She screamed the name of her sister trying to reach her, get her out of there, but she could not, she didn't arrive in time, so she stayed there, watching the last foundations fall, burying even more her sister.
She stared at the crumbling building as the first tears slid down her cheeks, still in shock, as if she could not understand what had just happened, as if she was trying to convince herself that this had not happened, that her sister was about to appear without any scratch among the remains, however, she was aware that this was not going to be possible, for she had heard her body crashing to the ground, accompanied by a cry of pain, going on to listen as her bones fractured. So, no, she could not think that was going to happen, because to do so indicated that she was a dreamer and did not want to accept reality, because the truth is that it was, she did not want to accept it.
She landed on the floor, not knowing what to do, confused, putting her hands to her head while trying to think quietly, realizing that the more times she tried, the more often she listened to all of the above, but especially the agonizing scream, her bones crashing, indicating that her sister was broken.
She put her hands to her ears as if she could stop the sounds, but the truth was that she could not, because they did not come from outside, but inside her head.
"Kara," she heard J'onn's voice calling her.
"I have to find her," she whispered without turning.
"Kara, listen to me," he asked, but she shook her head, repeating the same as before.
She did not want to listen to him, she really did not want to do it, because she preferred that no one said it, because she was not ready for that and was not sure if she was going to be. Perhaps, for that reason, her mind would have been obsessed with having to find her, not being able to stop until it was done, not to be able to assume things, which, although they seemed logical and reasonable, might not be true.
She sighed as she made her way to the rubble determined to begin, so she tried to concentrate on listening to her sister's heartbeat, however, realizing that she was not capable, stopped, shaking her head. At this moment, she closed her eyes, took a deep breath and began to move everything in her path.
It had been hours since she had begun, since he had raised the first debris, during which time, the desire to surrender and to burst into tears, was growing, for every second without finding her was an anguish.
"Kara" this time it was not J'onn who called her, but Alex, who knelt at her side trying to look at her. "Kara" she repeated grabbing her arm so she could not remove that rubble. "You have to stop, you're hurting yourself" she said it making her shake her head, she was not going to do it. "You've been doing this all afternoon without even knowing ..." she left the sentence to look at her. "Kara, I also have trouble accepting it, but you must do it and the best way is to surrender, to allow the DEO to work, you know that they will warn you when they know something" she tried to convince her, but she refused again, because she was not going to give up.
Her sister sighed begging her not to do it, to stop, to surrender, but she could not, she owed it to herself and to Kaelah, who deserved to be say goodbye in the best way possible.
"Kara, please .." she begged her.
"I will not stop, I will not do it" she assured watching as her sister was going to reply. "I know she is dead, I have known it from the beginning, I don't need anyone to tell me" she explained. "But I need to find her ..."
"The DEO can do it for you," Alex interrupted her.
"Don't you understand?" She was disturbed by her interruption. "I want to be the first one to find her, to see her, to ..." Her voice was drowned by a sob. "I need to say goodbye to her before anyone else can do it, to have her in my arms even if only for a couple of seconds, to say that I love her and that I will always do it, and ... " She ducked her head before making an attempt to wipe away her tears. "Tell her that I'm proud of the action she did, that she could give her life for all those she loved without hesitation" she sobbed, being embraced by Alex, who tried to calm her down, but did not succeed.
She'd been holding back all afternoon, trying to be stronger than she really was, so now she could not help but break, show each and every one of her emotions.
"I'm going to help you," her sister said, trying to smile at her.
She nodded genuinely grateful for what she was going to do, because she had understood it, how important it was to her.
Both began to move the remains, looking tiredly at the time it was, but without resting, because she was not going to.
When she lifted that last beam, she closed her eyes tightly, not daring to look at her, for she had found her, but she was not ready for that scene. Her sister's body was fractured, there was no doubt about it, full of cuts and blows, from which the blood had been flowing earlier and her skin was so pale that it was impressive to see her like this.
"Kara, move" asked her sister, but she could not, she could not move. "I need you to move" she asked again this time getting in front of her, kneeling, placing her hand on the neck of the young girl "Kara, there is pulse, weak, but there is" she assure her looking at her.
At that moment she started crying divided by the news, the one that seemed to have been waiting for centuries, which relaxed and reassured her in such a way that it blocked her, because she did not know what to do to help.
She knelt beside Alex to take the girl in her arms, to hug her until they gave the order to transfer her to the DEO, so dhe did, trying to bring her sister the heat she was losing, because yes her sister was frozen.
She closed her eyes, focusing on listening to the beating of Kaelah's heart as if that way she could verify what had been said before, looking at each time were weaker, her pulse was falling. It seemed that the her sister had waited to be in her arms to finish leaving, but she could not afford it.
"Alex ..." she called her older sister frightened, waiting for some indication.
"You have to take her to the DEO, it's the fastest" she said generating her panic.
"I can not," she said. "I can't do it, What if she dies in my arms?" She shifted. "Alex, I can't bear her to die in my arms." She cried, hugging her body with more strength, slowing down when she realized she might be hurting her.
"You have to, Kara," Alex looked at her. "You can do it"
She nodded slightly after a couple of seconds, not sure if she would be able to, so she sighed before lifting her sister in her arms and addressing the DEO.
Indeed, when they got there they were waiting for her, so they soon began to treat her sister, telling her that she was going to need an operation, a fact that surprised her, but she tried to understand, however, she finally collapsed when she saw her aunt and Clark there, who had left everything after hearing the news.
By the time Dr. Halminton appeared in the room to let them know how everything had come out, the number of people in the room had increased. During that time, J'onn, Alex, Winn, Mon-el, Zyan, even Maggie, had appeared there to find out what situation her sister was in, and although she was glad that they were giving her such support, she was nervous because of them.
"The operation has gone well, but ..." she made a short pause, altering her. "There is no brain activity, it hasn't been there since she arrived, so the possibility that she will wake up is practically nil" she explained before continuing to speak. "However, if I didn't want to say that she's dead is because you have a different genetics, which indicates that, maybe, you are able to overcome this" she said giving a little hope. "If it did twenty-four hours from that and there is still no activity, I would recomend to disconnect her, "she suggested at the same time as she looked at the clock.
They had only six hours to go, which, she was sure, would be an eternity, because despite trying to be aware of the possibility of losing her for forever, a part of her refused to believe it.
They had decided to take turns to be with her, but rather they were the others who rotated, because they had said that she remained in that room all the time and, indeed, she thanked them, since she did not see fit to be alone in that room, which was why she'd asked Alex to come in with her.
She felt the urge to start crying, accentuated when she saw her small body connected to all those machines.
"Are you okay?" Her sister asked.
She nodded as she sat down beside the bed, grabbing Kaelah's hand, wishing with all her might to get well, to revive, she seriously needed her alive.
"Mon-el recovered it," said Alex with the stuffed animal in her hands. "She needs it to feel safe," she said, making her smile slightly.
She watched as she placed it carefully beside Kaelah before stroking her hair and kissing her forehead, moving to sit on the other side of the bed.
"Every night I stayed with her, when I went into her room to check that she was okay, it didn't fail .., she had her face buried in that teddy ..." she smiled before continuing to speak. "The night they took it ... she was so broken ... "she commented in a trembling voice, as if she were holding the cry and she thanked her, she was sure that if she started to cry, she would do it with her. "It is her greatest protection" she remarked.
She looked at her knowing that it was true what she had said, that her sister loved that teddy and that if there was anything that could bring her back, it was that teddy.
She sighed without wanting to stay in that room any longer, so she looked at her cousin, watching as he stroked the girl's hair.
"Can you stay with her? I need to go outside," she said.
"Of course, Kara," he replied.
She nodded before leaving, stopping after hearing that there was a robbery, so she approached her sister determined to do so.
"Are you sure?" She asked.
"Yes, I need to get out of here," she said. "Besides, it's not going to be for long, I'll be back," she said.
"Okay, I'll let you know, Kara," Alex said.
"Thank you," she whispered before leaving.
Thank you for reading,
Ayrin