I opened my eyes when I heard the door open as my sister yelled for me to get up, pointing out that I was going to be late.
I tried to get up, but the fatigue made it impossible to get it, undoubtedly, being awake was not the best thing to do if the next day you had to get up early.
"Kaelah, I'm serious" she said entering the room. "What have you been doing at night?" She questioned, making me look at her for a couple of seconds, thinking of the answer.
"Nothing ..., it's just ... I didn't sleep well" I answered closing my eyes wanting to keep everything inside me, not letting her know anything, "I'm tired."
"No excuse, so start preparing, because I'm serious, there is no time" she said before leaving.
I decided to listen to her, so I began to prepare, giving me the greatest hurry I could, however, my sister seemed even more upset than before, making me more nervous having her screaming all the time.
She took me practically running to the door of high school alleging that she had to arrive soon to CatCo.
"Alex's coming to pick you up, okay?" She said, hugging me against her. "I'll see you later, have a nice day." She smiled.
"You too," I smiled back, watching her go.
I spent all morning distracted, not paying attention in class, because my own tiredness and memories of the night before did not allow me to concentrate, making me stay in my world most of the time, without even hearing what Jean had been telling me throughout the day.
I wanted to get home, to relax for a couple of minutes, however, that seemed to be delayed, because Alex had already been in charge of telling me that she would arrive later, so I had to wait for her, despite my desire to leave home alone.
"Hey, who do you have to wait for someone today?" Jean asked, startling me as he sat next to me. "I'm sorry I scared you." He smiled.
"It's okay," I smiled back. "Alex told me it was going to take a while," I said.
"Then I'll wait with you, if you don't mind," he said, staring at me, receiving my approval.
The silence took possession of both of us for a couple of minutes, during which we simply looked forward, until I began to feel myself watched by him, getting me to look at him without understanding what was happening.
"There's something I want to tell you, but I don't know how to do it, I'm afraid that this might break our friendship," he began, looking me straight in the eye, making me nervous, giving me a faint idea of where he might be headed. "Kaelah, I ... , I don't see you just like a friend ... "he said while I was trying to stop him, but without succeeding, he continued speaking" I have other kinds of feelings for you, but I don't know if you have them as well "he looked at me causing me to bend my head , Keeping silent, because I really did not dare say the slightest word. "Kaelah, say something, please" he pleaded raising my face, making sure I was looking at him.
I averted my face without daring to hold his gaze, to respond to him, for fear of what might happen, for I was sure that after this our relationship would not be the same.
My feelings did not belong to him, the only name that now assaulted my head was Zyan, it was obvious that I was not going to do it, but I was afraid to hurt him.
"Jean ..., I can't" I shook my head. "I'm sorry, I don't feel the same, I don't ..." I remained silent putting my head in my hands, identifying Alex. "I ... I have to go" I whispered standing up without receiving any kind of response from him. "Jean ..."
"No, it's okay, you didn't have to do it, it was a risk I had to take" he tried to smile at me.
"Are you ... sure?" I asked nervously.
"Yes, I think you should go," he replied coldly, bowing his head, not even looking at me.
I sighed, advancing toward Alex, turning to look at him for the last time, noticing how he was watching me, how disappointment was on his face, making me feel completely guilty for this situation, for having hurt him, however, I decided to put him aside , well I tried, resuming my way.
"Can we go home?" I asked in a whisper.
"I thought we were going to go to have lunch." She looked at me worried. "Are you okay?"
"Yes, I just want to go home, I have homework and exams," I said, trying to convince her to get us out of there.
Once at home I locked myself in my room, lying down in bed not wanting to do something or simply to think, however, there were so many things that were stored in my head that I could not stop doing it, having the feeling that at some point it was going to explode.
I was not ready for this to happen, and simply the fact that it had happened the day after my aunt had appeared in the middle of the night, only managed to tear me even more. At the moment I needed support, I needed my best friend, but the truth is that at the moment I did not see it possible, because all this was going to get us distanced, that we were not able to be together without feeling uncomfortable.
"Kaelah, hey, what's wrong?" Alex asked, sitting down on the edge of the bed. "It's for Jean."
I looked at her, confused, trying to understand how she knew, but I could not find words to explain myself, because at the moment all I wanted was to start crying, so I did not stop tears from coming out of my eyes.
She wiped my tears before stroking my hair, allowing me to vent, without asking any more about it, waiting for me to calm down enough so that I could speak out.
"He said he liked me," I whispered through tears.
"Really? You said you don't feel the same, did you? "She asked, stroking my hair, receiving a statement from me before I was absorbed in my own thoughts." What are you thinking?
"Zyan," I replied. "And everything is going to be very different from what it was like, he ... he's ... he was my best friend and now ... we're not going to be able to talk to each other," I explained between sobs. "I broke his heart, "I said, getting up.
" Do you know what we are going to do?" she looked at me making me shook my head. "We are going to go to the living room to wait for Kara and then we are going to see a movie, okay?" She commented.
I nodded slightly before following her into the living room, sitting next to her, curling up in one of the blankets before resting my head on her shoulder as I closed my eyes.
"Kaelah, I know it's going to be difficult, but you have to give him some time," she whispered, hugging me.
"How much?" I asked, looking at her, hoping she would have an answer.
"I don't know, maybe a couple of days or weeks," she replied. "But it's the best you can do, give yourself some time, too"
I nodded in silence, knowing it was the right thing to do, but not knowing how to do it, because I honestly saw it as too difficult.
We both looked at the door as it opened, allowing my sister to enter.
"I bring dinner," she said with a smile. "What is it? My day has not been very good so that if something bad had happened... "she warned, approaching, leaving the pizza box on the table.
"What happened to you?" Alex asked.
"Winn ..." she whispered sitting on the other side. "Let's say that our friendship has been ruined, you should have seen his face," she explained making me rather surprised.
"Did you agree to this?" Alex asked, laughing.
"Why? Oh, Kaelah, "Kara whispered, looking at me." Jean? "
I nodded as I accepted the slice she was offering me, still amazed that this was possible, that on the same day we would have lost our respective best friends, for the truth is that all this seemed a joke to me.
"For the Danvers' Sisters, we should come with warning," Alex said.
I smiled slightly at her comment, trying to forget everything that had happened during the last few hours, concentrating solely on what was happening at that time, trying to relax, stop looking for solutions to my problems, but above all, enjoying my family.