The smile was on my face, I could not help it, following Alex impatiently to reach that room, wanting to calm down before approaching the incubator, turning my gaze one last time to Alex waiting for her affirmation before dare to pick her up. I could not help crying the moment I held her in my arms, gently rocking her without wanting to wake her from the dream she was in, feeling like Mon-el was behind me, hugging me, placing his arms under mine at the same time he was leaning his chin on my shoulder.
"She's beautiful" I whispered with a smile.
"Yes, it is," he whispered in my ear as the little girl began to open her eyes. "I'm too proud of you," he kissed my cheek.
"Hey, baby" I whispered grabbing her little hand. "I think there are more people who want to hold you, but I don't want to let you go" I commented in barely a whisper listening to Mon-el's laughter.
I smiled, it had taken a month for this fact to come true, so my words were true when I said I did not want to let her go, because it felt too good to finally have her in my arms. However, after a few more minutes, I allowed Mon-el to hold her, leaving her carefully in his arms while trying not to cry because of the scene, without really getting it, without being able to describe everything that his eyes transmitted at this time, we had to admit it, both of us were in awe at the little one.
My sister was the one who opened the door of the apartment to allow us to go inside, which made the children run curious to me, wanting to see the youngest, so Mon-el had to convince them that they should sit on the couch and keep calm, however, both children continued standing, just sitting when I did, one on each side, watching their little sister carefully.
Kaia was the first to dare to grab her hand, while Kyron seemed to meditate what he should do, making the attempt as if he was afraid to hurt her, being too careful for a child from his age.
"Can I hold her?" Kaia asked as Mon-el sat on her other side with the intention of helping her, so once I was sure they were ready, I placed her in her arms.
I observed the fascination with which she looked at her, which reminded me of the first memories I had of my sister's life, those moments when I did not understand the meaning of that word, but being sure that I could not imagine my life without her.
"Kyron, Do you want to try?" I asked him making him to shake his head while distancing hiself from me. "Hey, I help you, okay?" I said taking him to sit him on my lap, hugging him before asking Mon-el to put her in the arms of the boy, who in turn were mine. "See, you're doing it," I whispered, observing the smile that formed on his face.
I kissed his hair while smiling, looking at Mon-el, who brushed the hair away from my face while smiling, it had been difficult for this moment to come true.
Both children argued for playing with the same toy, which had made me intervene, however, when it broke the crying of the little girl, I had to distance myself from them, holding her in my arms while trying to find a pacifier different from the one that had just fallen to the ground, without getting it.
"I think you need a hand" I heard someone speaking to me, so I turned to look at that person. "Hey, Kae" he smiled at my surprise.
"Zyan" I whispered trying not to scared the little one, it's been years since we had not seen each other, however, the little girl did not hesitate to start crying with greater force "Hey, shh, it's okay" I tried to calm her still looking for the pacifier.
"Do you need help? What are you looking for?" he asked making me look at him.
"The pacifier, there is one somewhere in the bag, I can assure that" I replied getting him to laugh while helping me, smiling slightly at the moment he handed it to me. "Thank you" I whispered looking him straight in the eyes before turning to focus on the little one, who calmed down while closing her eyes, falling asleep again, wanting to lay her down in the pram, hoping that she would not wake up as a result of the movement, what I got.
"Your first baby?" He questioned making me shake my head, focusing my attention on the twins, who were arguing again because they both wanted to play with the same toy, but without sharing it.
"Do you see those two little monsters?" I pointed to them beginning to think that I was going to have to end their discussion. "Almost four years old" I said observing how he was surprised at the information. "Kyron, don't throw sand at your sister!" I shouted anticipating his intentions. "Kaia, let him play" I asked her making both children to look at me for a few seconds before starting to play together.
"Well ..., you have them well controlled" he laughed, getting me to nod between laughs. "How's things with Mon-el?" he asked.
"Good, quite good" I answered feeling uncomfortable. "What about you?" I asked remembering the last conversation we had.
"We broke up again, the difference is that she left me alone with the kid" he said, accompanying it with a sigh.
I looked at him with sorrow, because it seemed to cost him to talk about it, feeling me observed by him, a fact that only got me to look away, to return to focus my attention on the child. However, the moment he grabbed my chin and lifted it, I could not help looking at him, trying to move, but as if it were a magnet, he brought his face to mine until he managed to kiss me.
"Who are you supposed to be? Why are you kissing her?" was the voice which made us separate, rather, it was the pressure on my arm which made it, wanting to hide my face at the moment my gaze crossed with Kon-el's.
"I'm sorry" he whispered separating from me before leaving.
"Zyan ..." I tried to call him, but I could not stop him, turning to Kon-el. "Not a word" I warned him feeling the tears.
"I just want to know who he is" he spoke in barely a whisper as if he was afraid of frightening me even more.
I watched him, sitting on one of the benches, facing forward as he sat next to me, trying not to have to give him any explanation.
"He was ..." I bit my lower lip. "Zyan, he was my boyfriend in Krypton and here when I arrived, until Mon-el appeared," I explained to his amazement, because he looked at me for a few seconds.
"Your ignorance for my person was real" he spoke to what I raised an eyebrow, because I did not understand at which moment it had not been.
"They condemned him to Fort Rozz, he was my best friend" I started to cry without being able to avoid it, allowing him to hug me against him, resting my head on his shoulder. "I didn't even understand why they did it" I murmured.
"Shh, calm down" he stroked my hair. "Everything is fine, okay?" He grabbed my face to dry my tears.
"Don't tell Mon-el, please," I pleaded between tears as he embraced me again.
He did not answer anything, he just held me in his arms until I calmed down enough so that I could undo the hug, drying my tears as he smiled at me.
I tried to smile back, but the tears continued to run down my cheeks, it was not until I heard both children call their father when I calmed down, closing my eyes as I wiped away my tears, holding my breath when he kissed my hair.
"Hey, what's wrong?" he asked after realizing that I had not made eye contact with him yet. "Kaelah, are you okay?" his look of concern went from me to his brother, who, in turn, had his looked on me, waiting for me to be able to speak.
"What do you think if I stay tonight with the twins?" Kon-el said, getting me to look at him. "I think you need time to talk" he commented making me nod.
"Thanks" I whispered as he shook his head slightly.
I got up from the bench to say goodbye to the twins, who seemed excited about the proposal, however, I was not so, because despite needing to open up, I did not know how to do it, which is why I wanted to escape from that conversation.
The way back to the apartment was silent, well, regardless of the time when Eira began to cry starting to demand her food, so that was the first thing I did as soon as I arrived, and then change her and lay her down on her crib, waiting for her to sleep.
I sat on the bed without even bothering to put on my pajamas, since I honestly could not postpone it any longer.
"What happened?" I heard him ask as he entered the room. "Don't tell me that nothing, right now your look shows guilt" he said getting me to look him straight in the eye. "I prefer you to tell me before another person, so please talk to me," he asked, sitting down beside me, at which time I closed my eyes again, holding back the tears as I sighed.
"I'm sorry" I whispered observing confusion on his face. "I've seen Zyan ..., everything ..." my voice broke. "Everything was normal until he kissed me and I ..." I did not understand why I was so afraid of his reaction.
"You kissed him back, right?" He completed at the same time I nodded. "Kaelah, sweetheart, calm down" he whispered hugging me. "Did you think I was going to get mad?" He asked me to what I had to agree with sincerity. "Why would I do it, Keaks?" He questioned raising my chin while I shrugged. "He was your best friend, your boyfriend, the one you trusted more than anyone and, believe me, I can feel jealous, even a little hurt, but I can not get angry with you for this, Kaelah," he explained, surprising me with his comprehension. "I would only be able to get angry if you told me that you love him after everything we've been through." He wiped away my tears. "Now calm down, okay?" He hugged me again.
"I love you, I can assure you that it will not change" I murmured with my head resting on his chest.
"I know, sweetheart, I know," he whispered, kissing my hair.
We remained hugging each other for minutes, relaxing thanks to the beating of his heart, accompanying my breathing to his, a fact that calmed me, lifting my head to look at him when he began to speak.
"I'm grateful that my pod and your pod crashed here, you know why?" He asked me making me to shake my head despite knowing his next words, but wanting to hear him say them aloud. "Because you're the best thing that ever happened to me" he whispered in my ear, kissing my jaw. "I will never be able to get angry with you, you are my biggest weakness" I could not help but smile when I heard him say that. "I love you" he whispered finally kissing my lips.
I allowed him to lie me down on the bed without ever breaking eye contact, my blue eyes locked in his gray eyes, which at this moment showed desire, but at the same time love and friendship, which made them so familiar. And, for a few seconds, we stopped at what we were doing, only looking at each other, knowing that we did not need words to express everything we felt, because it was simple, we needed each other to breathe.
Thank you for reading,
Ayrin