WARNING: This chapter contains sexually explicit material. Viewer discretion is strongly advised.

Chapter 20

Tobias

I don't want to get up today. I just want to lay here, in Tris's arms, and forget everything Axel told us last night. But we can't do that. This isn't something we can just ignore, and wait out in Dauntless while it passes over our heads. This is life or death. The fate of the world is in our hands.
I open my eyes and stare at the roof of our bedroom. It's black, just like everything else in my apartment. I've been tempted to paint something on it, but I haven't really been able to find the time, considering my girlfriend almost died and all that good stuff. Maybe Tris and I can paint it together. I make a mental note to ask her about it later. I feel her stir in my arms, and she groans. She stretches and yawns, and I smile. She's so adorable when she wakes up. I kiss her forehead gently. "Good morning, gorgeous," I say, and she squints up at me.
"Morning, handsome," she replies, and gives me a sleepy half-smile. She yawns again and rubs the sleep out of her eyes. Her yawning must be contagious, because I yawn too, and soon we're yawning together every two minutes. (A/N: I literally yawned when writing that line.)
I lean in as if to kiss her, but instead I rub my nose against hers, and she smiles. I melt inside every time Tris smiles. "Did you sleep alright?" I ask her, and she shrugs. "Meh, okay, I guess. I was kind of restless. How was your sleep?" I sigh. "The bit that I got was okay," I lie, because it really wasn't. But I don't want Tris to worry over nothing. After Tris fell asleep, I lay awake for hours, thinking about our bad luck. It seems like we'll never be able to just live a peaceful life together, and I hate that. I just want to make Tris happy, and it's hard to do that when you're constantly fighting a war. She frowns at me. "Are you okay?" she asks, and I nod. "Yeah, I just had a bit of trouble sleeping. I'm fine." And I lower my lips to hers to reassure her.
After kissing softly, we lay there wrapped in each others arms, not moving or speaking. We savour the moment, because in our lives, who knows when we'll get another one like it? "Tobias?" she mumbles against my chest. Even the feel of her lips on my chest sends a shiver of desire down my spine, but I supress it for now. "Yes?"
"I love you." I smile, and she looks up at me. I look into her eyes and lose myself in the pools of piercing grey. I feel safe in those eyes, like nothing could ever hurt me. And I know that it's true because Tris wouldn't let anything hurt me.
"I love you too, Tris." I kiss her cheek, then her nose, her forehead, her other cheek, and her chin before gently pressing my lips to hers again. I don't continue the kiss, instead letting our lips linger. Just the feel of her lips on mine is enough for me.
"Can we just stay in bed today?" I ask her, and she nods enthusiastically. "Yeah, I don't really feel like doing much. Maybe we can watch movies or something." She sounds hopeful, and I can't really deny her that. I want to spend quality time with her too. I look down at her and grin. "Sounds like a plan. But, let's shower and stuff first. Care to join?" I smirk at her, and I can see the lust enter her eyes. Wordlessly, she grabs my hand and practically drags me into the bathroom.
*WARNING: SEXUALLY EXPLICIT MATERIAL. SKIP AHEAD IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT*
She close the door behind us, and slams me against it. She crushes my lips to hers, hard enough that it could almost leave a bruise, and a guttural moan tears from my throat. She moves her lips to my earlobe, nibbling on it for a few seconds before giving me hickeys all across my neck.
I moan the whole time she's kissing me, and eventually she makes her way back to my lips. She my lower lip, hard, and we moan each others names. I lift her arms up, and she flings the shirt she was wearing into the shower, but I don't really care. I have more shirts. I lift her up and she wraps her legs around my waist. The only thing separating our bodies are my briefs and her lingerie bottoms. I suck and bite on her neck, and she arches into me. She tangles her fingers in my hair, and I moan. "Mmmmm... Tobiassss..." she whispers, letting me know she wants more. She jumps onto the ground and fumbles with my underwear before getting them off. I am still pressed against the door, and I reach up to grasp a hook made for bathrobes as Tris kisses her way down my body. I moan as she french kisses my navel, and places one hand on my thigh. She wraps one of her hands around me and I gasp. She uses one hand to gently cup my balls, and the other grasps my member. She licks up and down me, and I tangle my fingers in her hair. She looks up at me, and winks. While she's staring into my eyes, she takes me into her mouth, and it takes everything I have not to finish right away. I groan as she gently sucks me off, gradually increasing the pace. She takes a deep breath, and when I think she's finished, she takes every inch of me into her mouth. I can feel myself hitting the back of her throat, and she makes a gagging sound before taking her mouth off me. She attacks me, and my knees get weak as I feel myself nearing the edge.
Right before I unload, Tris stops completely and walks over to turn the shower on. She takes her shirt out and chucks it in the laundry hamper.
I, meanwhile, slump against the door, trying to catch my breath. She turns around and looks at me. "Something wrong, honey?" she asks, and I stare at her like she's crazy. "I... What... Wow." I manage to get out, and she laughs at me before taking her underwear off and beckoning me towards her. I manage to find the strength to walk over to our shower, and get in with Tris. She reaches for the bar of soap, and we lather each other with it before rinsing off.
I let my hands linger on her body, touching every inch of her. I can't get enough; she's like heroin to me. I close my eyes as she turns me around and traces the tattoos on my back. She wraps her arms around my waist and hugs me tight. She kisses the scars on my back, and I shudder.
Luckily, our shower has a small bench opposite the shower head, because in moments like these I wouldn't really know where else to go. Tris turns me around and kisses me harder than she ever has before. When she finishes and sits down on the bench, I'm gasping for air. She smirks at me oh so sexily and spreads her legs. I get down on my knees between her smooth legs, and kiss from her neck to her breasts. I knead one while I nibble on the other, and then switch.
After a few minutes of that, I kiss down to her womanhood, and give her a hickey on each thigh before gently flicking my tongue against her nub. At the contact, her back arches and she gasps my name, which turns me on even more. I insert two fingers into her, and gently suck on her clit until she comes undone, screaming my name as she presses my face to her. After she comes down, I crash my lips against hers. She murmurs an "I love you" against my lips, and I look into her eyes. I have no words for this moment, so I try to put all my emotions in my gaze. It must work, because tears well up in her eyes.

Tris

I feel tears build behind my eyes as Tobias and I look at each other. He's trying to convey his emotions with his eyes, I think because if he talks he'll get emotional,
and it works. I pull him close and hold him, letting the hot water run over us.
I out my mouth by his ear and whisper to him.
"Make love to me, Tobias." He pulls back and looks at me in shock. I've never really been this bold before, and his reaction is priceless. I turn him around and push him onto the bench, but not forcefully. Gently. This isn't frenzied sex; it's passionate love making. And I love every second of it.
He sits on the bench, and I straddle him. I look into eyes as I guide him into me. We gasp together as he fills me completely, like we are made for this, and maybe we are at that.
I press my forehead to his and cup his face with my hands as he sets a slow rhythm for us. We kiss softly while we make love. I scratch his back, and he moans my name.
I can feel myself approaching the edge again, and I beg him to go faster.
"Mmm... Tobias... Oh my GOD... Harder... Faster!" I manage to gasp out, and he obliges. Just as I reach my orgasm, I feel him swell and empty himself into me. I scream his name, and he releases a guttural moan. We stay like that for a while, catching our breath, before he slides out of me and we stand up. I hug him, pressing my ear to his chest so I can hear his still racing heartbeat. He wraps his arms around me and burys his face in my hair. I don't know how long we stay like that; all I know is the water starts to get cold, and we get out. We wrap towels around ourselves and walk out of the bathroom hand in hand.

Tobias and I both slip on a pair of sweats and matching T-shirts; his says "hers" and mine reads "his", both in huge block letters. I love them. I kiss his cheek as we walk into the kitchen. "What do you want to eat?" I ask him, and he thinks about it for a second.
"How does mac and cheese sound?" he decides, and I nod my head. "Sounds good to me." Tobias walks to the cupboard and pulls out a pot, filling it with water while I dig for a box of macaroni and cheese. Whether it be in the kitchen, in combat, or life in general, Tobias and I are a team. We do everything together, helping each other out when one of us needs it. We're always there for each other, and it's incredible. I set the water to boil, and we take seats across from each other at the kitchen table. Tobias reaches for my hands and brings them up to his lips. "I love you, you know," he whispers against my skin after kissing each knuckle on my hands. I'm already blushing, but his words make it even worse.
"I know. I love you." He looks into my eyes and leans across the table. He grabs my face in his hands, effectively melting my insides, and presses his lips to mine.
The kiss sets my body on fire and I respond enthusiastically until he pulls away. Tobias sighs and looks around the room, avoiding my eyes. I know that he's going to bring up the fact that we have two years to live our entire lives, two years before we jump headfirst into another war we know could kill us. "Stop." The word comes out of my mouth before I even register it crossing my mind, and Tobias looks at me. "What?" he asks, and I repeat myself. "Stop. Don't say it.
Not now." I can't do this now; I can't do this ever. I wanted to live my life normally, become a wife and eventually a mother, babysit my friend's children and have them do the same for us. I want my life to last a lifetime, not two years. "Tris, we have to talk about this," he says, and I know he's right, but I just shake my head and run my hands through my hair. "I can't," I manage to get out, and I leave the room. His footsteps follow me as I sit on the couch. He sits beside me carefully, as if he's unsure if I want him there, and I do. I want him there forever; I want time to stop while I curl into his side and kiss him and run my hands over his tattoos and through his hair. "Tris." He says my name gently. "Please, look at me." I look around the room before meeting his eyes. I don't know what I expected to see, but anger wasn't on the list.
He's angry. I don't know why, or what I did to tick him off, but he's mad at me. "Listen to me," he says quietly, and it scares me a bit. I will myself not to shrink back, because I can't be scared of him. It would destroy him completely if I was afraid of him. It's not him I'm scared of; it's his anger. "I'm listening," I say, my voice a monotone. "You freaked out on me for not opening up, not wanting to talk, just last night. You accused me of not trusting you, which hurt. And now you're turning around and doing the exact same thing. It's not fair, Tris. Please talk to me."
His eyes are pleading now, and I realize he's right. I'm being a hypocrite. I look down at my feet, shame burning my face. "I'm sorry," I mumble, and he wraps his arms around me, pulling me into his chest. "It's okay, love. It'll be okay."
And I break down. I cry my eyes out, and Tobias leaves. I think he's gone for good, left me forever, but he comes back a minute later. "Oh my God. I'm so sorry. I justt went to shut the water off, I should've said something." I shake my head at him to tell him it's alright, and he nods before pulling me close again.
"I don't want this to end," I mumble, and he looks confused. "Tris, this will never end," Tobias replies, and I shake my head. "Don't say that. You know how easily one of us could get shot or stabbed. And then that's it. I don't want this to happen, Tobias. I want to live my life with you, and be your wife and have your kids. I want to be normal, for once in my fucking life." I pause, and look at him, and he's staring at me in awe. "You... You want to marry me?" He mutters, as if he can't believe it. I can't believe that's all he heard out of my speech. "Of course. I want you officially be mine." I kiss him, and he pulls away. "I want to marry you too, Tris." Oh my god. He's going to propose. Oh my god oh my god oh my-
Tobias stands up, and smirks at me. "But you, Miss Prior, are going to have to wait until I think of a perfect way to propose." I cross my arms and pretend to pout, and he lifts me up and cradles me to his chest. "I just don't want to lose you," I tell him, and he stops rocking me. "Beatrice Grace Prior, I promise you that you will never have to be without me." He sets me down,
and stares down into my eyes. "Okay?" I stare back and shake my head before replying. "Okay."
He furrows his eyebrows. "What?" I realize I'm still shaking my head, and I stop quickly. I sigh and reach out, running my hand down his face. He closes his eyes at the contact. "You just have no idea how incredible you are to me, do you?" His eyes open,
and he stares down at me. "No, I don't. Would you mind telling me?" And in this moment, I know that he's right. Everything will be okay, in due time. "In due time, Tobias. In due time."

A wild Quinn updated!

I felt as though I owed you guys big time for not updating in forever, so I just wrote. I had half a chapter written already, and this just came out. It gave me the idea for the name change. I admit it's kind of just a filler, but it's an update nonetheless. And a longer one at that.

The next few chapters will be jumping forward in time, a month or two here and there. I'm not gonna spend time detailing every minute of Tris and Tobias's lives, because a) I don't have the time, and b) I don't really want to.

There'll be less than ten chapters before the two years is up, and then shit's gonna hit the fan, hard. Until then, though, it'll mainly be fluffy and cute, taking the impending doom off of everyone's minds.

I have a Biology diploma coming up, so I don't really know when the next update will be. I'm sorry.

Thanks for reading.

PS. Please, don't complain about the sexually explicit content. It's rated M for a reason, and it takes a click to skip over. There'll be more to come, but not an overabunance.

I think that's all.

So um, bye, I guess.