Without pulling my mouth away from hers I walk to the cabin. I almost drop her as I try to open the door. She giggles against my lips and runs her fingers through my hair. I finally get the door open and manage to knock her into it. She yelps and laughs again. She pulls her right hand away from me to push the door out of the way. We go inside and bump into the wall.
I slide her down my body so that she is standing on her tiptoes to reach my lips. I kick my boots off and she follows suit. We both pull back to catch our breath. I rest my forehead against hers. Her hands slide down to my pants and she undoes the button with a pop. I let her pull them down and trip as I try to flick them off. I barely catch myself and to save the moment I lift her up again. She laughs as a stumble forward and drop her onto the bed.
I shimmy up and hold my weight with my elbows as I lie on top of her. I find her mouth again and let her take control as she pulls on my arm. I roll over taking her with me. She giggles as I smack my head against the wall.
"My my my, Bellamy you sure have gotten clumsy." She laughs as I finally pull away from her lips to make a trail down to her collarbone. She moans. "At least you haven't lost everything."
"Princess," I say in a husky voice.
"Yes?" She looks at me with her bright eyes.
"Shut up." I say and flip her over to devour her once again.
Later when we are curled up in my bed I play with her hair and she starts to nod off. She pushes my hand away though and turns around to face me. She scoots away to put a distance between us. I can see excitement in her eyes but then tears start to slide from her eyes.
"What's wrong? Why are you crying?" I ask sitting up and pulling her up with me. I brush the tears away with my thumbs.
"I've missed you. I thought I would never see you again." She says through the sobs and falls against me. Her arms tighten around me after I let go of her hand. I rub her back and hold her cheek.
"Princess I'm here and I'm not going anywhere. You're safe now. I'll keep you safe." I whisper along with other promises.
"I almost lost you. I told you not to come after me. I can't lose you again. You need to leave." She pulls back just enough to meet my steady gaze.
"We both know that I can't leave you. The last time I left you I ended up in a coma and I thought you were dead." I say and rub my thumb over her lips. She sucks in a breath.
She pushes my hand away and scoots back again. She grabs a blanket to wrap around her shoulders as she shivers. I try to get closer to her but she shakes her head and puts her hand out to stop me. I sink back against the wall wishing that I could at least be touching her hand.
"Yes, but at least you were safe. They won't let you get away again. This is your chance to have a real life. You need to grab Octavia and get out of here." She finally says.
"No. O is safe. I am not leaving without you. We can leave now. We can run and find a place together." I slide to the edge of the bed where she is standing now and pull her to me.
Clarke lets out a self-deprecating laugh. "You actually think they would let me leave? Let us leave?"
"No, but if we run they won't be able to stop us or find us." I squeeze her hands that are still holding the blanket up around her.
"I can't." She says and looks away from me.
"Why? I know it's not the best life but we'll be safe. I'll make sure of it." I plead with her.
"It's not that." She groans.
"Then what is it?" I ask not understanding why she can't just leave with me. I try to get her to look at me but she keeps ducking away from my gaze.
"Clarke, please tell me what's going on. Whatever it is we can face it, together." I emphasize the last word.
She still says nothing. She just shakes her head and the tears start falling again. I stand up and brush the wetness away from her cheeks.
"What is it that's so bad you can't leave?" I ask and finally she looks at me.
"I'm pregnant." She says and my heart stops.
"What?" I shout on accident.
"I'm pregnant." She repeats.
"No. I got that. I just what? How is that possible?" I stutter and sink until I'm sitting on the edge of the bed. I look at her closer and see the slight bulge of her stomach. It's barely noticeable.
"You know how." She says in a dry voice.
"Yes, but, but…" My voice trails off. "Why didn't you tell me?"
"I just did." She says.
"We've been here for almost an hour."
"We were a little preoccupied." She blushes.
"If that's true then we need to leave right now." I stand up and grab my clothes.
"It is true and no we can't. They will never let the heir leave." She says and her shoulders slump.
"We can leave now. They won't find us."
"Yes they will. They have people all over and all of the right connections. We will never be safe, but you can go. Disappear. They won't come after you."
"I won't leave you."
"I knew I shouldn't tell you."
"We are in this together and if we have to stay to figure out a better plan then I am with you." I squeeze her shaking hands.
"Bellamy it's not that easy. If we do this we won't be able to get out. They only let me come here because I threatened to kill myself if they wouldn't allow me to say goodbye to you. If you come with me you will be signing your life away. There will never be a chance to get out. We would stay in their world and raise our son there."
"Son?" I ask.
"Yes, I found out yesterday."
"We're going to be a family."
"We're going to be in prison."
"But, we'll be together. I won't lose you again. So if I have to move in with the enemy I will."
"Bell," she argues.
"Princess, you better get used to me because the only way you'll get rid of me is if you kill me and clearly you've seen how hard that is."