "Ronnie was over earlier."

"Oh? How did that go?"

I hesitated. "He told me he still loved me, and regretted leaving me."

Alice was silent on the other line for a few seconds. "Yikes! How do you feel about that?"

"I fell confused. I still love him, but I am really happy with Narvel. But, it feels different with Ronnie."

"What do you mean by different?"

"I don't know how to explain it, I just feel really happy. I am not saying I wasn't or am not happy with Narvel, I don't know, it's just different with Ronnie."

I heard Alice sigh. "Sounds like you don't know what you want." I don't. "What did you tell him."

"I told him I couldn't do it again, he left me. I didn't want to break up with him. He really hurt me. I told him I didn't think he knew what he wanted, and I couldn't be someone's 'maybe'."

"I hate to tell you this, but you need to make a choice, and if you choose to stay with Narvel, you will need to stay away from Ronnie. He obviously don't know what he wants, and you aren't sure. If he stays around, it will just mess with your feelings. As hard as it is, you need to tell him to leave you alone, and for good."

"Thank you Alice, I appreciate it. I got to get going though, love you."

"You're welcome, Reba, I love you too, take care. Keep me updated."

"I will." I hung up the phone and made my decision. I text Ron and asked him to come back over. He was over in half an hour.

We sat down at my kitchen table. I was going to tell him my decision, and I was going to stick with it.

"Ronnie, I really don't want to do this, but I have to. I am going to ask you to stay out of my life, and for good, and completely. I do love you, and you coming over earlier did nothing but confuse me. I want to move on from you, I want to move on with my life, but I can't do that with you in it, even if it is just as a friend. Our friendship ended months ago, and I just want you to leave me alone."

He looked hurt, and angry over my words. I knew our friendship was over, we just needed to have an understanding of where we stood.

"There's no chance at all to be friends?" I shook my head. He stood up. "Ok, I get it. I will stay away, as much as I hate to, but I get what you're saying. We need to move on."

I stood up and hugged him, he was surprised at first, but quickly hugged me back. We held onto each other for a few minutes. I started to cry. I hated this, but it needed to done. Right?