When I woke up I could hear both children playing, my mother trying to calm them down and Kon-el cooking, seriously, it was a mix of sounds bigger than I expected. Even so, I joined and managed to attract the attention of everyone, especially Kaia, who did not hesitate to run to hug me, which made me catch her wanting to contain the tears.

"Are you sick?" she asked with concern in her voice.

"Only tired" I answered watching her nod, sadness reflected in her eyes. "What's wrong, baby?" I asked.

"I want everything to be like before, when daddy was here" she responded starting to cry, which undoubtedly broke my soul, feeling me observed by others. "You are not with us" she commented between sobs. "You don't read us stories" she looked directly into my eyes.

"What do you think if we read a story tonight?" I propose trying to smile at her, seeing her nod with a tender smile on her face.

I left her on the floor allowing her to return to play with her brother, at which point my mother sat next to me, hugging me against her as I began to cry, allowing me to let go on her shoulder. I continued with my sobs for a few minutes, going to calm down little by little, thinking about what my daughter had said, knowing that there was truth in her words, because I had not neglected only me, but them, who, honestly, did not have guilt for what was happening.

"You have to fight for them, honey" my mother dried my tears. "They need you well and you know that Mon-el would not like to see you like that" she commented making me nod, because it was true. "Promise me that you are going to change, that you are going to start to fight" she raised my chin.

"I promise" I whispered without daring to look her in the eyes.

Fulfilling my promise to change meant that I had to dine in spite of my little preposition to it, but I did it, well a quarter of the food, which was enough for my situation. I helped both children prepare to go to sleep, but unlike the other times, when I read the story in their room, I decided to do it in mine, allowing them to lie down on each side, which made me smile, too long ago since the last time this had happened.

Both children fell asleep shortly before I reached the end, closing my eyes to sleep with them.

I opened my eyes as a result of my sister's voice, feeling weak, realizing that the reality was the absence of my powers, which worried me, but I held back without wanting to give importance. However, my sister seemed to notice my discomfort, since she did not hesitate to place her hand on my forehead before looking at me with concern, but without actually asking the question, as both children were waking up.

"Hey, how are you, little ones?" I asked as Kyron hugged me tightly. "I took it as a good" I hugged him back, grabbing Kaia, who was trying to sit up.

"Who wants to have breakfast?" Kara asked getting both children to look determined to run to the kitchen. "Ethan helps you, okay?" She said before they left, moment in which he looked at me seriously. "Do you have powers?" She asked to what I shook my head. "You have a fever," she pointed out as if I was not aware of that fact.

She managed to convince me enough to get up for breakfast, however, the following was not predictable, because I barely got to the kitchen, enough for the smell of the pancakes to stir and run to the bathroom, eventually vomiting, what honestly, only managed to worry my sister even more.

She forced me to go back to bed, communicating that she was going to call Alex, very much in spite of my complaining. However, no conclusion was reached other than that I was ill, nothing more and, therefore, it should not be given more importance. Although I had to admit that for myself it did matter, because it meant that I could not go to see Mon-el, that I could not leave the house, which only made me want to cry, because I needed to spend time in that room.

Two months later

When he opened the apartment door, only Kaelah was sitting on the couch, drinking, so she was drunk. However, he didn't say anything about it, he just sit down beside her, observing her.

"I'm a horrible mother" he heard her whisper.

"You're not, Kaelah" he said wanting to take the drink away, but he couldn't.

"Yes, I am" she said looking at him. "I left my kids with my parents, you know they kind of ruined my life" she explained keep drinking that. "Do you want a drink?" she asked him, but he shook his head. "C'mon, it's pretty good, it's something Mon-el brought from the bar" Kaelah offered him the bottle and a glass, so he did have a drink. "I can't do this anymore, I need him..., He has been in a coma for two months, I miss him..., I..." she was starting to cry. "I need him to tell me that everything is going to be okay, I miss the way he touch me, his kisses..., I need him" she sobbed getting ready other drink, so he pulled the bottle away from her.

"How many drinks had you have?" he asked her, seeing how she was starting to count with her fingers and not being sure, she was between five and six. "Okay, I think you had enough, it's over" he whispered laying her down on the couch and placing a blanket on her.

"Why are you so sweet?" she asked, but he didn't answer. "You weren't like this" Kaelah claimed sitting again, looking directly into his eyes.

Before he could push her back, she sat up on his lap, making him try to move her, but he couldn't, being aware of what she was going to do and, of course he wanted this, he had been waiting for years for this, but she was drunk and married, so this was not going to happen.

He was about to talk the moment Kaelah kissed him, fact that surprised him, for she had never kissed him like that and for a moment, he wish that this would never stopped, but she broke the kiss to look at him.

"You don't want to do this..." he tried to talk while she started to kiss his neck. "No, Kaelah, stop" he tried again, but soon his hands where trying to get under her shirt.

He only got back to reality the moment her hands were trying to take his pants off, moment when he grabbed her to lay her down on the couch, climbing up on her. He grabbed her hands to keep her from moving them, looking at her eyes. This time, fear wasn't present in them, there was desire, but he needed to stop this.

"We're not going to do this, Kaelah" he whispered watching her pout. "You're married" he tried to calm her down.

"He's in coma, he doesn't need to know" she said with a small smile. "You have been waiting years for this, just do it" she looked at him.

"That's right, but you're drunk" he admitted. "The other times you were drug, Do you know what you used to do the next morning?" he asked her, but she shook her head. "You used to cry, for hours" he explained stroking her cheek. "Kaelah, you don't love me, you barely like me and your heart is Mon-el's, so let's keep it that way, okay?" he watched how she nodded slightly, before cover herself with the blanket and close her eyes. "Good night, princess" he whispered kissing her forehead before sitting down on the couch.

It only took ten minutes for Kaelah to talk again, but he couldn't understand what she was saying, so he waited until she talked again.

"... Not feeling good..." she whispered trying to sit up. "I think I'm going to..." she didn't end the sentence, because she threw up.

"Hey, It's okay" he whispered holding her hair making sure that she wasn't going to throw up again. "Wait here" he said as he looked for something to clean it up, sitting beside her when he finished cleaning. "Are you feeling better?" he asked her, but she shook her head. "It's okay, Kaelah, everything it's fine" he hugged her, noticing how her whole body trembled. "Shh, I think we're going to the DEO"

"No..., not the DEO" she begged him still not feeling good to move.

"I'm sorry, Keaks" he whispered her nickname, only her sister and cousin called her like that, but he wanted too.

He picked her up letting her place her head on his shoulder, hoping that she wouldn't throw up again.

However, when they landed at the DEO, she began to cry, only begging him not to tell her sister, but Kara wasn't there, so he wasn't going to talk with her, but with Alex. She guided him to the lamp room, where Mon-el's body was as well, which made Kaelah sob.

He lay her down while Alex run some tests just to make sure that everything was okay, leaving them alone. At that moment he saw Kaelah fell asleep in just seconds, watching her carefully, not wanting to wake her up.

"Does she know that she's pregnant?" she asked him.

"What?" he almost screamed.

Alex didn't answered him, she just starting to do an ultrasound looking for that baby, however when she looked at him for a couple of seconds and then back to the screen, he knew that something was wrong.

"We only have three months left" she barely whispered.

Thanks for reading,

Ayrin