Dear Diary

by Empress of Yaoi

A Challenge! Kaka/Gai. Summarywise? As both men have been writing down in their respective diaries(one more diligently than the other)they have loved someone for years. But that person would never love them back right? Right. But promises must be kept, even if you've only promised your 'Dear Diary' that you will tell that person today, no matter what. M for safety, I know myself ;)

11. Every time you look at me

Dear Diary
Chapter 11: Every time you look at me

XXX

A/N: If you've been keeping up with the format, you know it's time for the diary again. Kakashi's diary to be exact.

But there is something else I want to talk about first. On the first chapter of this story, I said the following: "Just in case anyone actually notices what I did here; The title of the story and the chapters is simply because I was in the mood for it ;) Also, it provided me with the inspiration needed to actually start this fic. I'm a little curious to see if anyone will even figure out what I'm talking about though…"
Apparently, no-one's been able to figure it out, or maybe you just don't care… :/
But I do! So, here's the deal with the story and chapter titles: They are all lines from songs that I used to listen to when I was younger. Well, honestly, my sister kind of forced me to listen to them by cranking her stereo up, but that's beside the point xD
I unfortunately ran out of lines to use from the first song I'd selected (Dear Diary) at chapter 10. Honestly, I never expected this story to run so long – didn't expect it to be so popular either. But it's all good, it's not like I'm getting overworked here or something… Okay, maybe I am, a little. But it's still all peachy ;)
I will take guesses on the singer who sung these songs, and also the next song that I will use for the chapters 11-20. Yes, this story will have at least 20 chapters. And you're all along for the ride. Enjoy! I will divulge the singer probably around chapter 18 or so, unless someone else guesses right! I'd love to hear your guesses – oh, BTW, I'm a '90's kid ;) Maybe that'll help ^.^

Thank you so much for your thorough Beta, Mswan! You're marvelous!

I do not own Naruto. I only own my own creativity (Though my mother would have you believe that is actually hers… Don't believe everything you hear, folks)

XXX

Dear Diary,

I have never been so embarrassed before in my life! Today was Gai's birthday, and as I was trying to come up with the best gift imaginable, I tried to ask him about it a couple days ago, remember? But he only wants another challenge. Well, needless to say I didn't let that stop me, and the order I placed came in just in time. This morning. I was so happy about it arriving in time! I wrapped it in silver and blue, and I must've rewrapped the damned thing about seven times in order to get it perfect – not like I'm used to wrapping gifts, right? Right.

But he barely paid any attention to it, Diary… I feel like a fool. Who gives a taijustsu specialist weaponry anyway… I'm just a big idiot, aren't I? And then he dragged me off to some restaurant, saying we were going to have an eating challenge. I couldn't refuse him, because I'd agreed to do any challenge he'd like… Damnit! If he wanted the chance to stare at the most horribly disfigured face in the world in peace and quiet, he could've just said so, right? Right. Because staring's what he did, Diary. All. The. Time. I want to die…

Seriously though, I could tell he was disgusted, and he hates me now and there's no way in hell I'm ever going to have a chance with him and I should just give up, right? Right. I'm giving up. I'll find myself a nice girl tomorrow, maybe this time it'll work out. I don't want to think about Gai anymore, it only hurts. I think… I got that sake for my birthday a couple months ago, right? I didn't touch it yet. Maybe I will tonight. I think I will. I can't deal with all these emotions, and I can't go talk to sensei about them, so… I will just drown them tonight, and tomorrow… Yet another fresh start. It'll have to do.

K.