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It's All About Finding Yourself - Chapter 29
On the morning of Christmas Eve, Stacie was sitting cross legged on Aubrey's bed, getting overly frustrated at Candy Crush on her phone whilst she waited on Emily waking up with a hangover beside her. Jesse was in the shower and Aubrey was downstairs doing god knows what.
"Oh you mother fucker." Stacie growled, tapping her phone repeatedly, frustrated once again that she couldn't get past the level she had been stuck on for days.
Stacie whipped her head around as she heard a groan from beside her. "Stacie?" Emily's voice was hoarse from sleep as she rubbed her eyes, sitting up whilst looking a little disorientated.
"Hello." Stacie smirked, setting her phone down in front of her.
"What happened?" Emily asked, pressing her hand against her head.
"I kinda gave you too much to drink." Stacie cringed, bracing herself for a deserved yelling at.
"Oh."
"Oh?" Stacie tilted her head to the side.
"I kind of remember now."
"Emily, do you remember what you told us last night?" Stacie asked softly, sitting up onto her knees. Emily tried to rack her brain but she got nothing so she shook her head. "You told us you were gay and that you couldn't tell your parents." Stacie said slowly, placing her hand on the freshman's shoulder.
Emily's eyes widened instantly. "What?!" She shrieked. "No no no no." The younger girl closed her eyes and held her fingers at her temples.
"Em calm down." Stacie shifted herself so that she was kneeling in front of the girl, hands on her shoulders. "Look at me." Emily slowly lifted her head and opened her eyes.
"I didn't want it to come out this way." Emily said quietly. "Oh my god, Aubrey." She added quickly, becoming flustered about what her cousin would think.
"Chill out, you know Beca's gay right? Aubrey doesn't care. She's just worried about you because you've never told her before." Stacie explained gently, running her hands down Emily's arms. "Everything will be fine, okay?"
The freshman nodded and Stacie pulled her in for a hug. It was something about Emily that made Stacie feel like she's known her all her life, it was probably because she's Aubrey's family.
"Hey Stacie cou-oh hey." Jesse walked into Aubrey's bedroom sporting only a towel around his waist as droplets of water dripped from his hair onto his bare chest.
"Wrong room, Aubrey's downstairs." Stacie joked, turning her body around to face Jesse completely.
"Piss off Stacie. I need your help though. I still haven't gotten Aubrey a Christmas present."
"It's Christmas Eve." Emily piped up.
"Exactly. Stacie help me pick something out at the mall." Jesse pleaded, clasping his hands together and shaking them at the girl.
"Shopping? I can handle that. Want to tag along Emily? The adventures of Stacie and Jesse are always fun."
"Sure." Emily quirked her eyebrow with a laugh. They were weirdos but they were lovable weirdos, no wonder their Aubrey's best friend/boyfriend.
"You need to chill out." Chloe scoffed as she ran her brush through her hair in front of the mirror. Her girlfriend was still taking a little strop about last night and it was seriously getting old.
"Chill out?! Really?" Chloe looked at Beca in the mirror who had spun around from where so was standing and started flailing her arms around. "That's the second night in a row. I'm not even shy to admit to the fact that I am beyond sexually frustrated. You drive me crazy and I can't even act upon if because your little sister is afraid of a flash of lightning!" Beca threw her
"Beca she's seven for Christ sake!" Chloe snapped back. "You're ten years older than her, act your age."
"You can't seriously be pinning this on me?" Beca motioned to herself with a scoff.
"I am actually because you're being such a bitch right now it's unreal." Chloe spun around so she was finally facing her frustrated girlfriend.
"How the hell am I being a bitch?"
"You're calling out Emily for being scared of storms when she's only a little girl, Beca. Where's your consideration, honestly." Chloe shook her head, sighing in frustration.
"She could've went to your dad!" Beca exclaimed in disbelief motioning to the door.
"You're an only child, you wouldn't understand why the hell she wanted me instead of dad!" Their voices were getting louder and louder, luckily everyone was already downstairs eating breakfast. "I get that you're pissed off but just do me a favour and don't fucking pin it on my sister." Chloe threw her hair brush onto the bed and Beca watched as it slammed against the headboard before bouncing onto the floor as Chloe left the room.
Beca knew she was in shit now, Chloe didn't use the F bomb unless she was seriously pissed about something.
Chloe stormed down the stairs, trying to ease the anger that Beca had caused within her. This had been their first proper face to face argument and Chloe hated it. Beca was totally in the wrong through.
The redhead walked into the dining room where everyone was already eating breakfast and threw herself onto a chair with a huff.
"Morning Chlo." Her father greeted her with a smile but she ignored him. "Where's Beca?" Chloe shrugged her shoulders not wanting to make conversation but just then, Beca entered the room and took a seat, looking anywhere but Chloe.
Evan looked between the two girls, acknowledging their lack of interest in each other. He didn't push for anything though, knowing if that something happened, they could fix it themselves. They are in a relationship that's starting to get pretty serious after all.
Jesse pulled up into the mall's parking lot in his Camaro. He had finally got it up and running but it still looked in need of a good paint job. Stacie stepped out of the car and pulled her seat forward so Emily could get out the back. "I can't believe Aubrey managed to rope us into buying the groceries before her parents get back." Stacie whined, looking over the list Aubrey had given her.
"Aubrey has her ways of wrapping you round her little finger." Emily chuckled once they began walking after Jesse locked the car.
"You got that right." Jesse and Stacie said in unison, stopping in their tracks to stare at each other with wide eyes. "Jinx bitch." Once again, they spoke at the same time. "Double jinx...buy me a coke...holy crap call guinness." The two best friends were taking aback as they kept saying the same thing together. "Shit! Oh my god."
"Please never do that in public again. Ever." Emily was covering her face in embarrassment as they caught the attention of some bypassers.
The trio decided they would discuss ideas over coffee so that's how they found themselves sitting in a booth at Starbucks. Jesse picked his phone up off the table as it buzzed, signalling he had a message. "It's from Aubrey. 'Can you buy me a coffee on your way back baby?'" He read off, smiling to himself.
"Oo 'baby'." Stacie teased, Jesse ignoring her as he typed out a reply. "Okay Jess, what's the budget?" She asked, tapping her nails on the table as she raised her cup to her lips.
"Two hundred dollars."
Stacie choked back her coffee sending her into a coughing fit in which Emily had to stop by smacking her back.
"Why are you spending so much on her?" Emily asked on behalf of herself and Stacie who was still recovering.
"Well I love her and I want to get her something nice." Jesse shrugged.
"Where the hell did you get the money? Aubrey's loose change in her pocket?" Stacie asked with a laugh.
"I've just been doing jobs here and there. Anyway what should I get her?" Jesse clasped his hands around his coffee and awaited some answers from the two girls.
"Uh how about..." Stacie tapped her finger on the lid of her coffee cup as she stared out the shop window. "Jewellery?"
"Oh that could work."
After breakfast, Chloe and Beca still hadn't said each other, even when Emily was the only thing separating them on the couch. The silence was deafening.
"Girls what's wrong?" Evan sighed, finally getting sick of the two teenagers' immaturity.
"Nothing." Chloe mumbled in response.
"Maybe you should just forget whatever happened?" Jo offered gently and the two girls glanced at each other before turning away again.
"You guys shouldn't fight." Beca and Chloe both looked down at the little voice that spoke up between them. "I'm sorry for coming into your room again, I promise I won't do it again." Emily took one of Beca's hands and one of Chloe's in her own. "You're like each other's princess." The seven year old smiled as she connected the older girls' hands together.
Beca and Chloe looked at each other again as neither of them pulled their hands away.
"Oh girls." Jo sang and the two teenagers looked up to find the older woman, dangling mistletoe above them. Emily slid off the couch and excitedly awaited for Chloe and Beca to kiss. Beca bit back a smile to her girlfriend.
"Ah what the hell." Chloe shrugged, letting go of Beca's hand to place it on her cheek instead as she kissed her softly. "Why is it so hard to stay mad at you?" She asked, her forehead resting against Beca's.
"I am so sorry." Beca apologised, throwing her arms around her girlfriend, pulling her in for a huge hug.
"Don't worry about it." Chloe assured,pulling away and giving Beca one last kiss on the lips.
"Now that that's over with we can finally tell you girls that we're going to go out for dinner tonight." Evan explained with a slight chuckle.
"Hey what about these?" Stacie pointed at a pair of earrings through the glass and Jesse came up beside her to have a look.
"I said two hundred not two grand, Stacie." Jesse rolled his eyes as he went over to check out the necklaces instead.
"Do you need a hand, sir?" A perky young woman from behind the counter caught Jesse's attention from browsing the many necklaces on display.
"Uh yeah actually. I'm looking for something for my girlfriend." Jesse explained with a smile.
"Ah I see, is there anything in particular that you're looking for?" She asked kindly.
"Something simple but beautiful, she hates big statement pieces." Jesse explained with a nod as he let his eyes cast over the jewellery. Aubrey did have a lot of money but she hated extravagant and fancy pieces to show off that she has the money to actually buy things like that.
"I think I have the perfect idea." The woman winked which made Jesse slightly uncomfortable as she reached into the cabinet and placed the necklace gently on top of the glass for him to see. It was a silver heart pendant on a chain. Simple yet beautiful, definitely Aubrey's taste.
"It's perfect." A grin stretched across Jesse's face as he lifted his head up to look at the woman who as well, had a smile on her face. "How much? Stacie, Emily come look at this."
"A hundred and ten dollars." The woman replied just as Emily and Stacie made their way over, going into awe once they saw the necklace.
"It's so pretty." Emily whispered.
"I'll take it." Jesse said, pulling his wallet out of his back pocket, removing his bank card as the woman led them over to pay.
"She's a lucky girl." The woman smiled as she placed the box into a bag.
"Well I'm a lucky guy." Jesse countered with a shrug and smile as he took the bag from her, sliding his wallet back into his pocket.
"I'm sure she'll love it. Thank you for shopping." Jesse could only take one more of her winks before he lead Stacie abs Emily out of the shop.
"She creeped me out, she kept winking. It was weird." Jesse shuddered making the girls laugh.
"Hey Jesse, since you have some money left over, why don't you get something to go along with the necklace?" Stacie suggested, looping her arm through Jesse's.
"Like what?" He asked.
"I have something in mind." Stacie looked to the left and Jesse followed her eyes.
"Stacie we're not going into Victoria's Secret." Jesse rolled his eyes and Stacie stopped in her tracks, turning the taller boy around to look at her.
"Do you want to sleep with her or not?" Stacie asked seriously and Emily's eyes just widened from beside them. That was her cousin they were talking about.
"When she's ready, yes but how is buying her underwear supposed to do that?" Jesse asked, motioning his hand in the direction of the store.
"Oh my dear friend, you've got a lot to learn." Stacie shook her head, throwing her arm around Jesse's shoulders, leading him towards Victoria's Secret with Emily following them closely. "You see if you buy her a sexy set of underwear, she'll get the message that you're ready to have sex with her and then maybe she'll come round herself." Stacie explained as they were walking into the store.
"Why do I trust you?" He whined.
"Because when it comes to sex, you always have to trust me." Stacie stated proudly.
"Oh so this isn't just an ordinary underwear job, you're leading me over to the lingerie section." Jesse allowed Stacie to drag him through the shop. His eyes darted from side to side, there was too many bras and panties for him to handle. "This isn't a place for a dude."
"Seriously? it's every guy's dream is it not?" Stacie began browsing through the lingerie whilst Jesse stood there awkwardly and Emily was too engrossed in her phone.
"That's why." Jesse deadpanned. "Can we just get this over and done with, I feel awkward enough."
"She suits red by the way." Stacie ignored what Jesse had just said and held up a set of red laced underwear. Jesse took in the undergarments, imagining his girlfriend in the red lace.
"Oh god." He practically groaned, shaking the image from his head before a problem started down under.
"I'll take that as a yes." Stacie sniggered. "What size of bra does she wear again?"
"I don't know." Jesse furrowed his brow as if to say 'How am I supposed to know?'
"You're her boyfriend, how do you not know her bra size?"
"I don't know, I don't just snoop through her underwear drawers! Why don't you know? You three know everything about each other." Jesse protested, regarding Aubrey, Stacie and Beca.
"I forget these things okay? What I do know though is that she does wear the same size as Beca."
"That doesn't help Stacie." Jesse shook his head with a sigh. "And no before you ask I don't know Beca's cup size either."
"Ugh you're so useless, I'll call her." Stacie rolled her eyes and called Beca's number.
"Hello?"
"Beca what bra size are you again?" Stacie looked at Emily who was just shaking her head laughing at the whole situation.
"Why is everyone asking me this lately?" Stacie furrowed her brow, not wanting to get into detail.
"Jesse's trying to buy Aubrey underwear for Christmas but he doesn't know her size, she still wears the same sized bra as you right?"
"Holy shit, Jesse's buying her lingerie?!' Beca laughed down the phone. "But yeah she's still the same size as me, a 34B."
"Thank you, I'll talk to you later!" Stacie hung up her phone and slid it into her pocket. "34B" She informed Jesse before they started searching for the right size.
"I don't know why I agreed to come, this has been one of the oddest shopping trips of my life." Emily commented, shaking her head with a laugh. She did enjoy herself because it took her mind off her coming out accident that occurred the previous night.
Later on that evening, it was almost time to leave for the dinner reservations at the restaurant so everyone was getting ready to leave apart from Chloe who had been upstairs.
"I'm not going." Chloe announced as she walked into the living room, cutting off everyone's conversations.
"Why not?" George asked.
"I think I'm coming down with something, I just threw up in the toilet." Chloe groaned, pressing the back of her hand to her sweaty forehead as she sat down on the couch next to her grandmother.
"Oh dear." Jo pressed her hand to her granddaughter's cheek. Beca on the other hand gave her girlfriend a funny look, she was pretty sure she was feeling fine like ten minutes ago.
"Well we can cancel if you want honey?" Evan offered, standing up to remove his jacket.
"No no-" Chloe cut him off but then was cut off herself by Beca.
"No it's fine, I'll stay with her." Beca said, standing up from the chair to take a seat on the arm of the couch beside where Chloe was sitting. The redhead smiled up at Beca who gladly returned the smile.
"Thanks Beca." Evan smiled at the brunette before they started to leave. "We'll be back later, call me if you feel any worse."
"I'll meet you out at the car, I'll make sure Chloe will be fine." Jo called after them before disappearing off into the kitchen.
"Grandma, I'll be fine." Chloe rolled her eyes once her grandmother returned to the room with a bucket and a blanket.
"You might be fine but my carpet won't if you decide to be sick again." Jo warned jokingly. "Now lie down." Chloe laughed as she pulled her feet up onto the couch as her grandma threw the blanket over her and left the bucket beside her. "I'll see you when we get back, girls."
"Bye." The two teenagers called in unison. "I'm just gonna get my laptop, I'll be back in a sec."
As soon as Beca disappeared away upstairs Chloe got up off the couch, taking the blanket with her. She lit the fire before laying the blanket down on the floor in front of it. Moving quickly around the room, Chloe drew the curtains and turned the main light off, switching on the lamp instead.
Once Chloe heard Beca walking back down the stairs she quickly sat down on top of the blanket and unbuttoned the next button down on her blouse, revealing more of her cleavage.
"What am I looking at?" Beca asked as she stopped herself short at the door, looking at Chloe with a raised eyebrow.
"We're home alone and I need you right now." Chloe's voiced lowered as Beca slowly walked towards her in confusion.
"Literally five minutes ago you were ready to spew your guts." Beca dropped to her knees beside Chloe and opened her laptop. Chloe shuffled on her knees behind Beca and began rubbing the brunette's shoulders.
"It was all an act to get them out the house without us."
"I like your style babe." Beca grinned, tilting her head to the side as Chloe began kissing her neck. Chloe reached forward and shut Beca's laptop before running her hands up the front of Beca's body.
"I told you I wanted this to be special for you. I wanted everyone out of the house so we don't have to be quiet." Chloe practically purred into her girlfriend's ear, sending the tiny brunette's hormones into overdrive.
Beca placed her laptop on the table and turned around to face Chloe, lowering the redhead down onto her back, connecting their lips.
"You're so beautiful." Chloe smiled up at Beca as the brunette began unbuttoning the rest of the buttons on the redhead's blouse.
Beca smiled shyly down at her hands as she popped open the last button before pushing the article of clothing off of Chloe's shoulders, the said girl sitting up slightly so she could discard of it properly.
Beca kissed her way up from Chloe's waistband of her jeans up to the underwire of her bra. "It's your first time, you should get to go first." Chloe tried to switch their positions but Beca stopped her by pinning her girlfriend's hands above her head.
"No I want to make you feel amazing first." Beca's voice was low with desire, her lips ghosting against Chloe's. Chloe was about to protest but the way Beca started rocking against her between her legs made her lose train of thought.
"Clothes." Chloe said breathlessly, her hands going for the hem of Beca's shirt before tugging at it. Beca sat up and took her shirt off, throwing it to the side. Both girls unbuttoned and unzipped their own jeans, quickly discarding before returning to their previous position except now they only had their underwear on.
The fact that they were only in their underwear hit Beca hard. This was it. This was when they were finally going to have sex. Everything hit Beca all of a sudden that she instantly became nervous which Chloe could sense straight away.
"Baby are you okay?" Chloe reached up and stroked Beca's flushed cheek with her hand.
"I just don't know if I'm gonna be any good at this." Beca said honestly. "What if I can't make you feel good and then you feel bad for me so you fake your orgasm?" Beca rambled on but it only made Chloe smile at her. "Why are you smiling?"
"Because you're already doing a great job." Chloe whispered, taking Beca's trembling hand in her own, guiding it between their bodies until she pressed her girlfriend's hand against the crotch of her underwear.
"Y-you're already-" Beca was tripping over her words so Chloe grabbed the back of her neck, roughly reconnecting their lips with tongue instantly becoming introduced. Chloe moaned into the kiss once Beca's fingers from the hand she had to guide down started to move around her most sensitive area.
"Are you surprised that I'm worked up this easy? I've waited ages for this." Chloe hummed against Beca's lips as she propped herself on her elbow as Beca reached behind her, popping her bra open before throwing it to the side.
The desire and heat between them was unreal, the heavy breathing, the moans they elicited from each other all added to their arousal.
Chloe tangled her fingers in Beca's hair and threw her head back with a gasp as Beca continued to work her bundle of nerves through her panties but also go to town on her chest with her tongue.
"Fuck me already, Beca." Chloe pleaded and the desperation in her voice triggered something in Beca.
The brunette sat up and hooked the sides of Chloe's underwear with her thumbs, pulling the undergarment down her legs painfully slow, enjoying the way Chloe wriggled and squirmed, trying to create friction.
"God you're so beautiful." Beca moaned as she slowly slid a finger inside Chloe, the redhead moaning loudly that it made Beca do the same. The way Chloe's eyes rolled into the back of her head once Beca added another finger before starting a slow rhythm made the heat in the pit of the brunette's stomach spread like wildfire.
Beca dragged her tongue across Chloe's neck, feeling the vibration of the younger girl's moan as her fingers quickened the pace.
"Oh my god I love you so much." Chloe whimpered in arousal, Beca's tongue and fingers dragging her closer to the edge.
"You know before we were even going out I had a dream about you." Beca whispered into her girlfriend's ear sensually. "It was so hot that I woke up all hot and bothered." She continued and Chloe's eyes fluttered shut, taking her bottom lip between her teeth, writhing against Beca's fingers as she imagined what her girlfriend was telling her. "I tried to get to sleep but I couldn't,I was so turned on that I just had to touch myself to the thought of you." Chloe whimpered again.
"Baby please go faster, I'm so close." Chloe was almost breathless now, her breathing becoming ragged as Beca quickly obliged and pumped her fingers even faster now. Chloe moaning uncontrollably with every thrust as she began to tighten around Beca's fingers.
Beca used her other hand to lift her up slightly so she could be face to face with Chloe, their lips only inches away. "Look at me." Beca commanded. The firmness in her voice almost sent Chloe over the edge right there and then but she did what she was told and opened her eyes to be met with Beca's which were practically black.
Chloe was loving this confident side of Beca during sex, it was such a turn on especially when she talked dirty to her.
"Oh-m-my god...Beca, I'm gonn-" Chloe cut herself off with a loud groan, her body trembling with pleasure once Beca hit that right spot inside her that sent her flying off the edge.
"That was so hot." Beca whispered, finally retracting her fingers once she helped Chloe ride her high.
"That...was so amazing...no one's ever talked dirty to me during sex and oh my god, it made it ten times better." Chloe's chest was still heaving as she tried to regain her breath before she needed to return the favour.
"I'm glad we waited till no one was around because you're so loud." Beca teased before Chloe flipped her over, reversing their positions. The redhead quickly got rid of her girlfriend's bra.
"Babe you're soaked." Chloe purred, dragging her finger teasingly up Beca's damp underwear, making the brunette groan in frustration mixed with arousal.
"Chloe please." Beca begged and Chloe positioned herself between the girls legs.
"Eager are we?" Chloe teased as she quickly discarded Beca's underwear. "I don't even have to get you worked up either because you're all ready to go." Chloe slowly entered a finger into Beca, testing the waters and seeing how Beca adjusts, keeping in mind that this was her first time ever having sex.
Beca quickly became used to the feeling and started moving herself against Chloe's finger, asking for more. The redhead added another digit, eliciting a low moan from her girlfriend. "Fuck Chloe." Beca drew in a sharp breath as her girlfriend's fingers slowly started to move in and out. This was the first time this has ever happened to her, yeah she masturbated but she never fingered herself like Chloe's doing to her right now but god it felt amazing.
"I'm going to make you feel amazing,baby." Chloe gave Beca a sultry smirk as she pulled her fingers out much to Beca's displeasure. Chloe dragged her tongue across her fingers before enveloping her mouth around them, making Beca's eyes widen.
"Holy fuck." Beca breathed, her centre throbbing just from watching Chloe do something she never thought she would find remotely arousing but damn.
Chloe threw Beca's legs over her shoulders and Beca raised an eyebrow. "What're you - fucking hell!" Beca cut her words off as her body seized up in pleasure once Chloe dragged her tongue up her sex before pressing it against her clit. Chloe added her fingers once again, creating a slow rhythm whilst her tongue continued to work its magic. "Oh my-my god - Chloe!" Beca almost screamed out in pleasure, Chloe increasing her arousal at double to speed.
Every since Beca had been with Chloe there had been a few times where Beca had thought she had never been so turned on in her life. Well Chloe was managing to top those times for her.
Beca laced her hands through Chloe's hair, pushing her impossibly closer to where she needed her the most as she was heading to orgasm embarrassingly fast. "Chloe-fuck." Beca choked out, her moans and breaths becoming increasingly ragged.
Chloe groaned against Beca, the vibrations going straight to Beca's arousal. The brunette was rocking against her girlfriend's tongue and fingers now, rapidly chasing her orgasm.
"Holy shit Chloe." Beca seriously couldn't get an even breath in. "I'm so close." She groaned loudly, continuing to rock against her girlfriend who apparently got the memo and started moving her fingers and tongue faster, driving the short brunette insane. "C-Chlo I don't think I-oh shit-hold out for much longer." As embarrassingly fast as it is, with Chloe using her fingers and tongue Beca couldn't hold off this orgasm if her life depended on it.
Chloe lifted her head up to lock eyes with Beca. "Just let go Beca." She assured, curling her fingers up to hit Beca's G-spot which made the girl see stars, falling off the edge with the most intense orgasm she had ever experienced.
Beca lay there, staring up at the ceiling as she tried to regain her breath. She had just had sex. Sex with Chloe. Amazing sex at that.
"Best. Orgasm. Ever." Beca commented breathlessly, her chest still heaving. Chloe cuddled up next to Beca, enjoying each other's company in their post orgasmic bliss.
"Why thank you." Chloe giggled, propping herself onto her side by her elbow. "Glad you waiting past the cockblocking?"
"Oh my god, so glad. Although it's kinda weirding me out now that we just had sex on your Grandma's floor." Beca laughed as she looked around her.
Chloe gave her girlfriend a playful slap across the head. "Don't ruin the moment. I'll have you know I'm an after sex cuddler."
"Well you cuddle all the time anyway so it's not something I have to get used to." Beca winked.
"Can we go upstairs? Cuddling on the floor isn't really appealing to me right now."
"Oh but sex on the floor is?" Beca challenged and Chloe couldn't help but laugh at the typical comment from Beca.
After tonight, the girls felt so much incredibly closer to each other, the trust had grown, the love had grown and the passion had grown. They may only be sixteen and seventeen but they knew that the time was right for them to take that step. They had always loved each other in their relationship but being able to express that love on a more physical level meant the world to them. Merry Christmas to Beca and Chloe indeed.
Bechloe sex anyone? XD I hope to god this smut wasn't too cringey for you guys? As always, tell me all your thoughts! :D