I'm your daughter Susan

by Susan Benson-Stabler

When Olivia Benson questions a 15-year-old rape victim and learns her identity, how will she react to learning this is the daughter she never stopped searching for? It's POVs of the characters' reactions when they learn just who has raped Susan Benson-Cassidy.

9. Chapter 9

Chapter 9

POV of Susan Benson-Cassidy

After I run out of the precinct when Elliot says Kathy wrote the letter causing me and Mom to be separated for almost 14 years, I just stand in front of the building trying not to cry. Kathy had no right to do that even if I was Elliot's daughter which I'm not. I'm Brian Cassidy's daughter. I hear footsteps behind me. I know it's Mom. When Elliot said Kathy wrote that letter, we both glared at her. Mom wraps her arms around me kissing my brown hair. I turn and hug her back.

"Mom, why did Kathy do that to us?"

Mom just holds me close. She's more angry than I am. I can feel her anger.

"Baby, she's always believed you're Elliot's daughter. Both Elliot and I told her you're not. I don't blame you for being mad at Kathy. I am."

I look up at Mom.

"Mom, I'm not mad. Just sad. I needed you when I was little. I know it sounds strange but I used to hear you talking to me. You sounded just like you do now."

Mom smiles at me.

"Susan, I heard you too. When William Lewis said he knew about you and taunted me by asking me how I would react if he brought you to that beach house and raped you right there in front of me, I heard you talking to me."

"What did I say to you, Mom?"

"You said 'Mom, you can survive anything Lewis does to you. I know you can. We'll be together soon.' Little did I know it would be soon. Thank you for helping me. I love you, Susan Victoria Benson-Cassidy."

I know Mom needs to know that I've been in New York since Lewis escaped from the prison hospital but I'd hate to make her more angry than she already is. I decide to tell her.

"Mom, I was here when Lewis escaped prison. Please don't be mad at me."

Mom stares down at me. She's more shocked than she is mad.

"Baby, you were here then? Why didn't you come to see me? If you had. Haden wouldn't have raped you the 2nd time."

I jerk away from her and stare at her. Is she saying it's my fault Haden raped me the 2nd time? I turn and run. Mom is calling me.

"Susan! Come back!"

I just keep running. I know exactly where to go. I just hope Mom knows where to find me.