Chapter Seven

What Should I Do?

Still tight in our embrace, Simon and I are snuggled together on his bed. Where he has held me while I cried about my situation. I should want to leave, but all I want to do is stay here forever. I want to feel his lips on mine and the tickle of his mustache on my face. Why is this happening? I could be pregnant from possible the worst person to have a baby with and I am falling for his right hand man.

"Is everything okay?"

I look up as I hear his sweet voice.

"Huh? Oh yeah. I guess."

"Still worrying about taking the test?"

I nod and take a deep breath.

"Yeah, but I can't put it off forever."

"That's true, you can't. Maybe you should take it now. You can use the bathroom down the hall and we can talk about what you can and need to do if it comes out positive."

I nod and sit up, as Simon gets up and grabs my cardigan, which is on the back of his recliner. When I get up he hands me my cardigan and opens the door, sticking his head out to make sure no one is there before he and I make our way to the bathroom. Once I get there I take a few deep breaths before taking the test and waiting for the results. I wait for what feels like hours for the results of the test. After what is only really five minutes I pick up the test and take an anxious breath. When I look down to see one line, I let out a breath of relief.

"Oh, thank god!"

I chuckle and start crying happy tears. After hearing me cry Simon comes in and hugs me tightly.

"I'm so sorry."

"Don't be. It's negative."

He looks at me surprised but relieved at the same time.

"Really?"

I nod, when I confirm it's true he hugs me tighter and kisses my forehead.

"Oh thank god!"

I chuckle at his response.

"Now I just have to figure out how to act sad about it when I tell Negan."

Simon nods.

"Shouldn't be that hard."

I shrug.

"Yeah, I'm sure I could think of something to make me act sad about it."

As Simon and I embrace once again I begin to think how different this situation would be, not only if it had been positive, but if Simon would have been the father. I think I would have been as excited as I was when I found out I was pregnant with Fee, if Simon would be the father. As I think about this I take a small step away from him.

"I need to go, uhh, tell Negan."

Simon nods.

"Yeah, you probably should."

I look up at Simon and smile softly. Before I leave he gives me a passionate kiss, much like the one he gave me earlier in his room.

"I'll see you later."

"Good luck, dollface."

I smile and blush as I slip the test in my pocket and head out of the bathroom. On the way back to the house I start to think about Simon. What am I going to do about this? After sharing those kisses with him, all I want to do is get more. I want to spend my every waking moment with him, and it's tearing me apart that I belong to another man. That I have to pretend to love another man with all my heart, when it now belongs to him. What will we do? When I get to the house I head up to my room and knock on the door to Negan's room. I hear his voice and that of another in the room.

"Come in."

When I open the door I see my husband and Carl, Rick's young son. When I see Carl I freeze in fear of what Negan plans for him. As I walk over to him, Negan looks at me with a smile, the look on his face almost makes me cringe, but I know right now, I need to play the role of loving wife.

"Hello, dear wife."

"Hello, husband."

I fake yet another smile and sit next to Negan on the arm of the couch. When I get a better look at Carl, he has taken the bandage on his eye off and has the look of terror on his face.

"Carl, you remember my lovely wife (Y/N)."

Carl nods, keeping his gaze mostly towards the floor.

"Darling, we are going to take dear Carl here home. Would you care to join me?"

This doesn't sound like a question, more like a demand.

"Of course, I would love to go with you."

As I say this he smiles and stands.

"Alright then let's go."

Carl and I stand as well, walking behind Negan as he heads out the door to the trucks. When he opens the door, he gently picks me up and puts me in the truck.

"There you are, dear. Wouldn't want you getting hurt now would we?"

He gives me a charming smile as I shake my head and smile back at him. When he turns back to Carl, I move to the middle of the cab of the truck and roll my eyes. Soon after I move over, Carl crawls into the cab next to me, Negan gets in on the other side and we start off to Alexandria. While my time during the drive to Alexandria is spent snuggle up next to my husband, it is spent thinking about his right hand man. The trip to Alexandria seems to fly back for me, but I'm sure for Carl it seemed like an eternity. When we get there the man who opens the gate, I believe his name is Spencer, is surprised to see us. Once we enter the gates we walk to Rick's home, where the woman named Olivia opens the door, and Negan rather forces his way in.

"Carl, where's"

"Enid's fine."

"Great, great, great, great, great! Where's Rick?

"Uh, I… I'm just."

"Don't care. Where's Rick?"

"Um out scavenging for you."

"Cool. We'll wait."

"Umm… he went out pretty far. They might not be back today. We're running really low on everything. We're practically starving here."

"Starving? You? By practically you mean not really."

As he says this Olivia turns around and begins to cry. Negan turns to Carl and I, chuckling.

"Really?"

Olivia continues to sob, as I give him a very disappointed look.

"You people seriously don't have a sense of humor."

He turns back to Olivia, trying to make up for what he just said.

"Excuse me."

As his tone softens, Olivia turns around, wiping her face.

"What's your name again?"

"Olivia."

"Olivia, right. I am sorry for having been so rude to you just now. And it looks like I'm gonna be here for a while, awaiting your fearless leader's return. And if you'd like I think it would be enjoyable to screw your brains out. I mean, if, you know, you're agreeable to it."

My jaw drops as he says that. It's bad enough to have other wives, but to cheat on all of us while on a run, and offering himself to someone else right in front of me. I was thinking about how much I wanna hit him when Olivia does it for me. Once she does Negan looks at her with a smirk.

"I am about 50% more into you now. Just saying."

He walks around for a moment, before leaning Lucille against the coffee table.

"All right, well, I'm just gonna put my feet up and wait for my stuff to get here. Olivia would you be a lamb and make us a little lemonade? Now, I know I left you all some of that good powdered stuff."

"Well, I'm supposed to be with."

"Make it. Take your time. Make it good. Alright kid, take us on the grand tour."

We walk around the house as Negan explodes the bed rooms and the whole house. But soon he notices a room Carl has kept skipping.

"How about this one?"

He points to the door.

"Oh, i.. It's just a water heater."

"Are you serious, kid? Come on."

When he opens the door and walks in, Negan blocks my view of what in the room.

"Ho-oh my. Look at this little angel."

When he says that, I look in and see a young toddler. When Negan picks her up she whimpers. Since at this point we are done with the tour the three of us head outside and relax on the porch. When we get settled in Negan holds the toddler, who I can only assume is Rick's daughter. Normally I would feel butterflies about a man with a baby, but right now all I feel is fear for the child. Negan sits in the lawn chair on the porch and greets people as they walk by.

"Hey neighbor. Why don't you come by later? We might grill out. Oh, I like it here. Mhmm, I might just have to stay here. You know, I was thinking about what you said earlier, Carl. Maybe it is stupid keeping you and your dad alive. I mean, why am I trying so hard? Maybe I should just bury you both down in one of those flower beds. Huh? And then I could just settle into the suburbs. What do you think about that?"

He picks up the toddler and kisses her forehead, acting like anyone would with a young child. Before long Negan stands with the child and hands her to me, before he and Carl go back into the house. Once they are out of sight I walk in and join Olivia in the kitchen.

"Olivia? I'm sorry, about him."

She takes a deep breath and shakes her head.

"Why are you with him?"

"He was different when we first got together."

Before long Carl and Negan come out of the room they were in and Negan now has a freshly cleaned face. Once he comes out Olivia takes the toddler away from me. Almost as if she trusts me with her more than Negan. Negan, doesn't seem to really notice as he makes his way over to me.

"What do you think baby? Pretty hot huh?"

I nod, as Negan places his hands on the countertop on either side of me, and kissing me roughly.

"What do we have to eat here?"

"We have some spaghetti you left."
"Does spaghetti sound good to you darling?"

"It sounds great."

"Well then let's start making some spaghetti."