Chapter 8: Losing you
Beatus Medical Center
Washington D.C.
- We have to extubate her. It's not necessarily termination, but we not only have to honor the law, Dana, we also have to respect your mother's wishes - says the Doctor Colquitt to Scully, she remains silent looking at her with a raised eyebrow, her sadness hurts her whole self, she knows what it means, she will lose her mother forever, her phone starts to vibrate, she sighs looking at it and picks it up, the caller ID states "William", she looks again and then states "Mulder". She takes it to her ear slowly and answers - Yeah - Mulder's voice on the phone says - I'm here - she looks towards the door and he is standing behind the glass looking at her, she is relieved to see him.
- I know that what you are saying is true, I guess I just wanted her with me for a longer time, you do what you have to doctor, thank you - she looks at her mom on more time and then goes out to see Mulder, he is waiting for her next to a bench in the corridor, when she sees him, she goes towards him and he opens his arms to hug her, she goes and let him hug her for the first time since their reunion, his scent make her feel better, he puts his chin upon her head as he used to, warming her broken heart, he caresses her back and then kisses her hair, she pulls back and look into his eyes - Hey - she says simply with a half smile.
He puts a strand of hair behind her ear and smiles - Hey you, how is she? - She looks down at his chest and then at the floor - Mulder, they are going to disconnect her and I didn't know that her living will had changed, I'm going to lose her Mulder - she says sobbing a little, he hugs her putting his arm on her shoulder taking her to the bench to sit next to her, she pulls forward leaning her elbows on her thighs and playing with the chain that belonged to her mother between her fingers, he leans back putting an arm over the back of the seat, he looks at her with concern, this lost might hit her harder and he doesn't wanna see her sad and lonely, she has suffered enough, he remain silent staring at her, she then turns to look into his eyes and see his concerned expression, he is always there no matter what, no words needed, just his presence is enough - So, what have you discovered about the case? - she says swallowing, she is trying, really hard, she needs a distractions so he does what he knows best, explain unexplained cases.
- This case is interesting Scully, apparently there's an unknown killer that might be a product of collective imagination or it really exists but just for moments - she looks at him with a funny expression, there he is, Mulder and his crazy explanations, she thinks he is the only one that understand them, she smiles sadly, she only heard half of that, but she needs the distraction - I don't know what you talking about - he laughs, she is giving him that expression, that 'you are crazy Mulder' expression but at the same time she still has her eyes full of sadness, he continues trying to make her feel better.
- There was some artwork displayed outside Cutler's office after the murder. It was of a figure the people on the street believes defends them. The street artist that made the artwork goes by the name "Trashman". No-one knows his real name. Stays anonymous. No one's ever seen him. I suspect the subject may be a mission-oriented killer who believes he's helping the homeless by eliminating those involved with the relocation. And I would stay, but I suspect the subject will kill again - she nods, she only heard he is leaving, she has been distracted, she can't think about anything else, only her mother, she looks at the void with a cloudy look with tears, she needs to talk with her mother, she needs her
- She asked for Charlie, before she fell into the coma - her voice is a whisper full of sadness
- Your brother? - he answers immediately, he knows she hasn't been listening
- Yeah. Just him. Not Bill or me or... I don't even know where he is. He hasn't bothered with her or with us for years. Why would she do that? - she looks at him looking for an answer to her last question, but he gently shakes his head denying
She looks away from him again even sadder - And why would she change her living will without talking to me? - Mulder leans back, breathing deeply while she looks more intently at the necklace - And what's this? Oh. I've never seen her wear it - He picks up the necklace to inspect it while she keeps talking - The… the date has no significance. It's not any of our birthdays. It's not dad's death or Melissa's. I mean, what is it about that quarter that she would frame it to put it around her neck? - He tries to answer but he just can't, what can he say? He doesn't know the answers, he just wish he could answer her, she then look into the ward, the doctor, a resident and a couple of nurses are at her mother's bedside and will extubate her, she stands and walks toward them feeling a great emptiness in her heart, it seems as if the world had suddenly stopped and she was falling into a deep hole from which she could never leave, Mulder stands and walks faster behind her holding her by her shoulder before she can get closer, she stops and lays her back on his chest allowing her tears to finally run freely down her cheeks - I don't care about the big questions right now, Mulder... I just want one more chance to ask my mum a few little ones - They remain silent for a moment watching how the medics finish their work, she then turns and hide her face on his chest sobbing, her knees weaken and he holds her tightly
- Everything will be fine Scully - he says caressing her hair, she keeps crying on his chest, she can't face another loss, not without Mulder, he has always been her strength, she considers herself a strong woman, but the love for her family and the pain she feels when losing a loved one, is something that affects her considerably - You wanna go sit again? - she denies with her head and look up into his eyes - thank you for being here Mulder - he half smiles and kisses her forehead, she closes her eyes feeling his lips on her skin, somehow it's comforting. She then pulls away and walks towards her mom, she holds her hand and leans down to kiss her forehead - I love you mom, please come back to me, please - she says with new tears falling down her cheeks, she doesn't know if her mom will wake up again, but somehow she feels she already lost her.