For all he had done and said there was only one thing that worried Alexander.
What would Luna do if she remembered?
He had ruined his reputation, accepted the blame for the death of the Lost Boys, had taken upon him the duty of destroying Neverland by using Peter and had used any means to break Luna.
He had done many things that had dirtied his hands, but till now he had not look back to think or regret his actions.
Alexander had grown up to be the one thing he said he would never be.
A traitor.
He stood watching Luna as she panicked over the unconscious young Peter and was only reminded of his own dark feelings, feelings that had taken him to where he was now.
The cold heartless brutal pirate that was not hated but constantly pitied over by those he wished would fear him.
He remembered that night as clear as daylight. Had lived it over and over in his nightmares and cursed it like hell on earth.
He let Luna know he was there before she came to her own conclusions about it. She looked up and her expression of sorrow turned to anger. He wished for a moment to be able to just tell her everything, but if he did he would kill the last small hope he had left.
As Luna looked to Peter's Dream Spirit she looked like Christmas had just arrived. She knew that was the real peter and not the dream version of the past, but she had not stop to think or had realized the reason he was in her memories. Her Peter had started to fade away again and she panicked.
Alexis held her by the arm when he saw she was going towards him, she glared at him and pulled away but he was stronger.
"Leave me alone!" - She yelled in desperation.
"Peter can't see you nor hear you," – his voice was deep. – "Haven't you realized what is going on?"
"Isn't all this some crazy evil plan of yours in order to torture me!?" – She yelled back.
"I may be bad but not even I am that heartless," – something in his voice made Luna silent for a moment.
"Says the man, who betrayed, left, abandoned and killed his own companions," – she snapped back trying not to let him know she had faltered for a moment.
They both stared at each other, analyzing one another, trying to see who would break first. It seemed to Alexis that whatever Luna had seen in her own memories had not done her any change of heart or opinion.
"Touché," - Alexis whispered. – "But before you judge me you should understand my circumstances, darling."
"What else is there to know?" – Luna was trying to change the subject, she didn't want to start a deep conversation with the man who had pushed Peter to his own death.
"First, he is not dead like I'm sure you've been told and secondly this is not just your memories."
Luna's eyes sparked with confusion as she turned to look at the Phantom Peter in front of her, thinking back at what she had seen. He was fading away still watching his younger self struggling to live.
"Am I in…"
"Peter's memories got linked to yours, if you don't try to wake up you will be stuck here forever," – Alexis pulled her towards him making her face him.
"Then Peter…"
"He is lost, what you see here is but a mirage of him as he also watches this memory."
"You just said he is not dead."
"He is not, but he is trapped in a nightmare he created himself and he is frozen like his heart and soul."
"Aren't you the one who has a cold heart, Alexander?"
He let his guard down and for just a moment his eyes showed sorrow. The words had started to cut on a wound he had carried for a long time.
"I didn't come here to argue with you, now wake up and stop trying to go deeper in to your memories," – he glared at Luna trying to continue his mission.
"Tell me something, Alexis, why are you trying so hard to hide what really happened?"
"Am I? I have not noticed."
"Then why are you trying to save Peter right now?"
Alexander's eyes widened and turned to see the small Peter been helped by his younger self. Luna was more interested in how Alexis knew exactly what she meant by her words as if surprised or scared of it. His gripped on Luna got weaker and she slapped him away making him turn his attention back to her.
"So you saved him, then?" – Luna pushed him for answers; she needed to know them and somehow knew the moment was there. – "What caused the hate?"
"Your anger is on the wrong person, sweetheart, it was your brother that did this to you both," – his eyes slithered – "You just saw it."
"I….."
"I'm only following my fate."
"That's going to get you killed." – Luna's words cut him deep as déjà vu hit him.
"Wouldn't that make you the happiest person in the planet?"
"I wonder if it would after what I just remembered."
"I would gladly listen to it but we have a much bigger problem at the moment." – Alexis held Luna's arm and pushed her towards him as something almost cut her.
"What…"
"He found out, guess my time is almost up," – Alexis whispered as he sprinted on a run with Luna.
"Hey, slow down what's wrong?"
"I will tell you a little secret about Peter," – he eyed her for a moment making sure she was listening. – "I never wanted him dead nor did he ever thought I would, in fact he knew what I wanted from the start and refused to cooperate with me so I just went and twisted his hand a bit by going after you."
"Why me?"
"Because Peter believed you were dead and that it was his fault. He thought that by keeping you out of Neverland he could somehow free himself from his own loneliness that both Wendy and Jane had done. But it did not went as planned just as you saw and thanks to your dear brother Peter almost died."
"You saved him." – Luna made it a statement.
"Yes, I did, because back then he was like a brother to me."
"Isn't he still?" – Her words made him angry and made him talk more than he needed to.
"You want to know why we went our separate ways? He went into a coma for 2 weeks and I lost contact with both you and the Lost Boys I had no way to get back to Neverland. But the real problem was when Peter woke up," – he paused lost in memories never forgotten. - "There was no way of knowing if you lived or where you were. It made him a broken boy, he could not fly and he did not wish to return to Neverland till he found you. I argued, even begged him to reconsider but he never cared he lost his way and forgot he was, for all he had lived, still human! That time in your world would affect him given the opportunity!" – Alexis took a deep breath as he pulled his long black hair away from his hazel eyes. –"So Peter stayed and I left, he threw everything away for you all because he had promised you he would never leave you alone."
Luna was speechless as she watched Alexis, the man she had come to hate since their first encounter, but that was just her lying to herself. When they were kids she had been good friends with him she had seen the good person he was, Peter's best friend. She knew that there was more than what she had seen or heard that there was a reason why Peter had not gone and killed Alexis having many chances before. Even when Alexander had killed the Lost Boys Peter fought him as if it was the only way.
"Why do you pretend you don't care?"
"The same reason Peter pretends he can't love."
A noise snapped them both back to their surroundings as shadows grew, eating up the dream. Luna felt a tear falling from her eyes as she felt lost once again. Afraid of what will happen if she chooses the wrong path.
"Help me," - the whisper had Alexis look up at her with confused eyes. – "Help me save him."
"I can't."
"Then why are you saving me now?"
"Because letting someone else win over my plans is never a good feeling."
"You saved Peter once, can't you do it again? Just once can't you let go and do something about it?"
"How desperate are you? "
"Get me out of here and help me get to Peter, after that I will do what you want, you have my word"
"Even if it means you never see Peter again?"
"It isn't going to happen regardless of what I do," – Luna looked at Alexis who was standing in front of her and held his sleeve. – "Please."
"Fine," – he bend a little to be near her face. – "Just don't regret it later, love."
AN: thank u all for ur patience on the wait, I'm so sorry the problem was my laptop died and it gave me problems on how to keep working on it then send it to my friend for edit. thnk u again to all my new and old fans for the likes and comments *hugs*. if u dnt understand something don't b shy u can ask me and ill answer when I can :) hope u enjoy the chap