It has been a week, and Narvel is currently discussing wedding plans with me. I have barely gotten out of bed these past few days, and I feel miserable.
"I really don't care what we do anymore." I said to him.
We are sitting at my kitchen table, and I have my head laying in the palm of my hand.
Narvel sighed and looked at me. I know he was hurting as badly as I was, and was just trying to help me feel better, but I wish he would stop.
"Reba, we need to discuss this."
"No we don't."
Narvel rubbed his hands across his face in frustration. "Would you rather just forget the wedding then? Do you even still want to get married?" he was getting upset. The loss of our son has taken a toll on our relationship.
I stood up. "I can't believe you would even think that!" I stormed out of the kitchen.
He followed me and grabbed my arm spinning me back around to look at me.
"I didn't mean it like that. I just don't know what you want anymore, Reba."
"You know what I want? I want my son back, that's what I want."
I turned back around and just went into our bedroom, slamming and locking the door behind me.
Ronnie was released from the hospital, and is back home with Janine. He is doing very good, and we are very proud of him. There is still a lot of tension between him and Narvel, but we are moving to get past it.
Kix, Ronnie, and I are going to have a talk tonight and discuss all that has happened. We want to put everything onto the table, and have nothing left in the open, I think it's the best thing to do.
I stayed in my room until it was time to meet with them. I was avoiding Narvel. I know that is a horrible thing to do, he is going through the same thing I am going through, but I just want to be away from him at the moment.
We had agreed to meet at Kix office. I parked my car, and walked in. I noticed Ronnie and Kix were already here. I knocked on his door and let myself in. Kix was sitting behind his desk and Ronnie was sitting at a chair in front of Kix desk, I sat in a chair next to Ronnie.
"Hey." I greeted them as I sat down.
"Hey red." Ronnie greeted me with a smile.
"Reba." Kix also greeted me with an equal smile.
We started off with a little small talk, just discussing what was going on with our lives. Nobody knew how to bring up the subject that we came here for.
After a moment of silence, I was the first one to bring it up. "So, where do we start?"
"I guess from the beginning." said Kix.
"Well, who would like to start."
"I will." said Kix. "I know you two were upset with me for going on live TV and discussing your business, and I don't blame you. Ronnie, you and I had gotten into an argument the night before, because I was angry with how you treated Reba. And I wanted to get back, and it was just the wrong place at the wrong time, and I acted before I thought. I never meant to hurt either one of you and I really am sorry for that."
"I have to admit, it was a shock. Narvel, Shelby, and I" it was hard saying Shelby's name. "were visiting my family, and Pake told me to go see this. They had you on the news talking to the reporters and I was mad. I have to admit that I was mad for awhile, I felt like I was stabbed in the back. Honestly, though, I have forgiven you, Kix, I really have." he smiled at me, and a look of relief came across his face.
"I remember that fight, and I was sitting at home with Janine when I saw that. I was pissed also, I couldn't believe you would do that. But I was over it a long time ago, you're my brother, I can't stay mad at you, and I don't blame you for being mad at me that night."
This seemed to be going very well.
I felt it was my turn.
I turned to Ronnie, as there was a lot to say to him. "Ronnie, I was mad at you for the longest time. You really hurt me, pretty much destroyed me. I wasn't mad at you attacking me, I got over that, I was mad at you for leaving me like I was nothing. You made me feel like our relationship never meant anything, like it was a mistake. I loved you so much, it was different with you then when I was with Narvel, I don't know how to explain it, it just was. I wanted to be with you forever, I think it's a big reason why we ended all ties. But I am over it, and I missed you a lot, I missed my best friend." I looked over to Kix. "I missed both of my best friends." Kix smiled and squeezed my hand.
I turned back to Ronnie who had tears in his eyes.
"I never once thought our relationship was a mistake, I loved you, a lot. Honestly, a big reason why I went back to Janine was because I felt I didn't deserve you, you deserved better. I didn't know how to break it off, and I was being very selfish for it. I never meant to hurt you as badly as I had, but I couldn't forgive myself for hurting you in the ways I did, and I felt you needed a push. I was an asshole to you, both of you, and I really am sorry."
I was tearing up myself. The words we all said were very genuine and from the heart, and you could tell, you could feel it.
I stood up and hugged them both tightly. I felt like this was a big step in making amends with one another, this was exactly what we needed.