I AM GOING TO BE ONE-HUNDRED PERCENT HONEST, I DON'T KNOW WHO I WANT HER TO END UP WITH, LOL.
Narvel was gone for hours, I felt really bad, I know how he feels.
He finally came home around 10pm. I was laying in bed, I couldn't sleep. He came into our bedroom and went to change in the bathroom. I sat up in bed and turned on the bedside lamp and waited for him to come back out.
He came out and laid down beside me, pulling the covers up himself. "Hey." he said as he turned to look at me, leaning against the backboard like I was.
I smiled at him. "Hey. Where did you go?" I asked.
"Just went for a ride, I needed to clear my head." he looked to his lap.
"I really am sorry for earlier, Narvel, I love you so much." I started to cry again.
He leaned closer to me, wrapping his arm around my shoulder and bringing me closer to himself. I laid my head on his shoulder and wrapped my arms around his waist.
"I know you do, Reba. I don't deserve you." I could hear the hurt in his voice.
I looked up to him, I saw tears in his eyes. "Don't think like that, honey."
He shook his head. "When I saw you kissing him earlier, I was mad at first, but the more I thought about it, the more I couldn't blame you for still loving him. I saw how you guys acted around each other, I really thought you two were meant to be." So did I at one point, but then again, I thought the same with Narvel. "I don't deserve you, not after I left you, and the way I treated you. I wouldn't blame you if you chose Ronnie."
I wish someone would make the choice for me! I can't chose! I kissed him. "I love you, Narvel. I have forgiven you for what you did, it was over a year ago." I backed away from him, and resumed my spot leaning against the backboard. "Ronnie and I's relationship wasn't as perfect as you think."
"What do you mean?" he asked concerned.
"It's a long story, don't worry about it. Lets just say, you are not the only one who has hurt me."
"What do you want?"
I looked at him, not knowing what to say "I don't know."
It has been a week since I kissed Ronnie. I haven't seen or talked to Ronnie, and Narvel never brought the subject back up.
I spent a few days with Shelby, and it was great. He won first place in a race he was in, I was so proud of him, I was so happy I didn't miss it.
Shelby has forgiven his father, and they are getting along great, I love it.
I was still really confused on my feelings, I needed to make a choice, and stick with it, no going back.
I had thought it over more then I care to think, and I had finally made a decision. I was going to tell Narvel and Ronnie tonight.
I was going to break the heart of a man I loved with all my heart, but I made my decision, and I may be hurt, but I am willing to risk it.
I text Ronnie asking if he would meet at my house tonight so we can talk. I was going to tell him and Narvel at one time and just get it over with.
He text back after a few minutes. He said: "I don't know if that's a good idea red. I have been thinking a lot about what has happened. I don't deserve you, and I know you love Narvel, and he loves you. He has been your life for over twenty-six years, and I don't want to ruin that. You have a child with him, and a shared life. So I am making your decision for you. After I finish this text, I am blocking your number, and I am walking away. I wish you a great life, Reba. I love you, it was great while it lasted."
I looked at that text for five minutes not believing what I just read. There goes my plan of telling my choice, now I am not given a choice.